Chapter 256: The Ferris Wheel
Zhao Yuyan bought her an ice cream, and Yu Linna said thank you and took it. When she was poor, she was quite fond of eating ice, and when Nangong Ying was around, she often bought her ice cream. It was just that every month, there was that damn menstrual period, and she would always have days when she couldn’t eat ice cream to her heart’s content.
She licked it, and a cool sensation spread across her tongue. She licked it a few more times, unable to stop. The sunlight shone on her, and as she licked her ice cream, she looked charming under the light. Passersby couldn’t help but take a second look.
“Little Nana, we’ll go play on that Ferris wheel in a bit. The view from up there will be amazing. You’ll definitely like it!”
Yu Linna smiled. Although she didn’t say anything, she was truly moved by her actions today. Not only did she drive away Nangong Ying, but she also brought her to the amusement park and bought her ice cream. It was impossible not to be moved.
She hadn’t noticed it before, but now she felt that Zhao Yuyan was a really good person.
“What are you smiling foolishly for? Are you that happy?”
“Not really. My mouth is just crooked.”
“You’re talking nonsense.”
Yu Linna didn’t say anything more, just quietly waited for her chance to ride the Ferris wheel. She had never experienced the taste of a Ferris wheel in her life.
In the past, she had no money, and she had no opportunity. Now that she lacked nothing, she could finally come and experience it.
But the amusement park was really crowded. They had to queue to ride the Ferris wheel. With this long line, she really didn’t know when her turn would come. Yu Linna was patient and just stood there queuing, playing on her phone. Zhao Yuyan was also very bored and decided to open a mobile game to play. As she played, she went crazy, not knowing how many meters she had moved forward. She didn’t even notice that she was getting farther and farther away from a certain blonde girl.
When Yu Linna looked up, it was finally her turn. She was about to go up but found that Zhao Yuyan was gone.
“Sister Yuyan, it’s time to go up. Where are you?”
She looked around for Zhao Yuyan, the person who had promised to take her to play on the Ferris wheel. But after looking for a while, she didn’t see her. She was just thinking that this person must have fallen behind.
Suddenly, she saw a person sitting in the Ferris wheel car in front of her, but she had no companion opposite her. Plus, the girl’s figure looked a bit like Zhao Yuyan. Yu Linna thought it was Zhao Yuyan and just ran in.
She seemed to hear someone shouting something behind her, but she didn’t pay any attention. Just running and squeezing into the Ferris wheel was already quite difficult. She sat down, panting and wiping away a bead of sweat. She was finally on. Looking down from here, there were really a lot of people. The Ferris wheel she was on slowly rose, getting farther and farther from the ground.
“Sister Yuyan, you didn’t even wait for me. You should have at least called me before you left…”
She maintained her smile and was about to say something, but the moment she turned her head, her smile froze.
The girl opposite her was the same, her expression dazed, her eyes slightly surprised, just looking at her.
Her black hair fell down, parted in the middle of her forehead. She was dressed beautifully today, in a blue dress, wearing a large white straw hat, and carrying a brand-name bag. Gone was her usual strong aura, replaced by the gentleness of an ordinary girl.
“Zhiyun…”
She muttered this name. This person, whom she had only seen a few times since the start of school, now appeared before her in the flesh. This feeling could not be described with words.
“Nana.”
Ye Zhiyun was the same. Seeing her after so long, her heart was also moved. These days, how could she not want to see her? She wanted so badly to be with her, to chat with her, to talk to her. But she couldn’t.
“Wenqian, didn’t she come up?”
Ye Zhiyun didn’t know what to say and just randomly changed the subject to hide her awkwardness.
At the same time, Dai Wenqian was holding two cups of milk tea, looking at the Ferris wheel that had already gone up. She really wanted to curse. This Ye Zhiyun, what the hell is she doing! No, that blonde, what the hell is she doing! Stealing my spot!
“Um, it seems my friend and your friend got on the wrong car.”
Zhao Yuyan scratched her scalp, looking embarrassed. Dai Wenqian looked at her, sizing her up. Since the two of them were also stranded, they might as well sit together. Anyway, they had queued.
…
And Ye Zhiyun and Yu Linna sat in the same Ferris wheel car, the atmosphere so awkward it was deadly. They didn’t know what to say.
“Zhiyun, you, what have you been up to recently?”
“I’m fine, nothing much.”
“Mmm.”
And then they fell into an awkward silence.
Ye Zhiyun had been avoiding her these days, wanting to wait until the storm passed before finding her. Due to her aunt’s matter, she didn’t dare to be too obvious. But her longing for her only deepened with each passing day, and her pain also increased daily. It wasn’t until she saw her here that her heart also began to lose control.
“Nana, I’m sorry.”
“What are you apologizing for?”
“I miss you so much. I want to see you so much.”
“If you really wanted to see me, why didn’t you come and find me?”
“I have my reasons.”
“What reasons? You can’t even tell me?”
