Overly Intense [Criminal Investigation] 115

Chapter 115: She Also Learned to Go Back on Her Word

“Shen… mmmph!”

The two words “Yiyi” couldn’t even be pronounced. Qin Luo’s face was covered by a palm, especially her lips. Shen Yiyi pinched her lips, not allowing her to speak. Qin Luo felt that if there were a fruit knife at hand, Shen Yiyi would have skinned her on the spot.

Qin Luo could only hold Shen Yiyi’s waist tightly to prevent her from having enough space to slap her.

Shen Yiyi was too thin. In these past few years, her work schedule had been unstable, and she had often skipped meals. She had lost even more weight after her surgery. Qin Luo felt like she was hugging a pillow, the feeling too fine and soft.

The tears, because of her emotions, had turned into a physiological loss of control.

Her reason was not listening, and her behavior was unrestrained. Shen Yiyi’s nerves were tense, and she was trembling involuntarily. She remembered that when she was a child and couldn’t solve a math problem, she would throw a tantrum at her mother and tear up her notebook of mistakes on the spot. She would bite her father’s arm until she was beaten and still not let go. She had many rough and inferior sides, a genuine “wild child.” Once she released her emotions and got a thrill, the pain would be compensated.

Especially when Qin Luo held her tightly and wanted to kiss her back, her anger could no longer be contained.

Shen Yiyi let go of her hand. She had pouted and had instead gone to push Qin Luo’s hand on her waist, grabbing a finger, and then forcefully, little by little, prying it open.

Qin Luo did not dare to let Shen Yiyi succeed. She was afraid that her keyboard-tapping finger would be broken by the other.

Fortunately, Qin Luo’s arm span was long. She grabbed her wrist and, to balance, changed to a hug. Her other hand moved to her back and gently patted her, wanting her to calm down. “Shen Yiyi, are you for real? Don’t be like this… you’re scaring me.”

“Heh, scaring you?”

If she was scared, she would still have a reaction, and would even kiss back?

Shen Yiyi was even more unhappy. But now she could neither break free from the restraint, nor could she pry her fingers. And because Qin Luo was holding her so tightly, she couldn’t even pull her hand out to pinch her mouth.

She used her elbow to create a space at her collarbone and looked into Qin Luo’s eyes.

Without her glasses, there was only a quiet eye contact.

Qin Luo’s eyes were slightly bright.
—But there seemed to be no morality in her eyes.

Looking down at her nose, the lip balm was gone, and there were water stains at the corners of her lips. Just now, when she had pinched her, she had used a lot of force. There was a faint red circle around her lips. A few more pinches and it would swell up.

“You deserve to be scared.”

Qin Luo also agreed with this sentence.

She deserved to have been thinking about her for so many years, to be so completely eaten up by Shen Yiyi that she didn’t even dare to get angry. “Yes, I really deserve it. Then can you stop making a scene?”

Heh.
Another cold snort.

Shen Yiyi’s voice was cold, her tears falling like rain, a sense of separation in her eyes.

“What’s wrong with you…” Qin Luo held the two of them tightly. She couldn’t free her hands to wipe her tears and let them drip onto her shirt. Her hand kept stroking her back, the motion like burping a baby, and then she stroked her hair. “Your lips are dry from crying. Why don’t we drink some water and rest for a bit?”

Shen Yiyi had not received an apology from Qin Luo. Her bad mood was not soothed. Instead, the more Qin Luo could bear her pressure, the more her dark side was pushed to the extreme.

The image reflected by the pain became clearer and clearer, even vivid and distinct.

She seemed to have seen the same scene.

Qin Luo and a strange shadow were leaning against the sofa like this. It was not a rainy day outside, but the dusk of the end of the season. They were lying on the sofa, listening to music, not caring about sleep, work, or the cemetery, and had slept soundly into the night.

The picture was gray and dim. The shadow was unharmed. Qin Luo was smiling happily at it. Her gaze passed over the shadow’s shoulder and landed on her, but she pretended not to see her.

In those days of regret, she would always have this kind of dream, a series of nightmares, which would make her movements slow when she woke up.

