Chapter 56: Ning Feixuan’s Confession
Yue Qingying had her hands behind her back, her body standing very straight. Her full head of dark hair danced lightly in the wind. She had a smile on her beautiful face, just quietly looking at Mingyan, as if in a painting. Mingyan looked and looked, and was a little stunned.
In fact, the time Mingyan had been separated from his senior sister was not particularly long. But after experiencing the dream world, he felt as if he had experienced a great deal. After seeing Yue Qingying, he was actually a little dazed.
“You’re back?” Yue Qingying came forward and looked at Mingyan with a grin.
“Yes,” Mingyan nodded lightly and couldn’t help but reach out and hold Yue Qingying’s soft hand. He really missed his senior sister.
Yue Qingying gently rested her head on Mingyan. The two of them embraced. And Ning Feixuan on the side was staring blankly at this scene, an indescribable feeling in her heart.
Was it sourness, or envy? Or was it regret?
Perhaps all of them. Ning Feixuan didn’t want to distinguish them. After all, it was no longer necessary. Uncomfortable was uncomfortable.
Ning Feixuan bit her cherry lips and subconsciously wanted to look away. But she hadn’t seen Mingyan for too long. Even though her eyes were a little red, she was unwilling to move them away from Mingyan.
Ning Feixuan wanted to say something, and then Mingyan would probably turn his head to look at her. That would be fine.
But Ning Feixuan didn’t know what to say. Even if Mingyan turned his head, she had nothing to say. Wouldn’t it just add to the awkwardness and make Mingyan hate her even more?
Doing something was very likely to be wrong. And not doing anything, Ning Feixuan was unwilling. She felt a little sad and angry at her own cowardice.
Fortunately, Mingyan and Yue Qingying did not hug for too long. Yue Qingying smiled and stood up from Mingyan’s arms. “The Yaochi Holy Maiden seems to be looking for you. I don’t know what she wants. You can go and talk to her. When you’re done, come and find me.”
With that, Yue Qingying glanced at Ning Feixuan, the corners of her lips curving into a smile. She turned and returned to her own room, leaving the space for Mingyan and Ning Feixuan.
Mingyan didn’t know why Ning Feixuan was here. He turned his head to look at Ning Feixuan, saw her biting her cherry lips, her eyes a little moist, a hint of sadness on her beautiful face. He was a little surprised. “Feixuan, what’s wrong?”
Feixuan…
Hearing Mingyan call her name directly, Ning Feixuan couldn’t be happy. Because she was very clear that their relationship now was friends, which was why Mingyan would use “Feixuan” to address her. And, even if he called her by her first name, what was the meaning of it? There was still some distance in his heart.
Ning Feixuan wouldn’t blame Mingyan. She only had self-blame in her heart.
So even though her heart was sad, and she felt that the distance between them seemed to be getting farther and farther, Ning Feixuan could only show a forced smile. “No… nothing…”
“My senior sister said you were looking for me. What’s wrong? Is there something?” Mingyan asked.
This direct way of getting to the point made Ning Feixuan feel even more gloomy. “I… I just…”
Ning Feixuan hesitated, stammering. She couldn’t find a suitable reason.
Clearly, before Mingyan had come back, Ning Feixuan had been extremely looking forward to seeing him. But when Mingyan was really standing in front of her, she suddenly found that she hadn’t even thought about what she should say at this moment.
Mingyan tilted his head. “What’s wrong? Just say what you want to say.”
But the problem was… she didn’t know what to say…
Ning Feixuan lowered her head, was silent for a while, and then said, “It’s nothing. I’ve just been a little upset recently, so I just wanted to talk to you.”
“Upset?” seeing that Ning Feixuan’s emotions were indeed not very stable, Mingyan thought for a while and moved closer to her. “Have you encountered any troubles recently?”
“Yes, it’s just a little hard to say. My heart is troubled, and I don’t know what to say,” Ning Feixuan bit her lip, a pair of beautiful eyes looking at Mingyan. “I’m sorry, am I wasting your time?”
“We are friends. If you have any troubles, you can tell me. I may not be able to help you relieve your troubles, but at least, I can listen,” Mingyan looked at Ning Feixuan. He thought he had really let go. At least he was not deliberately keeping his distance from Ning Feixuan as he had in the beginning.
Ning Feixuan bit her lips gently. If this trouble is related to you, can you still be a listener?
Ning Feixuan looked at Mingyan, her eyes hazy.
In fact, Ning Feixuan’s initial thought was not wrong. Perhaps if she had not known Mingyan, there would not have been so many things. She should have indeed stayed away from Mingyan early on.
But, from the results, the more she wanted to stay away, the closer she got to him.
To escape… she could never escape.
Mingyan saw the feeling revealed in Ning Feixuan’s eyes but was a little unable to sort it out.
Because the feelings inside were too complicated, so complicated that it was difficult to sort them out without deep and careful thought.
But Mingyan did not want to think deeply. Although they were friends and he was willing to be a listener, Mingyan was no longer willing to go deeper into Ning Feixuan’s trajectory.
Ning Feixuan couldn’t guess Mingyan’s thoughts. She looked at Mingyan, knowing that she either had to enjoy the torture of loneliness in silence, or speak out, and at least die knowing.
Ning Feixuan tucked the hair by her ear and turned her head to the side. “Can I really tell you?”
“Of course,” Mingyan nodded.
“Then… actually…” Ning Feixuan turned her head, looked at Mingyan, her eyes mournful. “I do have some worries. I have some things I want to say to someone. I also know I should say them. It’s the right thing to do. But I just don’t have the courage. Do you think I should tell him? Tell him my thoughts… and after he understands… he will reject me.”
“Reject you?” Mingyan was a little surprised to hear this. “You haven’t even said it, and you already know he will reject you?”
“Because, I feel he will reject me,” Ning Feixuan looked at Mingyan, the corners of her lips curving into a smile.
Just looking at this smile, Mingyan couldn’t feel happiness, only sadness and sorrow.
“How would you know if you don’t say it?” Mingyan shook his head. “But what kind of…”
Before Mingyan could finish his sentence, Ning Feixuan interrupted him. “I like you, Mingyan.”
Mingyan’s subsequent words were instantly stuck. He looked at Ning Feixuan, stunned for a moment. “You… what did you just say?”
“I said, I like you,” Ning Feixuan couldn’t feel her own heartbeat. Perhaps it was beating too fast. Apprehension and fear were intertwined, and there seemed to be a hint of expectation mixed in. She felt she was about to die, like a person standing on a cliff and then suddenly jumping off. She had a sense of weightlessness. She clearly knew that if she fell to the ground, she would probably be smashed to pieces. But she couldn’t help but look forward, that below was a pool of water, that there were plants below that could stop her.
Mingyan was really surprised. He looked at Ning Feixuan, and for a moment, he actually didn’t know what to say.
“…Why would you say that?”
“To be honest, do you need a reason?” Ning Feixuan looked at Mingyan, her tone a little out of breath. She was clearly a cultivator at the Divine Gate Realm and clearly didn’t need to breathe. But she had a feeling of being out of breath, of suffocation. Every word she uttered was not so clear. She felt her heartbeat again. It was beating so hard that her whole person was trembling with it.
Mingyan looked at Ning Feixuan seriously. The emotions in her eyes were too complex. It was difficult for Mingyan to extract anything from them. But the only thing that could be confirmed was…
Her attitude was very serious. So, she was not joking.
But the more it was like this, the more absurd Mingyan felt. What was this?
Now Ning Feixuan was telling him that she liked him?
But Mingyan had already given up. Now that she was telling him, what was the point?
