Chapter 16: Confession
The car was carefully parked in a nearby parking lot. After it had stopped, the low air pressure in the little girl’s sigh had slowly risen again.
An Zhi had unfastened her seatbelt and had rubbed her sore eyes. She had a feeling of a tired feeling of having survived a disaster. She had turned her head and had glanced at Su Yu. She had found that he was quietly looking at her. Her consciousness had swayed for a moment, and her toes had subconsciously stepped on the gas pedal. She had been startled. She had seen the key in her hand, and she had covered her mouth and had not cried out.
“What’s wrong?”, he had asked her with a smile.
The lights in the car were dim. She had taken the courage to trace his features, which had a deep shadow because of their three-dimensionality.
She had shaken her head like a rattle. “N-Nothing.”
“I’ll wait for you downstairs.”
Her hand, which was on the doorknob, had tightened. She had not followed him at the first moment. She had watched as Su Yu had gotten out of the car, and her heart was beating again as he had slowly walked away. She had been too nervous when she was driving, and she had forgotten everything. When she was quiet, she was nervous again.
She had once hoped that he was still alive. Her dream had come true, and she seemed to have courage again. These four years had exhausted her hope, and her courage had also been exhausted.
“Knock, knock, knock!”
The car window had sounded, and An Zhi had been so scared that her shoulders had trembled. She had turned her head and had found that Su Yu was standing outside the car window.
A somewhat hoarse voice had come in. “You don’t want to go?”
How did he come back? She was suddenly a little happy. Her stuffy chest had gotten a breath of fresh air. This surprise was like being given a delicate and beautiful flower with dewdrops on its petals on a boring day of squeezing onto a bus to go to work.
Very abruptly, she had felt that she could hold on.
Through the dark and frosted glass, he should not have been able to see her. So An Zhi had reached out her hand and had gently touched his outline on the window. She had clearly heard her own voice. “Let’s go.”
…
“There’s a very good barbecue nearby. It’s too far for takeout.”
On the side of the road, there were a few people, and they were walking side by side. Su Yu was on the outside, and he was blocking the noisy wind. The orange-yellow headlights were occasionally sweeping over them. The girl was always looking down, and she was absent-minded.
“You don’t like to eat?”, Su Yu had bent down and had whispered in her ear.
His breath was on her neck, and it was itchy.
She had suddenly woken up, and An Zhi had shaken her head. Her voice was in a mess. “Barbecue is quite expensive, right? You’ve just started working…”
“The company has a bonus.”
As they were walking, the road was about to come to an end. It was a little noisy by her ear. The wheels were rolling over the asphalt road, and the leaves were rustling in the wind. The drunk men and women were hugging and kissing each other…
An Zhi had suddenly pulled him and had stopped. “Do you want to drink?”
“Now?”, Su Yu had looked at her with surprise. He couldn’t believe that this was what An Zhi would say.
“Yes.”
“You came by car.”
“Do you think I had to park in the parking lot for no reason?”
He had asked one more question. “Are you in a bad mood?”
“It’s very troublesome for an intern teacher to become a full-time teacher. I’m very busy every day.” She gave a dry reason. “The pressure is very high.”
She wanted to vent, and with the help of the alcohol, she would say some of the things that were rotten in her heart when she was sober.
Su Yu thought for a while. He said, “Okay. If you’re drunk, I’ll take you and the barbecue back. If you want to have a second round with the barbecue, that’s fine too.”
The two of them crossed the road together. On the other side was a bar street. The colorful neon lights were so bright that they hurt his eyes. An Zhi had originally wanted to pull him to a lively and crowded place, where the men and women were in a close and ambiguous and hazy state, and they were shaking their heads.
Su Yu didn’t agree. He walked a little further and went into a quiet bar. The crowd was okay, and the lights were not dazzling. They were very dim. A singer was holding a guitar and was singing on the stage.
When they got to their seats, they ordered some wine. He ordered a glass of whiskey. An Zhi was watching on the side, and she was a little awkwardly on the counter. It was a long time before she had squeezed out a sentence and had asked for the same thing as him.
“This wine is a little strong.”
“I’ve never been drunk before.”
Her words were ambiguous. Actually, she had only had a few beers. The lights were dim, and he couldn’t see her face, which was already red before she had even had any alcohol.
One of the two of them had to be sober. Su Yu just took a light sip. The person next to him was indeed drinking heavily, as if she had no restraint. A glass of cold wine was down in two or three mouthfuls.
“You’re drinking so fast?”
She leaned against him a little, and her body was slightly drunk. She pulled at her collar. “This wine… what does it taste like? It’s bad… but it’s not bad. It’s so strange.”
