62. It’s Up to You
Reina originally wanted to control her emotions, but the moment Calysia’s hand was placed on her, she burst into tears, which flowed down her thighs. She could almost see her own disheveled appearance.
Calysia arrived so timely that it felt like a dream.
Reina’s sobs turned into choked cries, and she said with a hint of complaint:
“You… why, sob… everyone outside will hear.”
“The door is closed, no one can hear.”
Reina started wailing again, her face contorting like a child’s. Gradually, she began to lean on Calysia’s arm, constantly wiping her tears on it until there was no dry spot left.
Since coming to this world, she felt as if she had been caught in an invisible vortex, struggling but only to be swept into the next current, without even a moment to breathe. It was only after getting pregnant that her life finally improved a little, no longer having to clean the entire Dragon King’s Palace like a nanny and a maid every day.
She often began to fantasize about the future and the past, hoping for a perfect, beautiful ending, hoping that this world was as easy to control as a game. She began to long for Calysia’s happy ending and her own return to her original world, discovering that all of this was just a dream she had.
But in the face of the bloody reality, she didn’t even want to think about what had happened.
“I didn’t want to fight with Hoxas, I didn’t want to fight with Donald… I didn’t want to be framed by Crimson Scale, I don’t want to fight with dragons… I… I don’t want anything… I’m just an ordinary person…”
Reina said as she cried. Rather than speaking, it was more like she was subconsciously pouring out all her complaints in a series of sobs, her voice trembling.
“I’m not some Azure Scale… Knight Commander, I’m not some President of the God Slaying Society…”
“You should rest, Little Vassal~”
Calysia stroked Reina’s slightly messy hair with her arm that hadn’t been used as a tissue.
Her voice was like a mother’s.
At this moment, Reina’s clone’s senses were magnified to the maximum. She felt Calysia’s body temperature with every cell, greedily breathing in her scent.
“No one will blame you, no one will complain about you. Even if you give up, I will protect you until the very end.”
“What about your happy ending?”
Reina’s tears flowed even more.
“You know everything, don’t you, Calysia? All those reincarnations, what were they? Were they all real? What was that…”
“Let the past be the past~”
“Then what about this time? Is this also a reincarnation? Will I fail? What if I fail…”
“Those are matters for later, they have nothing to do with now.”
“Sob, sob, sob…”
Reina cried so hard she couldn’t speak. She had originally wanted to complain, but the sound of her sobs turned her already delicate voice into a soft plea for love.
If anyone else saw Reina like this, they would be shocked by her usual decisive and resolute demeanor.
While crying, Reina suddenly seemed to realize something. Just as she was about to unreasonably complain about why Calysia wasn’t comforting her main body, Calysia suddenly seemed to understand something and said with a teasing smile:
“Your main body is still crying alone right now, isn’t it? Then let’s just do it together.”
“I don’t mind satisfying two Reinas at the same time~”
Hearing this, Reina’s crying finally subsided a little. She opened her mouth and lightly bit Calysia’s arm to vent her frustration, trying to steady her breathing. Only now did she realize that she had lost her composure. This might be the first time she had shown her true feelings in front of Calysia, as if she had found a mirror to vent her emotions, and had said everything recklessly.
But this feeling was also quite good.
After an unknown amount of time, Reina’s frequent sobs turned into intermittent ones, and finally, she would only let out a choked sob occasionally. If she ignored the tears all over her, she seemed to have returned to normal.
“Are we going home?”
“No.”
Reina said coldly:
“Let’s stay a little longer. I don’t want others to know I cried.”
“Didn’t you say it didn’t matter?”
“Who said that with you?”
She glared at Calysia angrily. Although she couldn’t see anything now, and the change in her voice from crying hadn’t fully recovered, it sounded like she was acting spoiled with her wife. But since Calysia was still helping her tidy her hair, Reina decisively rested her head on her outstretched hand, rubbing her chin and cheeks against it gently.
“You just want me to fall. I know.”
Reina muttered softly.
“What, aren’t you fallen enough now?” Calysia started to play with Reina’s cute face with one hand. “You’re already acting spoiled with me~”
“Dummy, that’s just to please you. Who has feelings for you?”
Reina wanted to bite Calysia right now.
Now that everything was out in the open, she didn’t want to hide anymore.
“Actually, I’ve liked you for a long time!” Reina said seriously.
“Really?” Calysia asked, feigning sadness.
“That’s right, I just want to survive, and…”
“And?”
Reina’s face flushed crimson:
“And, I think you’re very pitiful, so pitiful, so I’m giving you some charity, with my power.”
“As for the wedding and clearing obstacles, and the dragon egg in my belly, they’re all accidents.”
It wasn’t what she wanted at all!
What kind of naive girl would be deceived into a relationship and then go home to have dragon eggs?
“After I lay the dragon egg, I’ll run away. Don’t chase me…”
Reina said, as if sulking.
“That’s not okay,” Calysia shook her head. “I have to chase you, even to the ends of the earth.”
“Why?”
“Because I still need a personal maid~”
“Dummy, you already know how to clean the room and cook. How could you possibly still need me? I’m just a useless blind person now.”
Reina said in self-deprecation.
These were all her true thoughts. Her main body still hadn’t cleaned the messy kitchen. Now she just wanted to sleep, sleep until the world ended.
Calysia was amused by Reina: “Why can’t it be that Reina needs me?”
“When the strong Reina, who wants to give me a good ending, is injured and uncomfortable, I will help you share your worries.”
“If you’re tired, I’ll help you clean, cook, solve your work problems, and take care of the children.”
“If you’re blind, then I’ll be your eyes.”
Calysia pinched her soft cheek again.
“So please don’t push me away, okay? Even if it’s just occasionally, please rely on me.”
Reina’s heart was about to melt.
She suddenly felt that she seemed to want love… not the passive love of being curled up, but the active love of wanting to understand the other person.
This love wasn’t pure, wasn’t deep, wasn’t conventional.
It was just love, a love that started from scratch, from a place of ignorance.
Although, they had already had a wedding…
She suddenly remembered what Little Cal had said to her, “Why not try falling in love with Calysia?”
…
For the rest of the time, the two remained silent, not communicating with each other, just quietly waiting for something.
Suddenly, Reina took Calysia’s other hand…
And said in a soft, whiny voice:
“Calysia, I like you.”
“…”
“Is this a formal confession?” Calysia asked playfully.
“No, I’m about to lay an egg,” Reina glared at her, hinting at her frivolity.
“Then is this a seduction?”
“No.”
“Is Reina going to give me 20 dragon eggs?”
“…”
“It’s up to you.”
Level 92
Awwww!! Yes! She finally admitted she has feelings!