Chapter 473: The Distance Between Hearts
Had they not seen each other in a long time?
How long had it been? She hadn’t paid attention. The only thing she knew was that they had seen each other very few times, and had spent very little time together. Gradually, the number of times they could see each other had also decreased.
This day, Yu Linna had seen Ye Zhiyun, and Ye Zhiyun had seen Yu Linna, but the two of them no longer had their past passion. When Yu Linna had needed her the most, she was not there. When Ye Zhiyun had most wanted to be understood, Yu Linna was also not there.
In the end, the distance between their two hearts had become farther and farther apart. In the very end, their distance had become the most distant distance in the world.
“Want to eat?”
“Mmm.”
“Or go shopping and watch a movie?”
“Either is fine.”
The fading of feelings began with conversation.
The two hearts that had just warmed up were now becoming cold again.
Ye Zhiyun really couldn’t think of anything to do, so she had pulled her to her own home. She did indeed have a house in Guangnan, although she rarely lived there now. Usually, she lived in Shanghai more, since her company was also there.
It had been a long time since she had stepped into her home, and Yu Linna felt a sense of unfamiliarity. Although she had the keys to Ye Zhiyun’s house in her hand, she had never been here since that argument. And after that, their relationship had experienced a period of easing, but in the end, they had found that it was difficult for them to understand each other, to the point where even now, Yu Linna had not stepped into this place much.
Yu Linna entered her house. She had originally wanted to say that she would cook a meal herself, but Ye Zhiyun had stopped her and had said that she would cook today.
“I’ll cook today.”
“Mmm.”
Ye Zhiyun did indeed know how to cook, although the taste was not as good as Yu Linna’s, and it was also a bit ordinary. But Yu Linna did not mind this. When she had been rescued from the train station by her that year, Ye Zhiyun had personally cooked for her. That dish was still unforgettable to Yu Linna to this day.
It had also been a long time since Ye Zhiyun had cooked. She had been clumsy in the kitchen for half a day, and had almost even dropped a plate. But fortunately, she had managed to get it out in the end. When she had brought out the vegetable salad, there was still a trace of pride on her face.
“This is my masterpiece, the Ye family’s special fruit and vegetable salad. Quick, try it.”
“Why didn’t you make some meat dishes?”
“Of course there are! Look, this is the Ye family’s special braised pork!”
This was their time.
Only at this moment.
Yu Linna took a spoon and tasted the salad that Ye Zhiyun had made. She frowned, feeling that it was not very good.
“You put too much salad dressing. Also, the taste is not well-adjusted.”
She unceremoniously commented on this dish. Ye Zhiyun scratched her head, not knowing what to say. After all, she had been at the company for so long, either ordering takeout or going out to eat with her colleagues. She rarely said that she would cook herself. It was inevitable that her cooking skills would regress.
But in any case, at least they were happy now, even if this happiness was too short-lived.
They cooked together, chatted together, and talked together, enjoying this moment.
After eating, Yu Linna washed the dishes and then gave the keys back to Ye Zhiyun.
“What is this?”
Ye Zhiyun did not understand her intention.
“Anyway, I rarely go to your house. This thing is useless. Take it back.”
“…”
Although Ye Zhiyun wanted to say something, in the end, she still took it back.
It seemed that besides being sad when Yu Linna had moved out of her house, she had never been as sad as she was now.
She didn’t know what she had done, but she didn’t feel that there was anything wrong at all.
The two of them were walking on the road. They were not wearing each other’s rings on their hands. The couple’s rings that symbolized their love were now gone. Ye Zhiyun tried to hold her hand, but she still felt that something was not right. Yu Linna had no reaction at all. Her face was plain, and her heart was not moved at all.
And Ye Zhiyun, her heart was also bitter to the extreme.
“Nana.”
“Mmm.”
“Hug me.”
“Okay.”
Yu Linna opened her arms and hugged Ye Zhiyun.
Ye Zhiyun discovered that she could never go back to the past. The her who would be moved in the past was no longer there.
Yu Linna also knew what she was thinking. She didn’t say anything, just smiled.
“What are you in a daze for? Let’s go. Our road is still very long. If we can’t finish this one, we’ll just change to another one.”
She didn’t know if this sentence was for her to hear, or for herself to hear.
Yu Linna looked up at her. Although she was smiling, her smile was so bitter.
Now she was being flamed like a dog online, and all sorts of rumors had come. She herself didn’t care. But she had once longed for a little comfort from her lover, but unfortunately, this had never been realized.
The two of them were walking together. Ye Zhiyun suddenly hugged her, holding her tightly and not letting go.
“This will be very uncomfortable.”
Yu Linna complained.
Ye Zhiyun did not want to let go. At least, she did not want to let go now.
“I feel a little strange.”
“Where is it strange?”
“I once promised to give you a good life, to be responsible for your life. I also said, I want to protect you. But I find that I haven’t done any of it.”
“It’s fine. You’ve already done very well. You’ve given me everything you can give. This life of mine was also picked up by you. You can do whatever you want to me.”
In the end, she still let go of her.
