I’ll Butcher Pigs to Support You! 51p1

Chapter 51 p1

The young woman’s temper was big, and it was right for her to be angry. Although she didn’t push her away fiercely and scold her, her whole body was almost trembling with anger from her actions, and she didn’t talk to her.

Song Yugui thought she had coaxed her a little better and went to the front hall to boil some hot water to soak her wife’s feet. But when she came back, she saw her secretly crying.

Her large, doe-like eyes were red, and crystal clear tears fell one after another, making one’s heart ache to see.

Song Yugui’s heart also twitched.

It was a sour, bloated, and uncomfortable feeling.

She stood for a long while before she dared to walk over. She reached out her hand hesitantly and gently stroked Shen Xizhi’s head.

She only lifted her red-rimmed eyes to glance at her, then lowered her head again, crying very quietly.

“Don’t… don’t cry.”

She coaxed softly, her coaxing also a little stiff.

Shen Xizhi didn’t listen to her and sniffled softly.

She hadn’t wanted to cry, but once the tears started, it seemed she couldn’t stop them, falling and falling.

Seeing her wife just crying on her own, Song Yugui’s brow furrowed slightly. Her heart ached so much it was about to break. She first sat down beside her and patted her back clumsily to coax her, then knelt in front of her to wipe her tears and coax her.

“Don’t cry, ancestor, I’m begging you. I just said one wrong thing. How can it make you so angry?”

No more probing. I really, really don’t dare to probe anymore.

After a long, long time, the crying finally subsided a little. Shen Xizhi bit her tender lip to stop her crying, her lashes still wet with tears, looking extremely pitiful.

Song Yugui held Shen Xizhi’s face. Seeing her large eyes and small nose all red, she sighed and reached out to wipe her wet lashes. “Shall I get you a basin of water to wash your feet?”

Shen Xizhi looked at her. After a long time, she finally replied in a hoarse voice with a single word, “Alright.”

Song Yugui breathed a sigh of relief, stroked the tender back of the person in her arms, and got up to get her some water.

When she returned, Shen Xizhi was still in the same position as when she had left, not moving, but at least she wasn’t crying anymore.

As long as she’s not crying, it’s fine.

Song Yugui breathed a sigh of relief for no reason and placed the steaming basin of water in front of her. Seeing her still in a daze, she simply took off her shoes and socks for her.

A cold gaze fell on her head. She had made her cry like this, and she was too embarrassed to look up.

“Uh… do you want me to help you wash?”

Her pale, jade-like feet were immersed in the warm water but didn’t move. She couldn’t help but ask.

Only then did that foot move a little, slowly stacking the two feet together and rubbing them.

So white.

These two words were all that were in Song Yugui’s mind.

After a long while, the cold voice in front of her sounded again. “Aren’t you going to wash?”

Song Yugui was stunned, then quickly nodded. “I’ll wash, I’ll wash.”

Usually, they each washed their own, but today she had made her angry. If she had just vented and been fierce with her, it would have been one thing, but she had cried so quietly. Song Yugui’s heart was very uncomfortable, and she felt extremely sorry for her, so of course she would listen to whatever she said.

In the end, two pairs of white feet were soaked in the hot water together.

The basin was not big, and their feet would inevitably touch. The other’s neatly trimmed toes gently touched her foot. Song Yugui was exceptionally embarrassed and moved her foot, wanting to retreat in her heart, but also afraid that Shen Xizhi would be even angrier.

She didn’t want to see Xizhi cry again.

After a long hesitation, she still didn’t retreat. Instead, she lifted her foot and pressed it on the two slender, jade-like feet.

She pressed down and rubbed them, then quietly looked up. Shen Xizhi’s expression was indeed much better.

She seemed to know how to coax her now, but her heart was still uneasy.

Ah, it has to be like this? How can it be like this? Didn’t we agree to give her her freedom, to give her a lot of money and then divorce? How…

Song Yugui lowered her head, hiding the conflict in her eyes, and slowly rubbed her wife’s feet.

