I’ll Butcher Pigs to Support You! 27p2

Chapter 27 p2

Song Yugui sat on the edge of the bed with her in her arms, wondering where to begin. After a long while, she said haltingly, “Do… do you know what that Song Bao wanted to do?”

She still dared to mention him!

Shen Xizhi’s red rabbit eyes instantly widened, and she glared at her.

This time, she had been wrong about her. Song Yugui would not repent. She… she had become even more shameless than before!

A large teardrop rolled down from her eye without warning. Song Yugui instinctively reached out to catch it. It was scalding hot as it spread in her palm. Her heart ached for her, and she fumbled to comfort her. “Don’t… don’t cry. I was just about to explain. What are you crying for? Listen to me first.”

Tears soaked her thick lashes. The woman blinked her wet eyes, wanting to open her mouth to beg, to beg her not to sell her. She didn’t want to serve others, didn’t want to be touched by others. But her heart was also filled with hatred, resenting her for being so heartless. She stubbornly refused to bow her head and speak to her.

She had never known she had such a backbone…

“Do you remember, I told you before that I don’t remember many things?”

A thin layer of mist covered Shen Xizhi’s eyes. Had that happened?

It seemed so. Two and a half months ago, she had woken up one day and suddenly said she didn’t remember many things, asking her some very strange questions.

But… she had thought Song Yugui was playing a trick on her, and later hadn’t taken it seriously.

Now that she was bringing it up, what did she want to say?

Her wet lashes trembled. Shen Xizhi didn’t speak, remaining stubbornly silent.

Seeing her dazed, Song Yugui reached out to rub her head, but to her surprise, she turned her head away. She allowed herself to be held, but not touched.

She silently withdrew her hand, pretending nothing had happened, and explained word by word, seriously, “Someone might have had this idea before, but I don’t remember. I didn’t know beforehand that Song Bao had that kind of thought. I ran into him on the road, and he said he had something to tell me about my family. My only family is you, right? I thought, I can’t take anything related to Xizhi lightly. What if someone wants to bully my Xizhi? What if I miss something important? I was so worried, that’s why I brought him home, wanting to hear what it was about you. But I didn’t expect him to say something like that…”

After Song Yugui finished speaking, she looked down at the pale, almost translucent face of the person in her arms. Her mouth opened, but she decided to first ask, “Can you understand what I’m saying?”

Shen Xizhi had, of course, listened carefully. She was also afraid that Song Yugui had really been pretending to be a good person for two months just to package her up and sell her to someone else. She was so afraid that the person beside her pillow would do such a cruel thing, so afraid that she even thought… thought…

The thought had only just crossed her mind when she was so frightened that she straightened her back in the other’s arms, her pearly white teeth biting her lip tightly. No, don’t, don’t do that.

Her bony, slender fingers unconsciously clutched the woman’s clothes. Even though she was resentful, angry, unwilling, and in despair, she found that she couldn’t bear for this person to die.

Even though the other might have betrayed her, even intended to sell her.

A strong sense of self-mockery gradually appeared in Shen Xizhi’s eyes. She mocked herself for being so debased, for clinging to a little bit of kindness and being unwilling to let go.

“Xizhi, Xizhi?”

The person in her arms hadn’t responded for a long time. Song Yugui became anxious and called her name repeatedly, her face getting closer and closer, until she finally nuzzled her small face.

Two soft faces pressed together, finally startling Shen Xizhi awake.

Her eyes were filled with astonishment, and her body suddenly leaned back, so frightened that Song Yugui quickly cupped her little head in her arms, clutching her chest with a nervous expression. “You scared me to death! I almost let you fall.”

Shen Xizhi continued to press her lips together, her gaze seemingly calm as she looked at her. But if one looked closely, one could see a twisted madness hidden beneath the calm.

“Let me down.”

“No. In a little while, you’ll just go and hide under the quilt like a turtle.”

Hanging herself. What terrifying words. This matter had to be explained clearly today. What if something happened when no one was at home in the future?

The more Song Yugui thought about it, the more frightened she became, breaking out in a cold sweat.

No, I can’t leave her at home alone either. I have to take her with me. But it’s not good to take someone to the restaurant every day. I’ll just finish this month’s work and then stop for now…

Song Yugui made up her mind. She felt that her wife was more important. She silently held her even tighter.

“I won’t.”

Shen Xizhi denied it.

“You will.”

Unfortunately, Song Yugui rejected her denial, as if she had already seen through her thoughts.

“If you have the guts, then hold me forever and never let me down.”