“…”
She wanted to say it, but she couldn’t.
She had already decided. Before she was strong enough to protect her, she had to protect her at all costs. This was decided a long time ago.
“At least, I didn’t leave you because I hate you.”
Yu Linna’s heart was moved. For a moment, she believed it. But she still hardened her heart and forced herself to calm down. Don’t be a fool, Yu Linna. You should know how miserable the consequences of easily believing others are. You can’t believe others.
“Hehe, you big liar. Do you think I’ll believe your sweet words?” she said with a cold laugh.
The consequence of believing others is being betrayed. The incident with Nangong Ying was enough once. She didn’t want a second time. She would absolutely not believe others.
Ye Zhiyun felt a pain in her heart, a great pain. Her heart felt as if it was being squeezed, so uncomfortable it was suffocating. Especially when the person she liked the most said such words, how sad she must be. Before, she had clearly still believed her. Why had it become like this now?
“Nana…”
“You don’t have to say it. I understand all the reasoning. You saved my life, took me in, and I still owe you a debt. Whatever you do is right. I have no right to say anything. But Zhiyun, if you want to leave me, at least say so. I won’t blame you. My life was never mine to begin with.”
“No, that’s not it, that’s not it! I don’t have such thoughts!”
“You don’t have to say it. I understand, I understand everything. The adult world, these are all just adult transactions. Don’t worry, I will make a lot of money. One day, I will pay you back all the money. I won’t owe you anything.”
That’s not it.
It’s not like that at all.
Ye Zhiyun thought of her past with her, from their first meeting on the bus, to her outstretched hand at that train station, to the days she was taken in. All along, until she left her home.
Ye Zhiyun’s happiest time was the time Yu Linna lived at her house. At that time, Yu Linna was not yet famous, nor had she become a novelist, just a cannon fodder who had been eliminated from the entertainment industry. She had spent money to redeem her, giving her her freedom. And Yu Linna had also accompanied her for a period of time.
Later, Yu Linna had her own ideas, unwilling to just sink into despair. She entered the novel circle and started over.
After that, that was Yu Linna’s own era. Ye Zhiyun no longer participated.
“Nana, perhaps you think I’m lying, but what I’m saying is true. In this world, I can lie to everyone, but I won’t lie to you.”
She stood up and hugged her before Yu Linna could react. Ye Zhiyun’s temperature was very warm. Unlike Nangong Ying’s forcefulness, Ye Zhiyun was very gentle. If Yu Linna used her strength, she could definitely break free, but clearly, Yu Linna didn’t do so. She leaned on her shoulder, and Ye Zhiyun held her, feeling her temperature. She wished she could just hold her and not let go.
“Nana, can I hold you for a little longer?”
“…Not too long.”
She had wanted to refuse, but why, why didn’t she do so? She should have refused. She shouldn’t have softened. Why, in front of her, could she never maintain her rationality? Often, emotions are always a few notches stronger than reason.
When did she start to rely on Ye Zhiyun so much? When did she start to depend on Ye Zhiyun so much?
“I think you’re blaming me, right?”
“…”
“I’m sorry. I also want to see you. I also want to find you so much. But I can’t. At least not now. I’m not yet strong enough to protect you. I can only use this method to protect you.”
Her tone was filled with helplessness. All her powerlessness, all her pain, was expressed vividly. It was completely different from her usual strong and domineering aura. At this moment, she was more like a little wife who had been wronged.
Yu Linna’s heart softened again. She reached out and caressed her cheek. She could feel her temperature, feel her helplessness.
“What happened? You can tell me. Don’t just not say anything.”
“I will. One day, I will tell you.”
“You bad thing. Why are you doing this to me?”
“I’m sorry.”
“I don’t want an apology. I’ve wanted to see you so many times, but you didn’t come out.”
“I’ll try my best to find time to see you. I promise.”
“I might be very busy during this time.”
“Me too, but I’ll find time in my busy schedule.”
The Ferris wheel reached its highest point. Under the sunlight, the two figures slowly blurred and disappeared in the sun. Ye Zhiyun grabbed her hand. She wanted to hold it forever, to hold it and not let go.
Yu Linna rested her head on her shoulder, enjoying this brief warmth. This feeling was not bad at all.
When the Ferris wheel reached its highest point, the panoramic view of the entire Ferris wheel was also clearly visible in people’s eyes. This Ferris wheel just happened to form a heart shape.
…
After Yu Linna got off, she waited at the exit for a while. Soon, Zhao Yuyan also came down. She found the blonde girl at the exit and ran over to catch up.
“I just rode the Ferris wheel with a girl I just met. I came down a little later than you. Are you alright?”
“I’m fine.”
“Looking at you, it seems something good happened, right?”
“Not really. But, I am indeed a little happy.”
“Oh? Tell me about it.”
“I’d rather not.”
“Stingy.”
Zhao Yuyan and Yu Linna slowly walked away together. Ye Zhiyun silently watched from a corner, a faint smile on her face.