She began to fear the unchanging unit.

“I don’t want to hear you say these things.”

Her thoughts were broken. Shen Yiyi began to cry wildly. Her oxygen and tears were struggling and swaying. Afraid that Qin Luo would laugh at her for crying like a primary school student, she buried her head in her shoulder, her words choked with sobs.

She repeated, “I don’t want to hear you say these things.”

Was it so hard to say sorry? Was it so difficult to say that she had no feelings for You Ning and didn’t want to be in a relationship with anyone else? Why didn’t Qin Luo try to keep her? Would it kill her to say “let’s start over”? She had already said she regretted it, and had even taken leave to be with her. Did Qin Luo not understand Chinese, not understand her efforts?

She could also feel that Qin Luo did not not love her.

Shen Yiyi didn’t know what to do. She couldn’t make a decision about the future. She couldn’t say it.

“Then what do you want to hear?”

Qin Luo also hardened her heart. She didn’t want to indulge Shen Yiyi’s temper. The little things that had happened on this day last year, Qin Luo still remembered them. The bad habit of leaving whenever she wanted was hard to change. She couldn’t bear it a third time.

She didn’t want to be a gambler again, to exhaust the little bit of liking she had left. Unless Shen Yiyi explained it clearly herself, she would not give any more response.

“Hmm?”

Shen Yiyi was curled up, her sobs not stopping, her whole body trembling. Her fingertips were clutching her collar, and she was not speaking.

Qin Luo said quietly, “The regrets of the past are in the past. Regret is only regret at this moment. I can’t predict what will happen in the future. These are the words you would say. I can’t say them.”

“I’ve already said what you want to hear many times. I don’t want to say it anymore.”

Qin Luo let her lean on her, let her dirty her entire shirt, pull off her buttons, and watched her cry until she was hiccupping and sobbing, but she resolutely did not say a single word she wanted to hear. “Besides, you haven’t even figured it out yourself. How can I decide for you?”

It was always stuffy before a storm. It was rainy outside. Although the floor-to-ceiling windows were transparent, the living room was not lit, which made people look gray. Qin Luo was holding her with one hand, looking up at the ceiling in a daze. The person in her arms was trying to control her sobs and slow her breathing.

Her shirt was completely soaked, and the outline of her underwear was visible. The conversation stopped here, and suddenly, a kiss followed.

It was not a passionate kiss, not an angry kiss, but a kiss filled with probing, intertwined with jealousy, a kiss that boldly crossed the line.

Shen Yiyi held Qin Luo’s neck tightly, like a kind of revenge for the way she had held her waist just now. She wanted Qin Luo to also taste the feeling of not being able to break free. She had never failed with Qin Luo since high school, and this time was no exception. She didn’t believe that Qin Luo would be so stubborn as not to bow her head.

She held Qin Luo’s body firmly and kissed her.

She didn’t care if Qin Luo had rinsed her mouth, if that mouth that had kissed others was dirty, nor did she care where her tears flowed. The shadow was not there, and she would not die even if she didn’t wipe them. She kissed until she was out of breath, a mess. Qin Luo’s ears were red, and the two were almost choked to death by her tears.

But only her ears were red.

Qin Luo’s ears would turn red when she pretended to be drunk and stole a kiss from her.
They would also turn red when she was asking for a kiss in the car.
They had also been red on the bed in Fengjiang.

But now, only her ears were red, but there was no lingering in her movements, no uncontrollable passion. She was just holding her waist, not opening her mouth, not pushing her away. She was not as frantic as she was. She was just as resolute as the day she had not let her into Cloud Top, as calm as an old well.

Shen Yiyi couldn’t pry open her mouth. She wanted to bite her, but her lips were red and would get inflamed if she bit them. She was afraid of hurting Qin Luo, so she kissed her ear instead.

At almost thirty, Shen Yiyi was not interested in physiological reactions. She had a shadow staring at her every day, and she couldn’t enjoy it at all. Besides, she was also busy with work, and it was always late at night when she got back to her dorm. After masturbating, she would have to get up and take a shower. In addition, she was not sensitive, and it would take a lot of time to solve it once. If she didn’t sleep well, she would be annoyed, so she had not taken good care of her own desires.

