Chapter 67 p1: Pain
The clear, warm water trickled into the bathtub. After it was full, it began to seep out along the edge of the white bathtub, splashing into small water flowers on the wet white porcelain tiles, wetting the bare feet that had been standing in place for a long time.
Her dilated pupils slowly condensed into a round shape. Gu Zhi came back to her senses and only then did she realize that the bathtub was already full of water. She rubbed her expressionless face, and the water wet the makeup on her face, revealing a hint of a hidden pale and desolate look.
Her tired body, which had been up all night, had wanted to bury itself in the soft bedding and fall asleep the moment she had walked into the apartment. But she had still endured her sleepiness and had fallen into a crazy and wanton embrace with the boy. Her spirit was pulled by her fragile nerves and was almost pushed to its limit.
This seemed to have become their only way of communication. Only at the moment of their physical and mental fusion would the boy be gentle with her. She really loved the brief moment of reaching a climax. He would gently hold her waist, mess up her soft and dark hair, and would even kiss every inch of her body from top to bottom…
The power of lust was incredibly great to her at this moment. A sense of happiness filled her body and spirit. She had gotten a great, hot, and real satisfaction from it.
Although she knew very well that this kind of harmony was just a huge curtain that was covering a ruin. Once this curtain was lifted, what she had to face was a dilapidated and rotten mess and a sky full of dust.
But it was precisely because she had never been deceived by the boy’s submission and silence from beginning to end that her extreme reverence for instinct had actually become a kind of absolute rationality.
Her small, fair ankles submerged in the water, creating ripples. More and more clear water seeped out from the edge of the bathtub, and the bathroom was gradually filled with a hazy and blurry water vapor.
The water flowers that were splashing on the white tiles became more and more brilliant and bright, and the beautiful petals also gradually changed from clear and transparent to a dazzling bright red. It was as if a snow-white lily had bloomed into a bright and dazzling red rose.
Her entire seductive and plump, naked body was completely buried in the water. Below her long neck, only her full and soft breasts were held in her arms, creating a deep and sunken cleavage, which was filled with a warm and reddish water.
The feeling of the warm water directly touching the wound was not pleasant. Her delicate, porcelain-white skin was covered with kiss marks and fingerprints from the frenzy. Some places were broken, and the hot water vapor stimulated the wound, and a few strands of blood seeped out, causing a numb and itchy, unbearable pain.
But this pain was far from the tearing sensation that came from her lower body. The muddy and fragile land, after being washed by a heavy rain, revealed a deep red soil, as if it were covered with a field of bright red and dazzling rose petals.
A few drops of thick, red ink seemed to have fallen into the clear water in the bathtub, and a blood-red color soon spread on the surface of the water, with a dreamlike pink under the warm light. She moved her body slightly, and the pain that was pulled out instantly crushed this illusory dream.
So painful… so painful.
She had never thought that this pleasure, which was hailed as a paradise on earth, would become a cruel torture on her. It seemed to have nothing to do with the number of times. Every time after a lingering embrace, it was always accompanied by such a strong and cramping pain. Besides the pleasure brought by the moment of reaching a climax, which would temporarily suppress this pain, she could only grit her teeth and endure this pain for the rest of the time.
She was even a little confused about the purpose of her enduring the pain and repeating this pain.
It was just that every time she felt the boy’s warmth as he held her tightly during the final sprint, she would be so overwhelmed with happiness that she would be dizzy. Her body was clearly being ravaged, but she still couldn’t let go of this happiness of being able to briefly possess the other party mentally, and she would not hesitate to repeat this pain countless times.
Her body and soul were as if they had been completely separated. Her body was in extreme pain, but her empty soul was filled with a sense of happiness. She had gotten an unprecedented satisfaction from it.
In some aspects, she was also just a naive and ignorant girl. She had never deeply studied this kind of thing, so she was completely ignorant. The first time was because she had lost her virginity. Now she couldn’t find a reason to convince herself.
She had even made a few female friends at the school where she was pursuing her doctorate for this reason. The enthusiastic and open-minded northern girls were incredulous at her troubles. This kind of indulgence in the instinct of desire should have brought an irresistible addiction.
In the end, Gu Zhi had even gone to the hospital for a full-body checkup with their company. She didn’t like the atmosphere of the hospital. Perhaps it was because she had been there for too long. A person like her, who was so cold and aloof, still had a deep disgust for life and death.
The results had not yet come out, and it was as if a huge stone were hanging in her heart. She was afraid of this. If there was really something wrong with her body in some aspects, she didn’t want the only bridge between them to be broken and destroyed like this. Even if she had to endure the excruciating pain, she would desperately imprison this only remaining light in her life.
What she wanted, she had to hold on to tightly. Time would one day erase all the barriers. After all, how could the things that woman had taught her be wrong?
Let’s take it slow.
They would definitely fall in love, get married, have children, and become each other’s lovers and family… every time she thought of this, her heart would also start to beat actively after a long time, pulling at the connected blood vessels and muscles, and hitting her ribs with a dull pain. It was as if the monster in her body was making a fuss again, or something else.
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The transparent glass was stained with a layer of wind and snow, and it became blurry. One could only vaguely see everything outside the window slowly falling into a flurry of white snow. And they were hiding in a warm and safe house, enjoying a comfortable and reassuring feeling.
A pot of fragrant fish soup was boiling in front of the table. The water vapor was steaming in front of them. The fragrant and thick soup would occasionally turn up a few milky white bubbles. The fish meat that was lined at the bottom of the soup was translucent and smooth, which was appetizing.
“It’s very fresh. You should try it, Xiao Yu.”
Gu Zhi picked up a piece of snow-white and soft fish belly meat and put it in Su Yu’s bowl. She had put on a rose-red lip gloss on her lips after she had taken a bath, which covered the paleness caused by the loss of blood. Her whole person looked rosy and bright, like a ripe peach.
Su Yu held his chopsticks and looked down at the hot rice and fish meat in his bowl. He still couldn’t help but miss these dishes from his hometown. Although for him, this was just to fill his stomach. If he had to choose a way to die one day, it would definitely not be starvation. He knew the pain of it very well. Hunger was a maddening thing.
“In a few days, a few of my friends from school will come over to have a party. You should come too, Xiao Yu. You’ve been here for so long. You should make some new friends.”
Gu Zhi suppressed the pain in her lower body, which made her have no appetite. She swallowed the fine and soft rice in her mouth and looked up at Su Yu with a smile.
Su Yu didn’t even look up at Gu Zhi. He buried his head and ate his rice, as if he were in a hurry to finish eating so that he could end his time with the woman.
He had no interest in Gu Zhi’s words. In the past, he might have been happy and thought that this was a rare opportunity. But in the end, others would only treat him as a psycho who couldn’t speak clearly and had a persecution complex.
“A few of them are students from my hometown. You should be able to communicate with them, Xiao Yu.”
The tip of his chopsticks, which he had been struggling to eat with, suddenly stopped. He raised his clear and cold black eyes and looked at the woman’s alluring and charming face. He opened his mouth, but he couldn’t find his own voice for a long time.
