Chapter 148: To Learn to Love Another, First Love Yourself

“Chengzi, I’m telling you, this won’t do. Why don’t you come play basketball with me to build up some stamina?”

Song Wanqing suggested enthusiastically from the side.

Seeing Lin Ruocheng’s bleary-eyed state, rubbing her waist with a pitiful look,

she knew this girl’s endurance wasn’t great.

Though she herself often did that kind of thing with Yu Qiuli, she never ended up like this.

Because she was on the school basketball team.

Her stamina and endurance were leagues ahead of Lin Ruocheng’s.

So she suggested that Lin Ruocheng join her in playing basketball to improve her physical fitness.

Lin Ruocheng gave an awkward laugh.

“Sports like that suit you better, not me. I just have low energy, and I’ve poured it all out on Fu Yanxi, so now I feel completely drained, nothing left, not a single drop. You should just go be all lovey-dovey with your girlfriend.”

Lin Ruocheng wailed, especially since this unfortunate college student still had to go to class.

She just needed to endure a little longer.

Things would get better once she reached junior year.

The new semester was about to start, and there were two and a half months left.

As she calculated, it was already May, which meant someone’s birthday was coming up soon.

Normally, her birthdays were pretty busy.

Because of the birthday livestream.

Of course, the faceless kind.

Thinking back to this time last year, she had been lurking in the other’s livestream, ogling her.

Less than half a year later, she was rolling around under her.

It was… pretty peculiar.

She probably counted as a prime example of successful fan-chasing.

Especially with the CV who had secretly loved her for seven years—if she told anyone, she’d be an instant life winner. This kind of thing wasn’t common. Honestly, even now, she didn’t know what about her had moved the other woman to love her so deeply for seven years?

She said it was her smile.

And the high-energy vibe she gave off.

Could it be that when she was young, she had endless vigor?

Now that she was older, she didn’t have much energy left.

“Right, you two aren’t planning to go public? You and Fu Yanxi?”

“Go public? Haven’t thought about it.”

How could she say it—Fu Yanxi was a Bilibili CV with twenty million listeners, known as the most authoritative voice.

Her rates started at less than two hundred yuan per word at minimum.

She had always been signed with Xu Qingzhou’s dubbing studio.

She was a leading figure in the dubbing world, the first to break out.

She conquered the world with her voice alone.

She never showed her face, and few people knew what Xiliu CV really looked like.

Lin Ruocheng didn’t even want to imagine what the reaction would be if they went public.

Would she lose fans because of her?

Besides, Bilibili CVs sometimes had to call fans “wife” or “baby” for promotion and business.

If she monopolized those terms,

wouldn’t it make Fu Yanxi uncomfortable?

She seemed to really love dubbing, and as her girlfriend, not fully supporting her would be one thing,

but dragging a big senior off her pedestal would make her a true sinner.

“Is it Fu Yanxi who doesn’t want to?”

“It’s me. Maybe I’m overthinking, but I can’t help it.”

“Do I seem a bit neurotic right now? I’m actually feeling a little anxious, wondering if dating her is right. There’s this slight sense of not deserving her. She seems better than me in every way, but me? Suddenly, I feel like I’m just her sidekick.”

Lin Ruocheng had started feeling this way lately, especially after seeing clips of Fu Yanxi’s dubbing edited by UP mains into their own works, with the comments full of praise and thirsty remarks.

Of course, she used to be one of them.

If she weren’t her girlfriend, she could’ve boldly posted in the comments, even gone overboard, no problem. But now as her girlfriend—especially one so excellent in every aspect—even if she was a bit better than some people,

it was only a little, nothing more.

Maybe it was because she used to flirt a lot when she was young.

And accidentally bent Fu Yanxi.

She wondered if their connection was meant to end there.

Not only did Fu Yanxi lack security, she lacked it even more.

“You’re just overthinking. Why worry so much? Just enjoy the present. Some people are just passersby in your life—don’t overdo the self-torment. Put your time and energy into yourself, develop yourself. Where’s the time for inner turmoil then?”

Song Wanqing scoffed.

She could sense Lin Ruocheng had been off lately.

Not physically,

but mentally.

Lin Ruocheng was actually suited for an earth-sign style of dating.

The two of them could busy themselves separately.

Chat after they were done.

Don’t take love too seriously; it’s just a spice in life.

You’re the main dish.

Love is optional—don’t become an appendage to the spice.

Of course, a healthy relationship could elevate you.

Make you fall in love with yourself.

To learn to love another, first love yourself.

But everyone’s personality was different; Lin Ruocheng just couldn’t stop thinking about it.

It was simple inner turmoil.

“Do you think maybe you two got together too fast, so now the anxiety’s kicking in?”

“Have we been together fast? How long did you two date before getting together?”

“Three days.”

“Weren’t you… how much?”

“Just three days. She liked me, I liked her, and with that big snowstorm, we got together that day.”

“When you like someone, you have to say it boldly. Hesitate too long, and the chance might be gone.”

“You said that before.”

Song Wanqing had taken those words to heart. Once she confirmed the other liked her too,

she confessed that day.

To boost her courage, she even drank some alcohol.

Silently singing Fish Leong’s Courage in her head several times.

“We couldn’t have been faster than you two, right?”

At least she and Fu Yanxi had dated for… less than half a month before getting together.

Young love should be passionate and bold.

She had nothing to lose anyway—what if it worked?

Success meant embracing the beauty; failure meant she could still be the lurker ogling her.

Of course, this only worked if the other was bent too.

If she was straight, you had to be cautious, super cautious.

Straight girls had no small appeal to lesbians.

Especially those without boundaries.

So lesbians had to be careful—straight girl traps were plentiful.

“We’re fine, right? We dated for a year before doing it, and you two have only been together a few months but ended up like this? Why not try my suggestion? Your Fu Yanxi might like it even more.”

Song Wanqing raised an eyebrow.

Lin Ruocheng glanced over.

The little people-machine was getting cheeky now—where was her old innocent bestie?