Extra 6: Xia Qiange, Part 2
The year Su Qianqian started elementary school, the two of them both entered middle age.
This child should be considered an accident. When she found out that she had really won the lottery, Xia Qiange was not very willing at first.
Although she sincerely wanted a little life that was mixed with the blood of the two of them, she was also vaguely worried about ruining the opportunity for the two of them to be alone. If this little guy came out, wouldn’t he have to compete with her for everything?
She had chosen the word “qian,” which meant that everything should be taken lightly, and that she should not be deeply obsessed. It would be good to be safe and happy for the rest of her life.
When her mother was in her confinement, she had looked at the newborn little guy. Her face was wrinkled, and her skin was loose. There were not many hairs on her head. She had sighed with great disgust. “How come she didn’t inherit her father’s looks at all? She’s so ugly. This is definitely not my biological child.”
Although she was disgusted on the surface, she had never mistreated the child. She would get up several times in the middle of the night to change her diapers. The sharp cry had made her, who was already a light sleeper, have a nervous breakdown. She had not even let Su Yu hire a nanny. She had said that she had to do it herself. Otherwise, the child would not be close to her when she grew up.
His flesh and blood, she had to love it well.
Fortunately, the little girl had later opened up. Her features were just like her father’s when he was a child, as if they had been carved from the same mold. Her bone structure was seven or eight parts like her mother’s. So her mother had not been disgusted for a while, and she had soon become very fond of her. She would hold her in her palm all day, as if she were a treasure, for fear that she would be bumped or touched.
Three sentences were not far from her family’s Su Qianqian.
“Su Yu, Qianqian called me ‘mommy.’ She called me first. It was really not in vain to dote on her.”
“That Nian Nian next door is bullying my Qianqian again. Is that how a sister should be? Aren’t you going to do something about it? It must be that woman Su Xi who instigated it. I’ll go and find her…”
“I can’t bear to let Qianqian sleep alone. She must be scared. How about we bring her back?”
…
He had a headache. So he had painstakingly advised her, “This is called doting.”
She had also answered with great conviction, “This is to love your share for you. It’s enough that you love me.”
…
“Qianqian, tomorrow is your first day of elementary school. It’s the same as kindergarten. You can’t be with your parents all day. You have to be strong, okay?”
“Yeah, yeah. Qianqian will be good. Qianqian won’t cry.”
The little girl had nodded very seriously and had rubbed against his cheek. “You have to miss me too, Daddy. Come and pick Qianqian up early after school.”
“Okay. Of course I miss Qianqian. And I’ll definitely come and pick you up very early.”
“Then… do you miss me? Who will pick me up after work?”
Someone was leaning against the side of the door and was looking at Su Qianqian, who was more doted on than her. She was so angry that her teeth were itching.
Su Qianqian had been very clever since she was a child. This was just like her mother. She held Su Yu’s neck and kissed him on the face with a milky sound. She even winked at Xia Qiange. “Mommy is shameless. She’s snatching things from a child…”
“Su Yu, if you don’t come back to the room in ten minutes, don’t come in.”
The child’s mother was so angry that she had turned and had gone back to the bedroom. The door had been closed with a loud bang.
Su Yu was stunned on the spot. After a long while, he had sighed. In the end, he had comforted the child to sleep. When he had gone back to the room, she had ignored him. He had turned to sleep, but she was looking at him with a resentful look. Her gaze was on his back, and she was silently accusing him of his coldness. She was like a resentful concubine in a deep palace who could not get any love.
He couldn’t stand it. He had turned around and had asked her not to be angry. Who would have known that the drunkard’s intention was not in the wine?
He had fallen into her trap. Under her loose bathrobe, she was vacuum-packed. Her snow-white skin was in large patches, and her full breasts were half-exposed. Her slender waist was twisting and was clinging to him. The hot air she had exhaled was steaming his reason, and it was teasing him bit by bit, and it was so itchy that it was unbearable.
Xia Qiange had resentfully accused him of being busy with work recently, and that he had already left her in the cold palace for a week. She couldn’t bear it anymore.
She had bitten his ear and had said word by word, “You have to… compensate me.”
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The next day, the two of them had driven Qianqian to school together.
Her mother had taken the passenger seat first. The child could only be tied with two layers of a seatbelt in the back. It was also a special child seat. Her small face was bitter. Drinking milk was undoubtedly the most painful time of the day.
“Daddy, it’s so bad.”
“Hurry up and finish it. A child won’t grow tall if they don’t drink milk. Your mom has already drunk it obediently.”
“You’re lying. I saw Mommy secretly pour the milk in the bathroom.”
Su Yu had looked at Xia Qiange, and the latter had turned her gaze away, as if it had nothing to do with her. “It’s quite bad in the first place. Qianqian is quite similar to me in this aspect.”
