Chapter 112
Blindness was a considerable blow to anyone. Her companions were considerate of Xia Weishuang’s feelings and did not deliberately pay attention to her eyes, but just watched silently and lent a hand when she needed help.
Although Xia Weishuang’s mind was not that fragile, she was still moved by her companions’ considerate care.
Except for Sang Lu. Sang Lu wished she could do everything for her, and was constantly emphasizing the fact that Xia Weishuang’s eyes were blind and she could rely on her more.
Sang Lu enthusiastically (and forcefully) helped Xia Weishuang move her body, and considerately (and forcefully) helped her cool down. After Xia Weishuang (did not) shyly and reluctantly accepted, she still gently (and forcefully) helped Xia Weishuang wipe away the (nonexistent) sweat.
“Shuangshuang must be tired. She’s sweating. It must be uncomfortable,” Sang Lu cupped Xia Weishuang’s cheeks, pressed her forehead against hers, and rubbed it gently. “Shuangshuang has been sleeping for three days. I’ll help Shuangshuang wipe her body.”
Xia Weishuang’s eyelashes trembled slightly. Her dark eyes had no expression, but the expression on her face was particularly vivid—from anger.
“I’ll do it myself. Don’t even think about taking the opportunity to mess around,” Xia Weishuang warned seriously.
“What messing around? There’s none,” Sang Lu was equally serious. “I will take care of Shuangshuang, just like Shuangshuang takes care of me.”
Perhaps because she couldn’t see Sang Lu’s eyes, just by hearing these words, Xia Weishuang was bewitched for a moment. Suddenly, her heart softened, and she couldn’t say the words of refusal.
Sometimes Sang Lu was very slow, and sometimes she was particularly sharp. She pressed her advantage, and with a whoosh, she retracted her tentacles, wrapped Xia Weishuang in a quilt, and said, “I’ll go get water.”
Because she couldn’t see, she could only use her hearing. Xia Weishuang heard Sang Lu’s departing sound. Her footsteps were very light, and at the same time, there was a lighter squelching sound, which should have been from the friction of her tentacles that had not been completely retracted into her body.
It was dark in front of her, but a figure appeared in her mind. She was wearing a red dress, slender and tall, with black hair and white skin, and was full of charm… no, no, it was winter now. Sang Lu had already changed her equipment. So the picture in Xia Weishuang’s mind gradually changed, from a slender and beautiful woman to a bloated ball wrapped in a thick down jacket.
Messy long hair, a lazy expression, eyes that seemed to never be able to open, and the listless tentacles that came out of the hem of her clothes and cuffs.
That’s right, this is the current Sang Lu. As she thought, Xia Weishuang couldn’t help but smile to herself. She bent her legs, wrapped herself in the quilt, and when she smiled, her waist bent. She didn’t know that at this time, she was not much “slimmer” than Sang Lu.
Soon, Sang Lu came back with hot water.
She remembered to close the door, remembered to take Xia Weishuang’s exclusive towel, and also remembered to prepare lotion. It could be seen that she had really put her heart into it.
In this way, Xia Weishuang could no longer refuse. After all, she had touched and checked Sang Lu quite a lot, and Sang Lu had always been very generous. When it was her turn, it was a bit too petty to always refuse.
But… the situation was different…
“Shuangshuang, take off your clothes,” Sang Lu wrung the hot towel and said calmly. “Wipe yourself and then rest. It’s more comfortable.”
Xia Weishuang rubbed her fingers. She didn’t have to look to know that her face was hot and must be red.
She thought for a moment, took off her clothes while hiding in the quilt, turned around to show her back, and said, “You can help me wipe my back.”
Sang Lu had no objections and helped Xia Weishuang wipe her back with a hot towel. Her back was exposed to the cold air, and it was actually quite cold. In addition, her hands and feet had been cold from being entangled by Sang Lu before, so Xia Weishuang did feel very cold.
When she was touched by the hot towel, she immediately felt much more comfortable. But when the towel was wiped on other places, the part with the watermark quickly turned cold, so cold that Xia Weishuang got goosebumps all over.
And Sang Lu was very slow, and her strength was gentle, as if she were treating Xia Weishuang as a piece of tender tofu. The more careful she was, the longer she wiped, and the colder Xia Weishuang became.
Just as Xia Weishuang was about to be unable to stand the cold and was about to urge her to move faster, Sang Lu actually stopped.
Not only did she stop, but she also pressed her whole body against Xia Weishuang’s back. Up and down, with a rhythm, she had actually fallen asleep!
Her back, which was already cold from the water, was pressed against by the even colder Sang Lu. Xia Weishuang shivered. She only felt a chill that soaked into her bones, and the hair on her neck stood on end.
Xia Weishuang quickly shook, pushed Sang Lu away, and pulled the quilt to wrap herself up.
“Sang Lu! Sang Lu!”
Xia Weishuang shouted at Sang Lu’s position twice, and heard a confused question from Sang Lu’s throat. “Mmm… hmm… I’m not done wiping. Why did Shuangshuang shrink back? No, I have to take care of Shuangshuang, help Shuangshuang… yawn!”
