Chapter 180: Pathological Possession
When Xue Mu wanted to ask Dugu Yuan’an about matters related to Yu Hanhong during the past three years, Dugu Yuan’an said nothing, only asking her to lie down and sleep obediently. Unwilling to sleep, Xue Mu lay on the bed pestering her with questions. Dugu Yuan’an then pulled her into her arms, wrapping her arms around her neck and kissing her lightly.
“Yu Hanhong used my blood to practice kung fu. I don’t know exactly what kung fu he practiced. Did you run into him?”
“Did you fight with Mu Ruo when you met her?”
“And—”
Seeing Xue Mu stubbornly asking questions, Dugu Yuan’an’s expression darkened. Turning her over in her arms, she extended two fingers to seal her acupoints, making her immobile. She gently kissed every part of her face and said indifferently, “Yu Gongruo was injured by me. Didn’t you see it?”
Xue Mu’s eyes rolled around, but she couldn’t speak. Staring into her eyes, Dugu Yuan’an muttered to herself, “That’s right. You were imprisoned by Yu Gongruo and couldn’t escape. Yu Gongruo was injured by me, so how could she have the nerve to see you? But she definitely wanted to act pitiful in front of you. I wonder if she asked you to coax her…”
Thinking that she actually didn’t notice Mu Ruo was injured, Xue Mu didn’t realize that Dugu Yuan’an was already full of jealousy, grabbing her wrist and kissing the scars, until she heard her ask softly, “Did she touch you?”
Xue Mu: “?”
She used her internal energy to break through the sealed acupoints, but she couldn’t answer in time. Dugu Yuan’an muttered to herself again, “You were locked up and couldn’t escape. Yu Gongruo must have been overjoyed. Snatching you from my hands, she must have wanted to do something to you… Did she? Mu’er, let me check, okay?”
How to check such things? Watching Dugu Yuan’an undressing her, Xue Mu was anxious. Her internal energy broke through the sealed acupoints with a boom, and her body retreated violently. Dugu Yuan’an didn’t expect her to break through the acupoints. Stunned at first, she was then furious. Although it didn’t show on her face, those eyes so dark they could almost drip ink already made Xue Mu scared. She hurriedly explained, “Don’t overthink it. Mu Ruo didn’t touch me! I… I was locked up and covered in filth. She despised me too much to touch me!”
Dugu Yuan’an said, “Really?”
Xue Mu said, “Yes!”
Dugu Yuan’an curled her lips slightly, but grabbed her calf and leaned forward. Surrounded by her breath, Xue Mu wrapped her arms around her neck dizzily and muttered, “Can you still not trust me? If I was touched, would you not want me anymore?”
Narrowing her eyes, Dugu Yuan’an wrapped the quilt around her and said calmly and gently, “If you were bullied, Yu Gongruo will die without a doubt.” Staring at Xue Mu’s surprised look, she smiled lightly again. “How could I not want you? I’m only afraid you will abandon me again.”
Knowing she was in the wrong, Xue Mu burrowed into the quilt, revealing only her head. Rubbing her cheek against Dugu Yuan’an’s palm, she whispered, “I let you down.” Seeing Dugu Yuan’an’s expression change, she explained again, “I mean the matter of me being taken away…” Touched or not, I can’t let Yuan’er misunderstand!
Hugging her across the quilt, Dugu Yuan’an propped her head on her hand, while the other hand patted Xue Mu’s lower back. Her gaze lingered oppressively on her face, seemingly unwilling to move away at all. Xue Mu blushed under her gaze and hesitated, “If you… if you want to consummate, then…”
Tracing the contour of her jaw, which was so thin that no flesh could be felt, with her finger, Dugu Yuan’an whispered, “Then what?”
Xue Mu said, “Do you… insist on me saying it out loud?”
Dugu Yuan’an sighed lightly. “Don’t be silly. Do you still have to look at my face for such things as consummating? Am I that bad?”
