Overly Intense [Criminal Investigation] 116

Chapter 116: Unhooked! Unhooked! Unhooked!

Shen Yiyi was as soft as a pillow, the pillow she had fantasized about and had held under her countless times as a child.

a child.

But her soft body did not prevent her neck from being stiff.

Qin Luo’s hand traveled from her back to the nape of her neck. She held the back of her head and kissed her deeply. They no longer needed any proper propriety or distance. The decency she had reserved for Shen Yiyi had all been lost. Now, with the person in her arms, Qin Luo was only focused on devouring this cake.

Qin Luo was biting her, but she was restrained and did not dare to bite too hard. Her fingertips pressed against her throat, squeezing the other until even her breathing began to shake.

Shen Yiyi had the scent of wood shavings from a drawing paper that had been exposed to the sun, like an old book cover slightly curled up in the summer, the corners turned up like the curve of her hips that was half-covered by her palm. The curve was soft, an outline she had never finished drawing. Qin Luo politely stayed at the intersection of desire and memory—she was reluctant to let go, and she did not want to draw the whole picture.

The one who was afraid of hurting each other was always Qin Luo, and it was the same even when they were kissing.

Unfortunately, this was a sofa, not the log table from her fantasy three months ago, nor was it the nostalgia she had felt when she was looking for the letters at Logos.

Two weeks ago, when she had returned to Fengjiang, the car had driven past the road they had taken home from school. The pool hall had been demolished and had become a supporting parking lot for the business district. The navigation had reminded her that the destination was on the right, but when she had rolled down the window, she had felt that things were different.

She didn’t know if Shen Yiyi wanted to go back to the riverside with her, to choose an afternoon when the weather was warmer, not to be in a hurry to go home to do her homework, not to be panicked about holding hands, and no one would notice the two people sitting under the bridge, one smoking, one reading.

Therefore, Qin Luo was angry.

She was really having a string of bad luck.

Clearly, pure love was no longer popular in this era, but she had been scolded as a lowlife on the premise of being abandoned.

What should she do with her? At this thought, the syrup that had been half-digested in her mouth lost its taste.

—They could also just kiss.

“We’ve kissed…” The hot air that had escaped in the gap of her swallowing brushed against the side of her face, her breath swaying. Qin Luo wiped the tears from Shen Yiyi’s neck. “Are you happy now?”

The rain in the south was always frequent, and the city was dim for half of the day. The things that happened on a rainy day were always wet and would not dry for a long time. They would wear away night after night, and would even stink if they were left for too long.

Qin Luo rested her head on her shoulder and held her tightly. “Should you be satisfied now?”

Shen Yiyi was like a cake that had been left for too long.

The fruit puree was moldy. A piece of it was both astringent and bitter. There was no honey, no caramel. After a couple of chews, there was even a fibrous texture, which made it difficult to swallow. But every taste was different for everyone. Her own taste was indeed picky. It was really unlucky for Qin Luo, as a diner, to fall in love with her at first sight. It was highly likely that no one would want to lick this cake more than she did.

She wanted to ask Shen Yiyi if she was happy that she could always get her way with her.
If she was happy, could she also love her a little?
If she was satisfied, could she also coax her a little?

But Shen Yiyi did not answer.

This return kiss was too sudden. Shen Yiyi’s mind was muddled. Her sober consciousness was suddenly dragged back into a swamp. This was a real freefall. First, she had crashed, and then she had taken off. The emptiness was filled, and the sense of security was so overflowing that there was a burnt smell.

Shen Yiyi was now suspended in mid-air. She had just cried and had used up most of her energy. Now, she was so kissed that her eyes were dazed. She was like the morning mist in the melting snow, swaying lightly, her forehead against the side of Qin Luo’s face, her hands around her neck.

“I want to take a shower.”

“Okay.”

The dazed Qin Luo let go of her hand and replied faintly, “Go ahead.”

This time, her emotions did not collapse. It was the atmosphere that jumped off the building first.

Shen Yiyi did not get up. She could feel that Qin Luo was cold all over. Her hands were hanging on the back of the sofa, making her look like a koala sitting on a zookeeper’s lap.

So she fell to the ground again.

Qin Luo was really obedient. Now, she would move one step at a time. It was she who had said to kiss, and Qin Luo had just cooperated with the kiss. Clearly, both of them had been very invested in the kiss just now, but her hand had just wandered around her waist for a couple of times and had not moved anymore. Shen Yiyi remembered that in Fengjiang, Qin Luo was not like this. The speed at which she had taken off her pants was even faster than the speed at which she had sprayed alcohol.

What? They were already like this between adults, and she still had to force her to state her next demand? Did she have to say to Qin Luo, “F*ck me”?

???

Shen Yiyi was afraid that she would not be able to say something like “f*ck me” even with a knife at her throat or swallowing mercury.

At this thought, Shen Yiyi straightened up.

She looked down and pinched the collar of Qin Luo’s shirt, asking in a muddled voice, “Why?”

Qin Luo looked at her. “Why what?”

Shen Yiyi said, “You don’t like it?”

Qin Luo used Shen Yiyi’s first choice of answer. “It’s okay.”

Shen Yiyi always discounted praises. “Good” was average to her, and “okay” was not very good to her. Qin Luo had never said anything like “okay” or “so-so” to her.

Oh…

Qin Luo had really lost interest in her. She had been put in the same category as You Ning, just for kissing.

With a click, the light in her heart was turned off.

It was turned off very quickly. Before her mind could react, her emotions had already begun to freefall, accurately stabbing her self-esteem. A sour feeling began to overflow, the concentration too saturated, and her breath was choked with a sour and bitter taste.

