Chapter 36 p2: Invasion. “Lock you up, hide you at home.”
After the check-up, Dongdong drove them to that Cantonese restaurant.
On the way, Cheng Yang was digesting what Xu Xun had said just now.
She hadn’t expected to have such a radical fan.
Since she had one, it meant that Xu Xun had also had one, but she had never told her.
“Wifey, have you ever run into this kind of fan?”
Xu Xun shook her head. “I’m not that famous. I don’t even have half as many fans as you.”
Cheng Yang leaned on her shoulder with a smile. “What’s with the formalities between us? Why are you being so clear-cut?”
Xu Xun smiled. “You like me, but your fans may not necessarily like me.”
“I debuted late, and I only have one or two representative works. I don’t have any works with high national recognition. Of course, many fans will think that I’m not worthy of you.”
Cheng Yang was about to speak when Dongdong, who was driving, couldn’t help but speak.
“Teacher Xu, what you said is too absolute. Actually, you have a lot of CP fans. I’m one of them.”
Cheng Yang went along with Dongdong’s words. “Yeah. You don’t even know that we have a CP super topic, called Mu Cheng Xin Xu. I even made a private account to mix in, and I’ve become the biggest CP fan leader.”
Xu Xun looked surprised. “What? That active user named Miemie Yang is you?”
The moment she said this, both of them were stunned.
Xu Xun quickly shut up.
The smile on Cheng Yang’s lips grew deeper. “Wifey, didn’t you say you don’t like to use Weibo? How do you know Miemie Yang?”
Xu Xun was still stubborn. “I saw it on my feed.”
Cheng Yang crossed her arms in front of her chest. “Oh, you can even see that on your feed? That means you must pay a lot of attention to it, otherwise why would Weibo recommend it to you?”
“…”
Xu Xun finally admitted, “Alright, I often click on it. I always run into this person with the same IP as us. I didn’t expect it to be you.”
Cheng Yang nodded with satisfaction, took out her phone, and directly followed her private account with her main account, and even deliberately turned on the visible follow.
Seeing her so smooth in her operation, Xu Xun couldn’t help but laugh out loud.
“Yangyang, it’s fine if you don’t follow. You don’t have to do so many things just to reassure me. You might lose fans.”
Cheng Yang held Xu Xun’s wrist, her tone earnest. “Do you still see yourself as an outsider?”
Her gaze fell on her own Weibo homepage. “Now, I am you and you are me. We are one. I can’t deliberately avoid you just because of some gossip.”
She held Xu Xun’s hand, slipped her fingers into the gaps between the other’s, and took a photo with her phone.
“Click.”
Then, in front of Xu Xun, Cheng Yang directly uploaded this photo to her own Weibo.
There was no caption, just an “@Xu Xun.”
“Yangyang!”
Xu Xun’s heart was in her throat.
“You… you’re…”
Cheng Yang turned off her phone and put it aside. “I’ve wanted to do this for a long time. Now that this photo is out, there’s no turning back.”
She clearly could have just announced their relationship without any regard, but she had dragged it out until now.
Cheng Yang knew very well that the one who didn’t want to go public with her was Xu Xun.
In fact, it wasn’t that she couldn’t see it, but she just didn’t want to expose it.
Perhaps it was because Xu Xun felt inferior and was afraid of delaying her future, or perhaps it was for other reasons.
Cheng Yang didn’t know.
Cheng Yang didn’t want to ask.
Cheng Yang just wanted to let Xu Xun know that these things were nothing.
Seeing the astonishment in Xu Xun’s eyes just now, Cheng Yang felt a little regretful.
But there was no medicine for regret in the world. What was sent was sent.
Xu Xun was so astonished she couldn’t describe it with words.
She stared at Cheng Yang with wide eyes. “Yangyang, why did you do that?”
Cheng Yang’s heart clenched. “You don’t want our relationship to be completely public?”
Xu Xun moved her lips. “I… that’s not what I mean. I just…”
“Just what?”
Cheng Yang couldn’t understand what Xu Xun meant.
It was clearly she who had said she had no sense of security at the beginning, and it was also she who had occasionally brought up getting married and going public.
But when she had really made their relationship public, Xu Xun had retreated.
The joy and excitement in Cheng Yang’s heart just now were swept away.
She let go of Xu Xun’s hand and turned her head to look out the window.
“I’m not hungry anymore. Let’s go home.”
The meal didn’t happen. Dongdong drove the two of them home.
Cheng Yang had a bit of low blood sugar. The moment she got out of the car, her legs went weak, and she almost fell to the ground.
Xu Xun held her arm tightly but was slowly pushed away by the other.
“I’m fine. I don’t need you to help me.”
“Yangyang.”
Xu Xun followed closely behind her, her almost pathological eyes staring straight at the back of Cheng Yang’s neck.
Cheng Yang didn’t want to talk.
She always felt that she couldn’t grasp Xu Xun’s heart.
