190. Destroy and Remake
In the frozen time, Light admired Reina, thinking of the Reina who was willing to become her true mother. Instantly, memories began to flood back.
When she gained consciousness, it seemed that a long time had already passed.
Her thoughts were chaotic, yet remarkably consistent. She could feel that she was a pulsating golden flame.
The first time she opened her eyes… if that could be called opening her eyes.
She saw a young woman with azure hair. She was expressionless, caressing her, and said:
“From today on, you are the tool that will make me more [perfect].”
At the same time, hundreds of consciousnesses began to think, producing a myriad of chaotic emotions, sadness, anger, self-blame… But one emotion was common to all—
Joy.
The person before them was the Goddess of Light.
We, who were sacrificed, who were deceived by the church, were actually taken in by the Goddess of Light.
“It seems the consciousness is still rather mixed. I don’t know how to completely fuse you…”
And the moment the Goddess of Light spoke, they… or rather, “Light,” also had a unified thought.
—Obey, just like before, have faith in the Goddess of Light.
They began to do as the goddess said, without exception.
Become the goddess’s tool.
Because originally, their actions as Saintesses were also the same.
Faith and loyalty to the light, and today was the moment their dream came true.
But at first, the Goddess of Light didn’t give her any complicated work.
“Help me analyze the movements of these people.”
“Yes, oh, okay…”
She could see that world through the Goddess of Light’s divine artifact.
The world that had abandoned them.
The so-called Pope and the Church of Light were all the same.
When they knew they were going to be sacrificed, the Saintesses’ hearts were filled with despair.
So, they hated this world.
However, to destroy this world, the goddess said, required [order], so they began to obey the goddess’s command.
But the tasks were simple.
Either it was helping an old grandmother who believed in the light fulfill her wish, or making it rain on a poor farm under the light, or creating a flower field that a child liked, so that the crops would have a bountiful harvest.
She transformed into an elf-like existence, a part of the goddess, mastering a part of her power, and completely obeying her.
Seeing the humans’ smiles, the Saintess always felt a sense of satisfaction, and also a sense of mission accomplishment.
Although it was tedious, every time she finished her “work,” the goddess would thank her with the most sincere voice.
“You’ve worked hard, Light.”
“Hehe.”
Although there were more than a hundred consciousnesses in her mind.
And it was constantly increasing.
During this period, her most important job was to guide more Saintesses. And then, when they were sacrificed, to welcome the pitiful and sad girls who had once been hailed as Saintesses by humanity. She was like a vague existence with countless personalities, but more complex than just personalities.
“Goddess, why don’t you stop the humans from sacrificing the Saintesses?”
“Someone will always have to be sacrificed.”
The goddess only said this one sentence, and “Light” understood, not thinking it was a bad thing… The pure-minded girls were “saved” by the Goddess of Light, becoming eternal beings, which could even be called a kind of luck.
The goddess would always comfort them with gentle words.
To them, the goddess was their ideal, the best.
However, this life lasted for hundreds, even thousands of years.
For a thousand years, she repeated her mission, diligently fulfilling her duties as a tool.
Without much contact or words, the coordination between the Saintesses already took a lot of time.
So, they began to think, the Goddess must be a gentle being, right?
She always had a smile on her face.
Just like that, hundreds, thousands of years passed.
Once, the two sat opposite each other in a castle created by the goddess in another space… Even though the current Light was still a burning sphere without a real body, she was allowed to exist in this space.
“[The Necrolord] is trying to unbalance this world. I need you to help me analyze the reasons for their actions. I can’t understand the logic of the soul creatures’ actions.”
“Just that? Why not just destroy them?” Light’s voice was a mixture of several voices.
“For the long-term plan, I must understand the underlying logic and find the [Truth Formula].”
“So that’s how it is…”
“The reason I made you do this before was to cultivate your emotions and give you a concept of the beauty of this world. Now, I need you to help me with something.”
Light, at this point, had a more consistent way of thinking, and she had a question.
“Could it be that our world isn’t filled with light and love?”
The goddess shook her head: “I don’t have that kind of thing.”
“You are a person with a soul core, so many decisions require your assistance.”
“Goddess, do you not have emotions?”
“That kind of thing, I’ve already used it up.”
“Used it up… because of forbidden magic?”
“Yes.”
“I see…”
“You still have a lot to learn.”
“I understand…”
Light’s heart tightened.
At this moment, she finally began to understand that the goddess didn’t act out of universal love, but out of “responsibility.”
But wasn’t that too pitiful?
She had no desires of her own, nor would she be satisfied, like a robot.
And the “emotions” she showed were just content expressed based on her super-strong computational power and her understanding of emotions.
For a moment, she wanted to tear apart her own stubborn thinking and said playfully:
“The goddess has a kind of obsession with [order]…”
“I believe that nothing can reduce pain more than [order].”
“But if you can’t feel what pain is, then why do you still insist on it…”
The goddess nodded: “Precisely because of this, I need you, the existence named [Light].”
“Then why did you take me in, instead of absorbing my soul core…” If Light had a body, she would be blushing now.
And now she was burning even more fiercely.
“Without emotions, why did you still take me in?”
“I don’t need it.”
“…”
“Emotions will only further affect my judgment, and it has been so for thousands of years.”
“I understand. Thank you, Goddess.”
“Light” flickered slightly as a flame.
Since the goddess had said so, she would definitely obey.
She still remembered that the [Necrolord] was an extremely crazy existence.
Resurrecting the undead, building a faith, and creating a new god.
And a few years after dealing with the Necrolord, the consciousness of some even more powerful Saintesses merged into her consciousness, and surprisingly, their consciousness was quite consistent. After all, they were children who believed in the Goddess of Light.
Light thought that this was not bad…
The goddess couldn’t perceive emotions, but she could make up for this, analyzing the answers to the [Truth Formula] for her.
She would have many opportunities to be in contact with the goddess.
But most of the time, it was… just a few words.
Sometimes, she would even feel jealous, have some negative emotions, and want the goddess to spend more time with her.
After all, she was her only “family.”
But for the sake of [order], for her [truth], for the goddess’s gentleness towards her…
It was only natural to work hard.
But one day, just as the goddess was about to obtain the [Truth Formula].
She was imprisoned in the Thousand-Layer Purgatory by those damned Four Kings of the Realms, using despicable means.
When she was imprisoned, the Goddess of Light already had a soul core.
And she, who had obtained the soul core, said this to Light:
“The entire world is wrong.”
“[The Shadow of God] shouldn’t exist, and the order we believe in doesn’t exist. To achieve eternal peace, we must destroy the world and start over.”