But after kissing Qin Luo, she had indeed thought of it in the middle of the night and had secretly had the desire for it.

Her mind was full of Qin Luo kissing her ear, a tingling sensation. She was like a lab rat with its spinal cord removed, half-paralyzed. The feeling was very strange, an uncontrollable physiological reaction, a burst of passion, a butterfly pupa that surpassed its nature, and then it would fall again.

She didn’t believe that Qin Luo didn’t like to be kissed on the ear.

Her movements were a little clumsy, a fleeting, clumsy touch. No matter how hard she tried, Qin Luo had no reaction, would not tremble like her, and would certainly not dodge.

She was broken.

She, a person who could win in academics, why couldn’t she win against Qin Luo’s broken ear?

Shen Yiyi, whose self-esteem was shattered, hatefully changed to biting her ear. Qin Luo frowned from the bite, and finally, there was a change in her tone. “You’re biting too hard.”

How should she say it?

She had cursed, she had cried, she had kissed, and she had even bitten.

Shen Yiyi began to regret it again.

Just now, when Qin Luo had kissed her back, she shouldn’t have stopped her by pinching her mouth. Now, she had gone back on her word and had used all her skills but had not gotten the result she wanted. She was about to be at her wit’s end.

She didn’t want to lose, and she didn’t want to win. She just wanted to tell Qin Luo that she had been greatly wronged during this period of time, that she wanted to talk to her about coming out, that she wanted to sort out the problems on her body from beginning to end. But these words were so hard to say. She had been given a mute needle.

Her tears had dried on her face, and her eyes were red and swollen.

Shen Yiyi pulled away from her, her breath like a mist that had not yet melted, blurring her vision. Her fingertips gently held the ear that she had bitten, and she touched Qin Luo’s face.

“Kiss me.”

Qin Luo had said that as long as she said it, she would satisfy whatever she could.

She didn’t want to lose. This was the last method she could use.

A hard candy with a soft core.

Qin Luo was thrown off by Shen Yiyi’s plea. Her palm wrapped around her waist with force, and then she gently squeezed, asking back, “What are we doing?”

Kissing is simple. Two mouths touch lightly. But a lover can also be a friend. A kiss between people who have no feelings will only make them more distant, just like her and You Ning. It was like a catalyst, accelerating the breakdown of their relationship. But a kiss between true loves does not necessarily lead to a beautiful dream. Qin Luo had told Shen Yiyi that she could not be friends with someone she still liked after kissing them.

But Shen Yiyi could still run away.

Giving it to her immediately would only make her more spoiled.

She was even a little angry. “I can kiss you, and then what?”

Become the next You Ning?

Shen Yiyi’s eyes were filled with tears. She was discouraged, thinking that she had hit a wall. She understood the harm that the broken connection had brought to Qin Luo, and the continuous impact had not yet ended.

The one who deserved it was not the motionless Qin Luo, but her.

It was her own doing.

Shen Yiyi let go of her hand. She turned her face away and wiped the water stains from her face. Suddenly, her consciousness returned, and she gradually became sober. The guilt of a mysophobe welled up in her heart. Tears were disgusting, and getting someone else’s clothes wet was also disgusting. And the sofa that had been dirtied by her tears would probably be difficult to clean later.

“I’m sorry for biting you.”

The hand that had wiped her tears slowly slid down, straightening the wrinkled collar for Qin Luo. But the tears that had just been wiped away couldn’t help but fall again. She was clearly not a person who cried easily.

She had regained some of her reason and began to feel sorry. “I’ll send the shirt to the dry cleaner tomorrow.”

Qin Luo was so angry that her liver ached. So the hand on her waist tightened slightly.

“You can let go.” Shen Yiyi avoided Qin Luo’s gaze, planning to end the farce before it got to its most wretched state. “I’m going to take a shower.”

Angry.
Super angry.

Qin Luo did not let go, but instead pulled her waist into her arms with force. Her palm covered her spine, pressing down on her fleeing heart, and she kissed her deeply.

She had also learned to go back on her word.