Shen Xizhi threw out a harsh word.

This time, while she wasn’t paying attention, Song Yugui touched her hair and rubbed her jade-like ear, leaving her dazed. Her angry expression froze on her face like a dumb goose.

She, on the other hand, smiled and said, “Alright, you’re even talking back to me fiercely now.”

Shen Xizhi used to talk back before, but it was always soft and incredibly cute, making it impossible for one to be angry with her. She must have been really angry today.

She touched the slender arm under her palm, her voice softening again. “I’m serious. I didn’t want to sell you, and I didn’t know he would say that to me. Otherwise, I definitely wouldn’t have let him come over.”

Shen Xizhi lowered her eyes and didn’t speak. She no longer knew whether to believe Song Yugui’s words.

Song Yugui also knew that the original owner had left her with too much of a mess. She had finally managed to make the villain feel a little close to her, and now, after this incident, she was afraid she would shrink back into her turtle shell again.

Her expression was filled with helplessness.

“Were you… were you very scared just now?”

Her peripheral vision caught sight of the hemp rope on the floor. Her hand fumbled around and gradually landed on the woman’s snowy, slender neck. It wasn’t red, and there were no marks. It seemed she hadn’t started to hang herself yet. Thank god, thank god. If she had really hanged herself, even if she had only been hanging for a little while before someone found her, it would have been enough to break her heart.

Shen Xizhi thought of her fear when she saw Song Bao. And she had said she didn’t want to sell her, that she wasn’t conspiring with Song Bao. A sense of grievance gradually welled up in her heart.

She pouted, nodded, Yes, I was terrified, scared to death, scared out of my wits.

Song Yugui pressed her into her embrace, her voice still filled with lingering fear. “You could have asked me first. At the very least, you could have scolded me or hit me. Why did you have to hurt yourself?”

She didn’t understand. In the novel, when the villain was bullied by the original owner, she had thought of killing the original owner. How had it turned into the villain not wanting to live anymore and wanting to hang herself?

Shen Xizhi silently clutched her clothes, lowering her head guiltily. She hadn’t really intended to hang herself. She had been deliberately putting on a show for Song Yugui. If she had even a sliver of pity for her, she might have temporarily given up the idea of selling her, and then she could have thought of a way. Who knew… Auntie Li had seen her with the rope and had started shouting, which had frightened her so much that she had to go along with it.

“I… I was scared.”

As if remembering her usual tactic of showing weakness, the woman lifted her watery eyes and looked at her pitifully.

Song Yugui was stunned. Wait, weren’t you just angry at me and ignoring me?

But her heart still sank uncontrollably into her watery and pitiful eyes.

It softened again and again, until it was a puddle of water.

Her voice also softened. Holding her, she pressed her fluffy head against her chest and sighed. “Even if I had no conscience, I wouldn’t do something like selling my wife. Shen Xizhi, don’t be afraid of me. I won’t sell you. And being afraid is no reason to hurt yourself. You should think of a way to break the situation. If everyone else bullies you, are you going to join them and bully yourself too?”

Her heart ached for her. She would rather the other be like in the novel, directly solving the problem from the root, than to see her be bad to herself.

Of course, Shen Xizhi wouldn’t bully herself, nor would she let others bully her. But, when she looked up and saw the person holding her with pity in her eyes, as if she were some delicate flower or leaf that could be easily bullied, she paused. She didn’t explain, her lowered lashes trembling, her voice slightly hoarse, with a cautious probing, “Really not? But we have no money at home…”

She had spent seventy wen to buy her a skirt, and the family’s money was at the bottom again. That’s why she had thought… she was really going to sell her for money. With Song Yugui’s past disposition, she was capable of doing it, wasn’t she?

She was still suspicious of her.

Song Yugui was angry, and a little wronged for herself. It clearly wasn’t her who had done it, but now it was all her fault. She let out her frustration by pinching the soft, tender face in her embrace. Seeing her cover her face and twist her waist to dodge, but unable to escape, her cheeks puffed out in a huff, her expression so vivid and completely different from the dark despair she had seen when she came in, she finally felt a sense of relief and began to feel sorry for her again.

“I didn’t say I was going to sell you when we were so poor at the beginning. We’re much better off now. Why would I sell you? I’ll earn the money. Who would trade their wife for money? Is that even human?”

Shen Xizhi pouted, feeling even more wronged. “You said you were going to sell me back then.”

Song Yugui: I xxx original owner you big idiot, you say whatever comes to your mind and throw all the blame on me, I xxx did you hear me I xxx!!!