“Parents have to set an example for their children.”
“Traitor!”
Xia Qiange had turned her head and had glared at Su Qianqian fiercely. The little child had shivered. “Mommy is so fierce.”
“I haven’t settled the score with you from yesterday. What do you mean, Mommy is snatching things from you? It was originally mine…”
“Mommy is just snatching Daddy from me. I’ve heard it several times… at night.”
The little girl was reckless and was shouting. The two big ones in front had suddenly trembled. They had looked at each other and had then looked at the back seat. “You… what did you say?”
“It’s just… Mommy was secretly calling you ‘daddy’ on the other side of the wall when I was asleep at night. It’s clearly Qianqian’s daddy. Why does Mommy have to call you that too?”
“Cough cough.”
Su Yu had coughed loudly, and his gaze was extremely unnatural and was flashing. He had been perfunctory and had said, “You’ll understand these things in the future. Don’t ask too many questions.”
“You might have misheard.” Her mother had also followed suit.
The two of them had sent the child home and had also specially tested the soundproofing effect. The upstairs and downstairs were fine. It was just that the wall of the bedroom was thin. The two of them had looked at each other, and on the same day, they had found someone to install several more layers of a soundproofing board.
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Su Yu had been on a business trip for two days. Although it was not the first time, the two of them were still very reluctant before they had left.
“Be careful on the way. Call me when you get there.”
“Okay.”
Xia Qiange had touched his face, which was no longer young. The years had carved a mature and honed feeling on his face. He had to take responsibility, and he had to love his family. There were too many things to be concerned about.
How many years had it been? They had finally gotten through it. They had let go of so many obsessions and madness, and so many hardships. He couldn’t count them. They had all been thrown behind them and had weathered into a handful of a virtual and scattered yellow sand.
No matter what, she had never regretted her love for him.
She had gone home. She had nothing to do. Xia Qiange had led the little guy and had decided to do a big cleaning. She had turned the boxes and cabinets upside down and had cleared out a large pile of old things. She was sweeping the dust, and Su Qianqian was holding a box of a gray and dusty clutter and had come out. She had rummaged through it and had found a letter with yellowed corners.
“Mommy, look. There’s a letter here.”
“What letter?”
Xia Qiange had walked over with a confused look. She had taken the envelope and had found that there was no information on it. So she had casually torn open the seal and had taken out a piece of a letter paper that was already a little hard.
It was written in her handwriting, so she had suddenly remembered.
This letter was written to the her of ten years from now:
Hello, Xia Qiange.
I’m the you of ten years ago. I’m so curious. What are you like now?
I’m sure you’re already a mother when you see this letter. After all… you wanted a life that belonged only to you and him so much.
I don’t know where you’re living now, or if you’re a housewife, or if you’re working and taking care of the family with him. But it should be very busy. But I think you’ll probably be very happy and very satisfied with your life now.
I know that he and I are not that good yet. There’s still a long way to go in the future, and there’s also a lot of pain to endure. I… I still have to suffer for you. So… I’m so envious of you.
But no matter what, he should be by your side.
I… I’m really useless, and I’m very cowardly. I can feel that he’s trying his best to comfort me, to make me feel at ease, to let go, to not be obsessive, and to be a normal person.
But… it’s really so hard. I really can’t do it now. I have too many fears about the future. I’m afraid he’ll leave, I’m afraid he’ll get tired of me, and I’m even more afraid that he won’t love me.
Xia Qiange, Xia Qiange, you’re really a coward.
But I’m warning you. No matter what, you have to control yourself. You’re not allowed to be willful, and you’re not allowed to be bad again. Most importantly, you must, must not hurt him again.
There are really too many things to say. A single letter seems to be far from enough. I don’t know if the you now is still as hesitant and as lacking in courage as I am. But I want to tell you that no matter how many difficulties there are in front of you, you must not be afraid. You must not take a wrong path, and you must not be stubborn.
I believe that he will definitely be with you. You two must… be well.
…
He had just left not long ago. For no reason, Xia Qiange had suddenly dialed his phone.
“Hello? Is there something?”
The traffic on the other end was noisy, and his voice was gentle and calm. He had heard that she was not making a sound, and he was also vaguely a little flustered. “Why aren’t you speaking? Don’t scare me. Do you want me to go back now?”
“Nothing.”
The corners of her eyes were slightly wet. She had raised her sore eyes and had looked at the little girl who was at a small table not far away and was playing with her little fingers and was doing arithmetic. She had then looked up at the sky.
The clouds were rolling and were relaxing, and the wind was gentle and the sun was bright.
She had held the phone tightly and had shaken her head. The corners of her lips had slowly curved up.
“Su Yu, it’s so good to have met you.”
A New Life, Yet Still Bound by Her Love – End