The two of them walked on the road without any words. They said they were going to watch a movie, but in fact, neither of them had bought a ticket. They said they were going shopping, but in fact, they were just walking around casually. Yu Linna had once said that she wanted to go to an amusement park, but Ye Zhiyun had not fulfilled her promise.
Yu Linna sighed, pulled her to a remote street, and pointed to a hotel, saying.
“Zhiyun, want to go in?”
“…What are you doing?”
Ye Zhiyun was a little surprised.
Yu Linna’s face was flushed, a little embarrassed, but she still controlled herself and tried to make her voice not so nervous.
“Didn’t you really want to do that kind of thing? Now there’s a chance.”
“…”
“You’ve been with me for so long. You must have really wanted to do this. I know you’ve been holding it in for a long time.”
“…”
“I’m fine. Let’s go in. Today, I won’t mind whatever you do.”
They used their ID cards to register, opened a room. The young lady at the front desk didn’t take it as a big deal. After all, it was just two girls. What kind of trouble could they get into?
The room door was locked.
Yu Linna was gently pushed onto the bed. She didn’t resist at all. And Ye Zhiyun leaned down, kissed her lips. In the room, there was only the sound of their breathing. The curtains were drawn. No one knew what was happening. Ye Zhiyun was demanding, her hand climbing on the small hill. Yu Linna frowned slightly, still not resisting.
Ye Zhiyun unbuttoned her buttons one by one, slid over the hill, passed through the grassland, and gently tore open the flower petals one by one. The blonde girl was almost half-naked in front of her. Her upper body was bare, openly in front of her.
No matter what Ye Zhiyun did, she didn’t say anything. Only in this way could she keep her.
This was the last thing she could do.
If their love still has any residual warmth, then let it continue to radiate residual heat. If their love cannot last forever, at least for now, they can preserve it for a while. The flame will be extinguished one day, but she does not want the flame of love to be extinguished.
I still want to be together forever.
Ye Zhiyun stopped.
“Nana.”
“Why did you stop? Continue.”
“You’re crying.”
“…”
Only when Yu Linna wiped the corner of her eye did she realize that her eyes were already wet. Those feelings she couldn’t control had all poured out.
Ye Zhiyun looked at her plainly for a moment, slowly got up from her, and then tidied her own clothes.
“Put on your clothes. Let’s go back.”
Yu Linna sat up. She was not wearing anything on top, but now, she looked like a clown. Even like this, she couldn’t salvage a single bit. Just how much of a failure was she?
Yu Linna smiled wryly, wiped away her tears, and put on her own clothes.
She knew that up to this point, they had nothing more to say.
They were clearly so close, but the distance between their hearts was like an insurmountable chasm. It turned out that this was what it meant to be so close yet so far.
“Zhiyun, do you love me?”
“I do.”
“But at what speed do I have to live to be able to walk on the same path as you? Even if I send a hundred, a ten thousand messages, make a hundred phone calls, say ‘goodnight’ a ten thousand times, the distance between our hearts will not get closer by a single centimeter. You tell me, how far is the distance between you and me?”
This question, who could answer it?
Probably, no one could.
“I don’t know.”
The most distant distance is the distance between hearts. We have both tried our best to talk, but we have no way to understand each other.
They already knew each other’s thoughts.
They walked out and also took this step. The reason why their feelings had become more and more distant was probably that when I needed you, you happened not to be there.
And when I wanted to understand you, you were unwilling to accept it.
“The weather is starting to get warmer.”
“Mmm.”
“In the spring, you can try to take off your scarf.”
“Mmm.”
“When I’m not by your side, you have to take good care of yourself.”
“Mmm.”
Their feet had stopped at the top of the overpass. The two of them were back to back, and neither of them spoke. And Yu Linna hoped that the other party would not speak. She would rather the other party be a mute.
But Ye Zhiyun, in the end, still turned around.
“I say, should we calm down for a period of time?”
Yu Linna also turned around.
Ye Zhiyun looked at her.
Yu Linna did not speak.
“Let’s both give each other some time. Perhaps we are both tired and need to calm down.”
“Mmm.”
“…”
Ye Zhiyun lowered her head and thought for a long time. In the end, she looked up.
“Let’s break up.”
“Mmm.”
She had said it.
That sentence, the one that should not have been said.
After a moment of silence, Yu Linna thought for a moment and still wanted to ask a few questions first.
“Is this your decision?”
“Although my someone has told me not to get too close to you, I once longed to walk with you… but I think we are both quite tired. Breaking up for a period of time might be good for both of us.”
“You’re right. I also feel that I’m tired. This is also good. But in any case, please don’t forget that I once loved you. You always said that I never said this sentence. Now, I don’t owe you this sentence anymore.”
“Me too. I love you. I once loved you very much.”
“Mmm. Thank you.”
Did they really not love each other anymore?
Maybe, maybe not.
But no matter what they said, they had already made their decision. Perhaps this had come very quickly, but feelings are often like this. You think it’s very fast, but in fact, everything is already destined.
The two of them walked in opposite directions, farther and farther away. In the end, they were submerged in the crowd, and no one could find anyone anymore…