Sang Lu, who was so sleepy that she was delirious, let out a big yawn. As if she were sleepwalking, she dazedly reached out to pull the quilt that was wrapped around Xia Weishuang. Her strength was so great that with just a casual pull, Xia Weishuang was forced to be exposed to the air.
“Sang Lu, don’t mess around! I’m cold,” Xia Weishuang helplessly tried to wrap the quilt back. “Alright, alright, I know your intentions. I’ll do it myself from now on. Just give me the towel.”
“No!” But unexpectedly, Sang Lu suddenly said these two words decisively. Then, she forcefully wrapped her arms around Xia Weishuang. Just like many times before, Xia Weishuang had no strength to fight back and could only let her do as she pleased.
She had dragged her out of the safe area, leaving her completely defenseless, and had cruelly and ruthlessly displayed her love.
Sang Lu’s cold limbs coiled around Xia Weishuang, holding her in place like a doll. Her cheeks rubbed against her back and the back of her neck. Her high-bridged nose and soft lips pressed against her as she breathed. Even if she couldn’t see, Xia Weishuang could feel the beautiful shape.
The crazy monster was completely immersed in its own world. While wiping Xia Weishuang with the already cold towel, it let out a panting murmur. “She’s mine. Shuangshuang is mine. I will take good care of Shuangshuang. Very good, very good, for a long, long time…”
The nightmare-like shadow, coiling and suffocating, seeped into her like an icy chill – pervasive, inescapable – forcing its way into her lungs and heart. Her whole body was cold and she couldn’t stop trembling. She knew she was weak. She had thought she had become stronger, but in fact, she was still weak in front of Sang Lu.
What if Sang Lu went crazy one day? What if Sang Lu suddenly didn’t care about her so much one day?
Xia Weishuang shook her head, trying to shake the terrifying guesses out of her mind. She was so cold that she couldn’t help but sneeze.
In an instant, Sang Lu was like a robot that had been cut off from its power source, and she was motionless.
Xia Weishuang sneezed a few more times in a row. She estimated that she was about to catch a cold from the cold. She rubbed her nose and couldn’t help but say loudly, “Sang Lu, Sang Lu! Wake up!”
She called Sang Lu’s name several times in a row, fumbled to shake Sang Lu’s head, and irritably snatched the cold, wet towel from her hand, and with a slap, she threw it on Sang Lu’s body.
Sang Lu shook her hair, and her long hair hit Xia Weishuang’s body. Only then did she seem to have suddenly woken up, with a hint of confusion. “Shuangshuang?”
She seemed to have completely forgotten what had just happened. She was slow and a little surprised. “Why is Shuangshuang naked? Isn’t it cold?”
She went to pull the quilt for Xia Weishuang, and then squeezed the wet towel in her hand, still with a head full of question marks. “Is it done? No… wipe some more…”
“Wipe, wipe, what’s there to wipe!” Xia Weishuang was curled up in the quilt, like a hedgehog with a layer of armor. She said irritably, “Why don’t you wipe your brain!”
Sang Lu said nonchalantly, “It will be wiped rotten.”
Xia Weishuang: “…”
She reached out her hand, touched Sang Lu’s limbs, and grabbed two of the softer ones and unceremoniously tied them in a knot. “Don’t touch me! I’m about to catch a cold from you! Achoo!”
Sang Lu, while holding the wet towel, and holding the bow, looked at Xia Weishuang with a blank look. “Shuangshuang has a cold? Because of… me?”
Xia Weishuang snorted lightly and said, “You fell asleep again just now. It’s so cold. If you’re really sleepy, don’t force yourself. Alright, go and tell Sister Qian for me that I have a bit of a cold. Let her get me some medicine.”
Sang Lu let out an “oh,” a little wronged, but still obediently took the basin of water and went out.
Xia Weishuang reached out from the tightly wrapped quilt and looked for clothes on the bed. She was still naked, and it was still cold to just cover herself with a quilt.
**
Perhaps because the medicine was taken in time, Xia Weishuang did not have a fever, but she did not fully recover either. She coughed incessantly at night.
Sang Lu wanted to hold her and take care of her. Xia Weishuang was now so cold from the cold that she couldn’t avoid her, so the two of them could only be separated.
Sang Lu was still very sleepy, and was in a state of being between sleep and wakefulness. Every time Xia Weishuang coughed, she would wake up. She was also uncomfortable like this. Although she couldn’t see, Xia Weishuang still turned to face Sang Lu, and while coughing, she said to her:
“I’m fine. Don’t worry. Rest. This medicine doesn’t work immediately after you take it. I’ll be fine after a few more days. I know you’re worried about me… I know, I know everything.”
Her voice was a little hoarse from the coughing. In this quiet and cold night, it was so gentle.
“You see, I’m fine eating and walking during the day. Although I’m still a little not used to it, it’s only the first day. I can do it myself in the future. You don’t have to be sad for me. I’m fine. Yunlang said he would make me a cane, and Sister Qian said she could help me train a guide cat…”
At this point, Xia Weishuang smiled. In such a deep night, what could she see even if she was not blind? Xia Weishuang was sad, but also a little relieved, which made her expression even gentler.