That foot was a size smaller than hers. Perhaps because it rarely saw the sun, it was both white and tender, and it felt slippery to step on.

Because of this intimate gesture, Shen Xizhi’s expression improved a little.

Although her heart had been unintentionally broken.

She lowered her beautiful eyes. After washing her feet, she let Song Yugui wipe them with a cloth, then lay down on the bed quietly.

By the time Song Yugui had poured out the water and given the chicken an extra meal, her wife had already stripped naked and was lying down.

Her footsteps paused. In the past, she had been used to Xizhi sleeping without clothes and hadn’t thought much of it. But now… she felt it was a little too exposed.

Song Yugui cautiously climbed onto the bed. The moment she lay down, her wife’s cold eyes looked over.

She was silent for a long moment, then inched over, holding Shen Xizhi in her arms as usual, holding her tightly.

Shen Xizhi didn’t resist, but she also didn’t reach out to hold her. It was different.

“It’s easy to catch a cold sleeping without clothes. You… do you want to wear clothes to sleep in the future?”

Perhaps because the competition in her mind was too fierce and her thoughts were too chaotic, Song Yugui actually said what she was thinking.

She still needed a little time to think. She always felt that… it would be better if Xizhi wore clothes.

However, the person in her arms didn’t think so. She looked up at her in disbelief, her pearly white teeth biting her lip until it bled, then suddenly retreated from her embrace.

Bastard! She’s already made a decision. She doesn’t want me! Bastard! Since you don’t want me, why did you come and provoke me?

The young woman’s sad tears were simply uncontrollable, flowing down in a torrent, soon soaking the pillow.

Song Yugui’s mind went blank. By the time she came to her senses and realized what she had said, she really wanted to slap herself into the ground.

She had just managed to coax her, and now she was not good again.

Song Yugui was so angry her fingers trembled as she reached forward, cautiously taking back what she had just said. “It’s alright if you don’t want to wear them. I’ll hold you. That way, it will be warmer and you won’t catch a cold.”

Shen Xizhi avoided her fingers and silently turned her back to her.

Her beautiful butterfly bones were clearly revealed before her.

But the bed was only so big. No matter how she hid, where could she hide?

Song Yugui went closer, inch by inch, and held her supple waist, pulling her into her arms. And she… was powerless to resist.

Shen Xizhi was even angrier. You’re the one who doesn’t want me, and you’re the one who keeps provoking me. What on earth do you want!

Song Yugui sensed the woman’s body trembling slightly and guessed that she was crying again. Her heart was filled with deep regret. “I said the wrong thing. Don’t take it to heart. I… I was just talking nonsense.”

She finally realized that Shen Xizhi was beyond all her expectations.

The moment she cried, all her well-laid plans would be overturned, unless she could find an outcome that wouldn’t make her cry…

Song Yugui sighed helplessly and silently held the person in her arms tighter.

Even though she was being held again, even though she had taken back her words, the sadness in Shen Xizhi’s heart did not dissipate in the slightest.

She had never been so clearly aware of it before. My wife doesn’t like me. She married me, perhaps, as others have said, just to spite Miss Song. She may not really like Miss Song now, but in the past, she was at least sincere to Miss Song. And I… I have never touched a single bit of her true feelings.

Shen Xizhi was in great pain. The hand on her abdomen was warm. She couldn’t help but curse in her heart, If you don’t like me, why are you always so close to me? If it weren’t for you, how could I have become like this? You seduced me, and now you want to cast me aside. Don’t even think about it!

One hand slowly touched her fingertips, and finally, it slowly covered her hand.

Song Yugui, being so close to her wife, breathed a sigh of relief and silently held her small, tender hand in return, rubbing it in her palm.

Perhaps because she was angry, Shen Xizhi’s whole body was limp.

“Don’t be sad. My mind wasn’t normal today. Just pretend my brain isn’t working, okay? Let me think for a day, just let me think for one more day.”

One more day, and she would definitely be able to think clearly.