Xue Mu snorted. “You are full of wicked tricks, who knows.”
Dugu Yuan’an remained silent. Perhaps because she hadn’t heard such words for three years, as soon as Xue Mu said it, her breathing instantly became heavy, her eyes revealing deep forbearance. Finally, she pulled Xue Mu into her arms and slapped her hip. “Sleep.”
Xue Mu: “…”
Alright! Patting my lower back so many times was just waiting for this!
“Then I’m sleeping. Haven’t slept well for a long time. If you are busy, go be busy.” Xue Mu closed her eyes, rubbed the tip of her nose against Dugu Yuan’an’s collar, and sighed comfortably.
Dugu Yuan’an said, “Sleep, I’ll accompany you.”
After Xue Mu fell asleep, Dugu Yuan’an tapped lightly on the dark circles under her eyes with her finger, her eyes becoming deeper and deeper.
She gazed quietly at her beloved wife like that for an hour until Zi’ang’s cautious voice sounded outside the door.
“Master, we caught several human traffickers and saved a group of young girls and children. What do you think…”
Seeing that Xue Mu’s good sleep was not affected, Dugu Yuan’an got out of bed lightly. Coming to the door, she said to Zi’ang, “After interrogation, put them at the entrance of the town vegetable market. When the time comes, execute them all together.” Her tone was extremely flat, as if ordering a trivial matter. Zi’ang whispered yes and retreated silently.
Dugu Yuan’an stood by the door for a long time before returning to the bed, holding Xue Mu in her arms, and closing her eyes to rest.
Day and night of fear and anxiety had gradually ground her into a sharp cold blade. In this dark life, she was no longer the soft Dugu Yuan’an of the past. She was forced to become colder and more decisive in killing. Xue Mu’s warm and soft body still made her heart palpitate, but now besides tenderness and love, there was an almost pathological obsession.
Don’t leave me.
Don’t save your gaze for others.
Don’t mention others in front of me.
—You are mine.
…
When Xue Mu woke up, the sky outside was already terribly dark. She did a carp skip (kip-up) on the bed, stretched lazily, tidied up, and got out of bed to walk out. Diwu Miaofu stood at the courtyard gate. Seeing Xue Mu come out, joy surged on her face, but she didn’t shout out loud, only whispering, “Sister Xue!”
Surprised by Diwu Miaofu’s change, Xue Mu smiled. “Miaofu, you are much calmer than before. Have you married Maiden Han Yan?”
“Not yet.” Diwu Miaofu sighed. “Sister Yuan doesn’t allow any happy events to happen.”
Xue Mu was stunned. “How could Yuan’er…” Then she thought again: I was imprisoned for years and couldn’t return to Yuan’er’s side. I couldn’t attend Miaofu’s wedding either. Naturally, this happy event was postponed. So she didn’t say much, only saying, “Miaofu, accompany me for a walk on Jin Mountain.”
“Sister Yuan doesn’t let you go out.” Diwu Miaofu pouted. “She’s afraid you’ll get lost again.”
“Then where did Yuan’er go?” Xue Mu said.
“Sister Yuan went to the town. Criminals are to be executed at the entrance of the vegetable market.” Diwu Miaofu said.
Xue Mu’s curiosity was aroused, and she wanted to go out of the courtyard to watch the excitement. Diwu Miaofu reached out to stop her. No matter what Xue Mu said, Diwu Miaofu wouldn’t yield.
Helpless, Xue Mu suddenly circulated her kung fu, knocking Diwu Miaofu away gently, then leaped out and ran away. Diwu Miaofu shouted, “Sister, don’t run!” With that, she also chased after her, surprised to find that Xue Mu ran dozens of zhang in the blink of an eye, and she actually couldn’t catch up!
Thinking of Dugu Yuan’an’s face, she shivered instantly, gathering her strength to chase after Xue Mu.