Everything began to be too intense.

The matter of Qin Luo kissing someone else was not worth mentioning in this concentration. It was so hot that she wanted to run away, so she didn’t even dare to move her expression.

Buzz—
Buzz—

“Your phone is vibrating.”

Qin Luo reminded Shen Yiyi in a deep voice. The muted phone in her trouser pocket was vibrating between their legs. With their current posture, the vibration was a little too ambiguous.

Shen Yiyi answered the phone.

“Director, I’m telling you…”

Lin Puping’s voice was particularly noisy on the phone. The electric current sound passed through her ear. Shen Yiyi held her slightly trembling voice. “Do you have to say it today? Will someone die immediately if you don’t?”

“That won’t happen.”

Shen Yiyi hung up the phone without a word.

She couldn’t switch her state in a second, so her voice to Qin Luo became cold and indifferent again. “You don’t like me anymore.”

It was not a question, nor was it a statement. It was so distant that it was as if it was not describing the two of them. For Shen Yiyi, before she made a decision that would affect the whole body, she had to grasp the possibility of winning, or a high rate of return.

The matter of her mother was a huge wound for her. She did not communicate with her father, and she did not want to talk about it with Qin Luo. In her eyes, Qin Luo could only be a bonus, not a minus that would make her regret in the future. After all, people are always greedy. They love for three minutes, and tomorrow they don’t know which corner they will be cold in.

“We kissed today, and tomorrow you say we’re just friends. The day after tomorrow you say we should never see each other again, and next year you say you regret it.” Qin Luo’s answer was also frank. She called her name. “Shen Yiyi, whether I like you or not depends on you.”

It has depended on you for many years.

Qin Luo took the glasses from the sofa. She put them on again. The lenses were covered in the sweat that Shen Yiyi had rubbed on them, so she took them off and wiped them clean. When a person is questioning, they always want to see the other’s expression clearly, to probe their true feelings. “Have you not read those letters you took?”

If Shen Yiyi had really read them, she would not have said that she was being deliberate.

“A little bit.”

Qin Luo was so angry she laughed, a strange, stiff smile. “I’ve persisted with you for so many years, and in your eyes, it’s just a ‘little bit’ of liking that can be questioned. What more do you want me to do? In the dozen or so years before we reunited, have you ever been afraid that there would be countless You Nings around me?”

If Shen Yiyi had read the letters, she would have known that she had been afraid, afraid that she would fall in love with a more outstanding person, a richer person, or a more considerate person.

But Shen Yiyi was not afraid at all that she would run away.

“You came to our house and said you regretted it. Don’t you have any selfish motives?”

Qin Luo’s voice was cold, her eyes sour. Replaying the past would only make the comparison more obvious.

“You’re undecided, you’re wavering, and even your regret has a purpose. All your actions depend on whether it’s beneficial to you. Because of your possessiveness, your jealousy, you’re afraid that I’ll immediately fall in love with You Ning. To you, I’m just a possession of a mysophobe. You think you won’t be able to find a partner like me who will tolerate you without any bottom line. But have you ever observed me? Have you ever tried to understand me?”

Qin Luo answered for her, “No.”

She felt that no one in this world could tolerate a mysophobe, an egoist like Shen Yiyi for more than three days.
—Except for her roommate.

But that was because her roommate was an outsider to Shen Yiyi, a person who could be indifferent to her. No one would love this moldy little cake more than her.

“You get angry when I help you talk to the leader, you get angry when I help you find a house, and you get annoyed when I give you money.” Qin Luo gritted her teeth and broke it down. “You came to my house for dinner simply because I helped your uncle find a hospital. You didn’t treat me as a girlfriend at all, because to you, I’m just a high school classmate who wants to sleep with you. If someone who wants to sleep with you gives you aid, it will make you lose your self-esteem.”

Love is lower than self-esteem, hiding under reality. Qin Luo thought it was a good thing to love oneself, but to love oneself too much was to completely disregard the other half.

“Whether I like you or not depends on what you think. I can like you, or I can not like you.”

Direct.
Embarrassing.

Her shame was laid bare on the table by Qin Luo. The harsh words were piercing. Shen Yiyi felt a burning sensation on the back of her neck, and her ears turned red.

Shen Yiyi was suffocating.
She was really suffocating.

“Isn’t it?” The only remaining self-esteem did not allow her to cry again. She held her pants, controlling her trembling body. “When you lied to me about not having a guest room, weren’t you just trying to sleep with me? We’ve only met a few times, and you wanted to kiss in the car. You broke up with me for only two days, and you were kissing You Ning. You’re a repeat offender. Who knows if you’ve been lying in the past sixteen years? So in my eyes, you just like to do this kind of thing to me. There’s a big economic gap between us now. How do you expect me to get used to it?”

“Yes, yes.” Qin Luo turned her head away and sneered. “Yes, that’s what I am in your eyes, no different from the beast you’re cursing.”

Shen Yiyi was also angry. She pinched Qin Luo’s chin and turned her head back. “Qin Luo.”

The two looked at each other, neither of them at a disadvantage.

“Listen carefully.”
“If someone who wants to sleep with me gives me aid, it won’t make me lose my self-esteem.”

Because in the eyes of an egoist, that is an advantage.

Beauty is, intelligence is, and having a condition for an exchange of interests is an advantage. It will not only not shatter one’s self-esteem, but it can even become a resource to be used.

“Only when the person I like thinks that they can only sleep with me with money will it make a person lose their self-esteem.”