She couldn’t see anything, so naturally she couldn’t see Sang Lu leaning close, also lying on her side and facing her, but not clinging to her.
Her superior night vision allowed the monster to see what ordinary people could not. On such a night, such a gentle and watery lover was a beautiful memory that belonged exclusively to her.
She reached out her finger and hooked a strand of Xia Weishuang’s stray hair. She didn’t say anything. Her sleepy eyes seemed to have been assimilated by Xia Weishuang, and a hint of gentleness was brought out.
“Cough, cough, cough, cough…” Xia Weishuang closed her eyes with a hoarse voice and said, “I’m going to sleep. You should sleep too. Can you be with me?”
“…Okay.”
**
Xia Weishuang’s cold was gone the next day. It was not because the medicine was effective, nor because her immunity was amazing, but because of Lele’s tears.
Mi Lele had wanted to heal her eyes, but had failed. But she had also healed her cold, which was an unexpected surprise. After all, it was really uncomfortable to always be coughing.
But Lele was still a little dissatisfied. Xia Weishuang couldn’t see, but she could tell from her voice and pauses. So she said, “My eyes are obviously not an ordinary injury. It was caused by the backlash of my ability. It’s an internal reason, so Lele, it’s not your problem, it’s my problem.”
Xia Weishuang patted Mi Lele’s little braid and said, “Did you tie your hair in pigtails today? It feels very smooth. Did Sister Qian help you tie it?”
Mi Lele wrinkled her nose and said, “No, it was little brother Wolf who tied it.”
Xia Weishuang smiled. “His skills are getting better and better. Lele, I miss Diandian a little. Can you help me bring Diandian over? Hey—you’ve really worked hard recently, little poop scooper.”
Mi Lele was very generous. “You’re welcome. Sister can’t see, so Diandian will be taken care of by me.”
She was quickly coaxed by Xia Weishuang and happily brought Diandian over.
On this day, the cane that Wei Yunlang had promised was not yet ready. Xia Weishuang supported herself against the wall and walked around the living room, corridor, and stairs to get a feel for it. In fact, as long as one was bold, it was not difficult to take a step. Xia Weishuang was not really afraid of the dark. She knew that she had friends by her side, and she was very at ease.
Yes, friends, not a lover. Because when Sang Lu was indoors, she could still struggle not to fall asleep. But when she was outdoors, she could hardly stay awake. Even if she struggled to wake up, her attention was always on resisting sleepiness, which made her suffer and be irritable, and she could not catch up with Xia Weishuang.
Besides that, Xia Weishuang did not choose to be aggressive in other matters. She did not do things that would pull up the seedlings to help them grow.
She liked to do things according to a plan, with a rhythm, and in a controlled manner. Although it was often said that man’s calculation was not as good as heaven’s, and Sang Lu’s. After she had rested, Xia Weishuang had remembered a little of the content she had predicted before, and had also entrusted Zheng Boqiang to write it down. At night, she continued to rest and replenish her energy.
But that night, after her mental power had been relaxed a little, Xia Weishuang decided to absorb the crystal that Bai Qian had given her to speed up the replenishment of her mental power.
But… an accident happened. Xia Weishuang’s speed of absorbing the crystal was unprecedentedly slow and stagnant. It could almost be said that it was no different from not absorbing it at all.
That was all. Xia Weishuang comforted herself. She could also recover slowly on her own without the crystal.
But three days had passed, five days had passed, seven days had passed…
As soon as she tried to mobilize her ability, she would feel a sharp pain in the depths of her mind, like a needle stabbing and a knife twisting. She could no longer find the feeling of activating her ability. She could no longer see the future of anything.
Xia Weishuang seemed to have lost her ability.
The life of a blind person was getting more and more used to, but Xia Weishuang could not smile. If she even lost her ability, would she really become a useless person? Would she really never… see any new things, see any color and light, and could only reminisce about the gradually yellowing past in the darkness?
On this night, when she had confirmed that she seemed to be really unable to use her ability anymore, Xia Weishuang turned her back to Sang Lu, and curled up in the cold darkness and the warm quilt, and cried silently.
She was not a person who cried easily. She did not even make a sound. Her open eyes were also integrated with the darkness, and no sad expression could be seen.
It was just that she could not control her tears.
A little sound of the quilt and clothes rubbing came from behind. It seemed that Sang Lu had woken up, but she did not speak. It should just be her turning over.
Slowly, Xia Weishuang fell asleep in her endless fatigue. She didn’t know how long, but she was woken up by the cold again.
The tear stains on her face had dried, and her face was a little tight and painful. She sniffled and sat up in a daze.
Why do I feel a cold wind blowing in? Is the window not closed properly?
Xia Weishuang subconsciously reached out to the side and touched an empty space. She moved over a little and fumbled carefully again.
“…Sang Lu?”
The bed was empty, the middle was cold, and the window was ajar, and a cold wind was blowing in.
Sang Lu was gone.
