Chapter 162: Notes
Su Yu threw the black plastic bag with the leftovers into the trash can. He saw that the convenience store in the neighborhood was still open and decided to go and buy some toiletries for the morning.
The rain had slowly stopped, and a few scattered raindrops would occasionally fall on his face, cold and icy. The cold night wind was still howling, scraping against his face like a knife, but there was no red blood.
For some reason, he suddenly remembered the image of Su Xi tearing the crayfish shell and meat apart with her white, transparent medical gloves. Her hands were covered in blood-red chili oil, like fresh blood…
Su Yu immediately pushed those images out of his mind, feeling that his neurotic behavior was a bit ridiculous. He wondered if he had been infected by Su Xi’s jumpy way of thinking, and would start to let his imagination run wild whenever he had a spare moment.
Su Xi was a very childish girl in her behavior, yet she also gave people the impression of being very mature, as if she knew everything… but in some things, she was as stubborn as a rebellious child.
They had only been in contact for a short time, but the distance between them had been shortened a lot by the girl’s enthusiastic promotion. It was still hard for him to accept their rapidly developing relationship. The girl would always call him “brother” in a sweet and greasy voice, which sounded a little deliberate and made him feel a little uncomfortable.
But besides being a little too enthusiastic, Su Xi was really like a well-behaved and cute younger sister. She answered all of Su Yu’s questions without any concealment.
For example, she actually didn’t like Qingchuan University at all. She had only been a little interested in the chemistry competition. After she signed up, she had won an international award and could be admitted to a school with a related major. She was not interested in going abroad, so in the end, she had casually chosen Qingchuan University, which had the highest ranking in chemistry.
The cold wind grew fiercer. His thick, smooth black hair was blown into a mess. He shrunk his neck, pulled the collar of his down jacket tight, and strode towards the convenience store.
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Su Yu opened the door. The living room was still lit. He placed the things he had bought on the coffee table. The table in the dining room, where they had just had barbecue, had been wiped clean, and the residual water stains shone under the chandelier.
The trash can had a new garbage bag, and another pair of greasy gloves had been thrown inside. The girl seemed to dislike getting her hands dirty. She had carefully worn gloves while eating the crayfish, had asked him to throw away the trash, and had even protected her hands while wiping the table.
He suddenly remembered that Su Xi’s slender fingers had pink diamond-colored nails, which were particularly dazzling under the light, like a sparkling princess, which matched her lively and cute personality.
“Xiao Xi?”
Su Yu walked to the shower room and found that the light was off. To avoid suspicion, he still called out into the shower room. There was no sound of trickling water, nor could he hear the girl’s reply. So he had to turn on the light. But he couldn’t see anyone in the shower room, which had its door and window tightly closed. He pulled open the frosted glass door, and his nose twitched. He smelled a pleasant milky fragrance, and a little bit of mist that had not yet dissipated was slowly floating under the warm-colored bath light.
Su Yu looked at the few bottles of bath products that were crookedly placed on the counter and sighed helplessly. Actually, the first glance he had of the house when he had followed Su Xi in was a distinct mess. Various coats, socks, and slippers were scattered everywhere, without a single bit of tidying up.
He walked into the shower room and arranged the bath products on the counter. He inadvertently glanced at the basket in the corner, which was specially used for clothes, and saw a few wet, white, personal undergarments. The straps were casually hanging on the edge of the basket. Their owner seemed to be completely unconcerned that there was an adult male living in the room. The girl’s nerves were almost terrifyingly crude.
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Su Yu walked out of the shower room and into the living room. This house only had two rooms, a master bedroom and a guest bedroom. He looked at the time, which was almost midnight, and thought that Su Xi might already be asleep. He roughly identified the rooms. The door to the master bedroom was tightly closed, but the door to the guest bedroom was wide open.
He didn’t think much of it. He turned off the living room light and walked straight into the guest bedroom. The room was also unlit. He fumbled by the door for a while, pressed the switch, and was startled to see a teddy bear that was big enough to fill half the bed lying on the small bed.
Su Yu took a few steps back, but the guest bedroom was not big, and there was nowhere to retreat. He was not paying attention and tripped over the clothes on the floor. It was the white sweater dress the girl had worn today, which was now stained with a little dust after he had stepped on it.
In the end, he was quick-witted and grabbed the bookshelf on the wall, barely stopping himself from falling. A few books accidentally fell down and hit his instep, which turned a little red. Fortunately, the sound was not loud.
Su Yu stared blankly as the teddy bear was kicked off the bed by a small, white foot, revealing the girl’s soft and delicate body behind it. She seemed to be wearing a nightgown, and her sleeping posture was not very good. She was a little restless, and her milky white, smooth shoulders were exposed. The collar of her dress was low, and her delicate and small collarbone was faintly visible.
Perhaps she had been disturbed by the recent commotion. The girl turned over, her frowning sleeping face facing Su Yu. Half of her calf was exposed from the blanket, her snow-white feet dangling in the air.
The room was not air-conditioned, and it was a little cold even with clothes on. But the girl was sleeping soundly. She was much quieter when she was asleep, showing a bit of fragility. She smacked her small mouth a few times, her lips moist. Her lips parted, and she mumbled something in a low voice. Su Yu subconsciously leaned closer to listen. The girl whimpered, like a little kitten calling for its mother in her arms. She whimpered.
“Brother…”
This “brother” was without the affected tone she used when she called him. It was as if it were sincere… she seemed to really have such a brother. She had called him countless times in her heart, so that it sounded so natural now.
Su Yu covered the girl with the blanket. The girl seemed to feel the warmth and smiled in her dream.
He settled the girl and turned to pick up the few books that had fallen on the floor. He looked up at the medical books on the bookshelf, whose names were all professional terms. A few of them were in English, and he couldn’t understand them at all.
Su Yu didn’t pay much attention to it, thinking that these were all materials the girl had used for self-study at home after she had taken a leave of absence from school. He put the books in his hand back one by one. The last book was very thin, so much so that Su Yu took a second look. It was a notebook, with a white leather cover. There was a fingerprint on it, and the lines of the fingerprint spread out on the cover.
The ink pad used seemed to be blood-red, but it didn’t have that unique texture, which made one suspect… that it was blood.
Why… did he open the cover involuntarily?
He opened the cover as if possessed. The paper was white with black stripes, and the same red pigment as on the cover was used to write a few words:
Final Wish.
Su Yu suddenly held his breath. His heart was pounding in his chest, and a sense of panic rushed through his blood vessels.
He turned another page. The text was now black, and elegant handwriting appeared before his eyes:
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Eat well every day.
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Be sure to take your medicine seriously.
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Commit suicide with drugs.