Xu Xun always hid things, not telling anyone, and not telling her.
They were supposed to be the most intimate people in the world. Cheng Yang wished she could tell her everything, but in the end, she couldn’t get the other’s confession and frankness in return.
Cheng Yang always told herself that even lovers should have secrets.
But she was very sad now because Xu Xun was always hiding things and leaving her out.
Cheng Yang held onto the wall and walked into the room, then shakily went up to the second floor.
Xu Xun followed behind her. After going upstairs, she locked the door from the inside.
Cheng Yang turned her head and met Xu Xun’s calm eyes.
“Is there anything you want to say to me?”
Xu Xun shook her head and turned to leave.
Cheng Yang called out to her, “Come back. Explain it clearly.”
Xu Xun stopped, her back to Cheng Yang, silent.
Cheng Yang looked at her lonely back, recalled the memory that had suddenly entered her mind last night, and softened her voice.
“We’re already married, and we’ve done the most intimate things between lovers. Is there anything you can’t tell me?”
Xu Xun’s voice was muffled. “Yangyang, I don’t have anything.”
“You do.”
Cheng Yang held her wrist, gently pulled her to her side, and hugged her slender waist from behind.
“Don’t think I can’t see it. I always feel that you’re hiding something from me.”
Xu Xun’s body suddenly stiffened.
Cheng Yang had already felt it. She pressed her face against Xu Xun’s back.
“I won’t pry into your secrets. I’ll respect your choices, but you have to tell me if something happens. Don’t suffer alone. Maybe I can help you.”
Cheng Yang held Xu Xun from behind. She couldn’t understand why, even though she clearly had a mouth, she was unwilling to confide in her.
What unspeakable secret did Xu Xun have?
Cheng Yang thought of what Xu Xun had said before, that the two of them would always have cold wars from time to time.
Perhaps it was because of poor communication.
“A-Xun, you’re always like this. It makes me very worried. I’m afraid you have some psychological problems.”
Cheng Yang coaxed, “You can tell me anything. I’m the person closest to you. I’ll always be on your side.”
“I’m not worthy of you!”
This sentence was like a floodgate.
Two streams of clear tears silently flowed from the corners of Xu Xun’s eyes.
She clenched her fists and choked out.
“We’ve never been people of the same class. I’m selfish and awkward and have low self-esteem. I…”
“Don’t say that.”
Cheng Yang’s heart ached. “What class? I don’t care about these things.”
“I know you don’t care, but I do.”
Xu Xun’s voice was hoarse, and her voice trembled with a crying tone.
“After being with you, I have no sense of security no matter what you say. I’ve also seen a psychiatrist in private. They all say I’m paranoid, that it’s a mental illness, and that I must receive treatment.”
“They even prescribed me medicine, but I haven’t taken a single pill.”
“I just care about you too much. I’m not sick. I don’t take medicine.”
Cheng Yang noticed that she was a little agitated and quickly held her tightly. “Don’t take it! Don’t take medicine! What’s the point of taking medicine if you’re not sick!”
Noticing that the person in her arms was still trembling slightly, Cheng Yang quickly stood up and held Xu Xun from behind.
“…”
She had suspected that Xu Xun had mental problems before, and now it was finally confirmed.
Xu Xun turned around and held Cheng Yang tightly in her arms.
She sobbed softly, and two streams of hot tears slowly flowed down her cheeks.
“Yangyang, promise me that you’ll only love me in this lifetime, that you’ll only have me.”
Cheng Yang quickly answered, afraid that the other would go crazy if she was a second late.
“I promise you! Only you! I don’t like anyone else! I only love you!”
Xu Xun nodded but still bit her lower lip.
Cheng Yang stared into her eyes. “A-Xun, what I said is all true. You have to believe me.”
Xu Xun turned her head, and the hurt in her eyes made Cheng Yang’s heart ache like a knife.
“What do you want me to do for you to believe that I only love you?”
Xu Xun stared straight at Cheng Yang. She didn’t speak but tilted her head to size her up.
This gaze was extremely aggressive.
In fact, Cheng Yang had seen it many times before. She was already used to it, so she didn’t feel anything.
“If you don’t love me anymore, I’ll lock you up and hide you at home.”
“I won’t let you film, and I won’t let you see anyone. You can only look at me every day.”
Hearing this yandere-like sentence, Cheng Yang tried hard to suppress the upward curve of her lips.
Perhaps it was her professional ethics as an actress, but Cheng Yang managed to hold back her smile.
She nodded solemnly. “Okay, but that day will never come.”
Xu Xun held her head high. “You’d better be.”
After a moment, she was held tightly by Cheng Yang again.
The Alpha’s comforting murmur was in her ear.
Xu Xun buried her chin in the crook of her neck, choked with sobs, and spoke of all her grievances and unwillingness.
But her eyes were bright and sparkling, and a faint smile was on her lips.
Determined to win.