In a place where she couldn’t see, Shen Xizhi’s gaze was cold. Hah, if you don’t like me, you don’t like me. But… don’t even think about throwing me away if you don’t like me.

She didn’t speak again, so quiet it was as if she had already fallen asleep. But Song Yugui could tell from her occasional heavy breathing that she wasn’t asleep, not at all.

She was so guilty. She could only hold her hand and her waist, patting her reassuringly.

Shen Xizhi lowered her eyes and looked at the hand on her waist, thinking, You see, this is how she seduced me. Now she’s getting close to me again, as if she likes my appearance very much. If it weren’t for this, how could I have so quickly… become so inseparable from her…

A dreamless night, the two of them with their own thoughts.

By the time Shen Xizhi was finally about to fall asleep in a daze, the rustling sound of someone getting up came from her ear.

It was time to slaughter and sell the pig.

Song Yugui had been thinking about yesterday’s events all along and hadn’t slept well herself. When she got up, she felt both sleepy and had a headache.

She really couldn’t stand it.

But both of the two ideas in her heart required a lot of money. Skipping work was definitely not an option.

She still had to continue to earn money.

As she was slaughtering the pig, she was thinking, Is Xizhi serious, or is it because she has no one to rely on that she has developed such feelings?

When she was selling the pig, she was thinking again, Should I still get a divorce… If we divorce, she would definitely not be willing to take too little money. The thought of Xizhi living a hard life made her heart ache. If they didn’t divorce… then she wouldn’t raise her to the current standard, treating her like her own wife. She would definitely have to have the best of everything.

Song Yugui sighed deeply. She really didn’t know what to do.

“Boss, two catties of plum blossom meat!”

Just as she was lost in thought, a clear woman’s voice came from in front of her.

Song Yugui replied subconsciously and was about to pick up her knife to cut the meat when she suddenly felt something was wrong. She looked up, and sure enough, it was Chi Xiangyue standing in front of her with her arms crossed.

Song Yugui: Rubbing her forehead with a headache.

“Why are you here?”

“Hmph, I’m here to buy pastries from Baoyue Pavilion. Do you want me to buy some for you too?”

Song Yugui shook her head, swiftly cut two catties of plum blossom meat and threw it over, saying, “Seventy wen.”

Chi Xiangyue casually took out a money pouch and threw it over. “How could I give you less money? Aiya, what happened yesterday? Did you and Xizhi make up?”

Song Yugui’s long lashes lowered slightly. She lowered her head to count the copper coins, feeling that she was bringing up a sore subject.

After a long moment, she shook her head. “You can go and keep her company when you get back today. But if she doesn’t want to talk, then don’t bother her.”

“Tsk, tsk, is Xizhi’s temper that big? But you’re also to blame. How can you say that? I heard from the villagers that you’ve been married for two years, and you still talk about friends. If it were me, I’d be angry too.”

Song Yugui had a headache. The female lead didn’t know she was probing yesterday, which was why she could say that. But she also regretted her probing.

What was there to probe? Just live life as it comes. I really was looking for trouble.

“Mmm, it’s my fault. You can help me coax her. Tell her I’ll bring her a sugar painting when I get back tonight.”

“Tsk, tsk, you think a little sugar painting can buy Xizhi?”

“Anyway, just tell her that.”

“Alright, alright. I was also planning to go to your house for dinner. I wouldn’t dare to go if you two are arguing.”

After they had talked for a while, Chi Xiangyue went to buy pastries. After a while, she came back with a bag of pastries and said goodbye to her before she went home.

Song Yugui thought blankly, If I really leave Shen Xizhi and we’re just friends, will I be at ease?

The hand holding the butcher’s knife tightened.

No, of course not.

The thought of being separated from Xizhi, of no longer being intimate, of only being able to see her occasionally, and even worse, of Xizhi perhaps falling for someone else. I can’t bear to see Xizhi live a hard life. Even if we divorce, I’ll still work hard to earn money to support her. With Xizhi’s personality, if she falls for someone, she’ll definitely give her all. Then wouldn’t that bastard be using my money to support someone else?