A patch of a soft and white was under her collar. Su Yu turned his gaze away and parted the hand that was on her collar. He had a bad feeling. “You’re not… a drunkard, are you? If you really can’t, then forget it.”
“No! My pressure…”, she paused, and her tail tone was heavy, as if she had a cold. “is very high.”
“Drinking too much is decadent. It’s self-indulgence. It’s not a release.”
She shook her head in a daze and waved her hand and ordered another glass.
“Stop drinking.” His tone seemed a little stern.
An Zhi’s hand, which was holding the wine glass, trembled. She held the wine in her arms like a mother protecting her cub. Her clear and pure eyes were rarely cloudy, and the corners of her eyes were a little charming. She was acting spoiled, and her voice was very soft. “The last glass.”
Su Yu sighed and said okay, and he asked her not to go back on her word.
His glass was empty. He was sitting on the side and was watching her drink in small sips. The other party’s gaze had met his through the glass, and then it had quickly moved away.
A girl had come up to him and had asked him if he wanted to have a full glass of wine.
He had politely turned his head and had said no. In the stuffy and small space, the back of his neck was inexplicably cold.
When he had turned around again, he had seen that there were three empty wine glasses in front of the girl’s table, and they were clean and empty.
“Why did you order another glass?”
She was already so drunk that she was out of shape. She was leaning against the table, and she was squinting at him with her hazy and drunken eyes. Her hands were on her collar again, and she was calling his name in a soft and fluffy voice. “Su Yu, I’m hot…”
“It’s not hot outside. Let’s go back.”
Su Yu’s temples were a little sore. He held her hand and held her down. His panicked voice was a little loud, and it sounded as if he were very fierce.
He was half-holding An Zhi, and her hand was through his armpit. Her hand was in the long ends of his hair, and it was as if she were making a fuss, and it was deep in the ends of his hair. Her fingers were one by one, and they were in his hair.
A drunkard was clearly unreasonable. Su Yu was not on his guard. She had really pulled him, and she had not held back her strength. He had grimaced in pain.
“Don’t move…”, An Zhi was as if she had gotten a hold of him. Her tone was a little smug. “Do you still want your hair?”
“You’re drunk. Let go quickly…”
She had let go of him a little, and so the two of them had looked at each other. They were too close, and the tips of their noses were brushing against their cheeks. She had seen that his gaze was trying its best to restrain itself, and he was enduring her ambiguity. She was a little resentful, as if he had no interest in her at all.
“Why are you so fierce?”
A person who was too well-behaved was rebellious in their bones. She had hidden it very deeply.
So her lips had gone down fiercely, and she had bitten him. Her lips were red and then white. The little white rabbit had become a big gray wolf.
Actually, she had always been complaining. She had been spoiled by her family since she was a child. She didn’t understand like at all, and she had never liked anyone.
Later, she had understood. The process was not very good. But the first time was him. But the person had disappeared in the blink of an eye. She had thought that no matter what, like was not a very good thing. No one would spoil her anymore. If she wanted something, she had to get it herself. In this aspect, An Zhi knew very well that she was not as clear as them.
She had always wanted to wait, but she had thought that this was not enough.
Her lips were on his, and she had bitten him just like that. It was almost
The next second, they had separated. He had pushed her away.
An Zhi was in a blank state from him. The amber-colored wine was swaying in the glass, and her chest was empty, and her legs were also weak.
What was she doing?
“You…”
“I… I…”
An Zhi had been dry for a long time. She had interrupted him with a single blow, and a muscle in her brain was twisted. She had subconsciously said nonsense.
“I love you.”
She couldn’t tell if it was from being drunk or from being ashamed. She had covered her face and had jumped up from her chair and had stood up straight. She had no idea what she was doing. But her reaction was so big that it was as if she had killed someone and had set a fire. But wasn’t this a little too greasy and shameless? The face of her life was about to be completely lost this time.
And besides… why had she said it now? Was this a confession or what? With her little bit of a thought, he had probably already seen it.
“I… I’m going back first.”
Her thoughts were in a mess, and she couldn’t tell if it was good or bad. So An Zhi had turned and had wanted to leave. A rabbit would hide in its burrow when it was scared. This was an instinct. She was hiding and was hiding. Now that she was a teacher, she still couldn’t get rid of it.
“Stop.”
Su Yu had pulled An Zhi back and had pressed her on the chair. The roots of her hair were still in pain.
His fingers were on her forehead. He had seen that she had closed her eyes and had not dared to look at him. He had rolled his eyes and had not wanted to argue with a drunkard. He had flicked the other party’s smooth and clean forehead, and it had turned red.
He had thought for a moment and had rubbed the bridge of his nose. He was a little tired.
“What has Su Xi been teaching you? Can’t you learn something good?”