Just thinking about this scene was enough to make her explode with anger.

Song Yugui’s face turned cold, which scared away several customers who were about to buy meat. After a long while, she managed to calm down a little.

So that’s how it is. Although I’m not ready to be with Xizhi, I’m absolutely unwilling to let her go, to truly let her leave my side. So what’s the answer? Isn’t it obvious?

Someone came to buy ribs. Song Yugui pressed her lips together and cut a rib for them, becoming even more certain. She didn’t want to see Shen Xizhi get involved with anyone else, whether it was Song Xingchuan or any other man or woman.

No, none of them.

She can only be with me. She can’t have a love line with anyone other than me!

She sold the meat until noon, then she couldn’t sell anymore. If it wasn’t sold, it wasn’t sold. There were some things she was eager to tell Xizhi.

She quickly packed up her stall, went to the opposite side to buy a sugar painting that looked like her, carefully wrapped it in oiled paper, then went to the clothing store she had been to before and bought another set of clothes. This time, it was according to her own preference, a pure white silk skirt. Then she went to the jewelry store next door and bought several pieces of jewelry, big and small, spending a lot of money. She packed them all in a bundle, planning to go home and coax her wife.

There were a lot of things, and they were quite heavy in the bundle.

Finally, she pushed her meat-pulling cart and hurried back to the countryside.

Usually, if she hadn’t finished selling the meat at this time, she would have eaten in town first. But today, she was in a hurry to coax her wife and wasn’t that hungry. She was eager to get home.

On her way back to the village, she greeted the villagers and, from a long way off, saw someone standing in the middle of the path.

It was Song Xinyu. She seemed to like to look at the scenery here recently. She would run into her every day on her way home.

“Song Yugui.”

Just as she was about to ignore her and walk away, she was called out to.

She had no choice but to be polite and stop.

“Miss Song.”

Song Xinyu looked over with a complicated smile. She couldn’t describe what kind of feeling it was.

It made one feel… a little strange, as if she were reminiscing about something.

“You’re calling me that now?” she said.

Song Yugui felt uncomfortable all over. She thought, What else can I call her?

“Of course. We… women should keep their distance.”

I’m a lesbian. Of course I have to keep a certain distance from other women. Otherwise, how can I make my wife feel at ease?

Song Xinyu thought to herself, She knows now that women should keep their distance. She was the one who harassed all the women in the village before. Who would have thought she would have a sudden epiphany?

“My family has arranged a marriage for me,” she said suddenly.

Song Yugui was stunned. She thought, What does that have to do with me? But on the surface, she said, “Then congratulations. Which family is it?”

“It’s the butcher from the village next door.”

Song Yugui: …

Why am I so attached to butchers in this life?

“Oh, then… that’s also very good.”

But Song Xinyu didn’t think it was very good. They were both butchers. She had seen the one from next door, and he was…

Indescribable.

Although he had some money, he was stingy and not as generous as Song Yugui.

She still remembered the day they had met for the first time, arranged by their elders. The other had refused to accompany her to town and had invited her to walk along the fields three, four, five, six, seven, eight times.

Not as good as Song Yugui.

She only had this one thought in her mind. Not as good as Song Yugui at all.

This place was also a coincidence, right opposite the house on the small earthen slope.

Shen Xizhi was physically and mentally exhausted. She had just come out of the house to feed the chicken when she was still in a daze. But when she looked up, she saw her own wife, in the fields, having a good chat with another woman.

She even handed her an oil-paper bag.

She knew at a glance what was inside.

Chi Xiangyue had told her today that Yugui-jiejie would bring her a sugar painting when she came back. But now the sugar painting was in someone else’s hands.

She had given the thing she had bought for me to someone else, and it was even someone she had once loved.

Shen Xizhi took a deep breath and clenched her hands tightly, her nails almost breaking the skin of her palm, her slender figure swaying on the verge of collapse.

Her heart was torn open, and she couldn’t help but suspect, Has she had a change of heart again? Was it all a lie when she said she didn’t like her?

No, I absolutely will not agree.

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