Overly Intense [Criminal Investigation] 159

Chapter 159: Qin Luo, Come Here, I Have Something to Say

Shen Yiyi was stunned. She couldn’t understand the meaning between Qin Luo’s lines.

Qin Luo also noticed the surprise in her expression. “I was too greedy.”

She was greedy for a love without any scruples, hoping that Shen Yiyi could trust her with all her heart and would not leave, that she could act coquettishly and be angry with her, that she could not hide her greed, and could even go crazy at will. If there was an option that could bind the two of them tightly, to be parasitic to each other, Qin Luo would definitely choose it without hesitation.

But Shen Yiyi always acted very rationally.

“I hope you don’t just love me in the literal sense.” Qin Luo suppressed the itch in her throat and insisted on finishing her words. Even though her volume was very low, you could still hear the seriousness in her tone. “I want you to trust me one hundred percent.”

There would be no suspicion, no room for maneuver.

“Instead of leaving a gap between us, thinking that as long as we turn our backs on each other, we can pull away after a while.”

Qin Luo was still resentful of her not looking back that time. It was just that Shen Yiyi’s safe return had suppressed her fear and had made her ignore these anxieties during their passionate love period.

Shen Yiyi wiped her hands, her arms hanging by her legs. The two looked at each other quietly.

“I admit that I was indeed unbalanced for a period of time.” Qin Luo looked down. She had locked the precious person in her sight and wanted to look at her like this every day, even if time would make her face grow old. “You’re right. I was indeed unwilling to accept the missed opportunity and wanted to get back together with you to make up for the regret. But now I want more…”

She was unwilling to just be a narrator of the story, like a punctuation mark, automatically stopping when the meaning of the sentence was completed.

Qin Luo asked, “Is it that I haven’t given you enough trust?”

Shen Yiyi could hear the anxiety in her gentle voice and reached out to comfort her on her arm. “No.”

“Are you afraid that I’ll stop your work because of my personal safety?” Qin Luo paused and gently held Shen Yiyi’s wrist. “Are you afraid that I’ll ask you every day and restrict your freedom? So you always keep a distance from me when you’re outside, and you never allow me to mention our relationship at the company, and… that day, you didn’t even look back at me no matter how I called you.”

Shen Yiyi was at a loss for words and couldn’t explain. But she knew that at this moment, Qin Luo’s emotions were in a downward spiral.

But she was also blocked in her heart. It was her personality to be slow to warm up to people, and it was her upbringing to maintain a sense of propriety with Qin Luo. How could she be so easily pierced in her heart by Qin Luo’s pitiful and disappointed look?

She couldn’t help but hug Qin Luo’s waist. Although her hands were wet from just washing the dishes, she said, “Don’t be angry.”

“I’m not angry.”

Qin Luo did not hug her back and instead supported herself on the island counter to maintain her balance. “I just hate this distance.”

She hated the thin film that was between their outlines.

“You have to give me some time to get used to it.” Shen Yiyi felt wronged by this, and the hand that was holding her was trembling slightly. “I’ve been trying my best to get used to a life with you.”

Even her mysophobia had made many compromises for Qin Luo.

The shell that had been closed for more than a decade had been shattered. She really couldn’t become so passionate all at once. She was not good at responding to the daily intimacy, but she was not a cold and unfeeling person either. It was just that she was not yet used to relying on and sharing, not used to enthusiastically responding to the person who was waiting for her to come home after work.

Seeing her head buried deep, as if she were extremely wronged, she didn’t want Shen’s dad to see her crying when he came home. She finally reached out and held Shen Yiyi. “Let’s go to the room and talk. Dad will be worried when he comes back and sees us.”

“What are you afraid of him for?”

Shen Yiyi stubbornly refused to leave. “If you have any dissatisfaction, just say it all.”

“This is not dissatisfaction.” Qin Luo corrected her wording.

Shen Yiyi also cooperated and changed her words. “Then what else are you sad about?”

Actually, Qin Luo’s emotions had already recovered. And when she was being held tightly by her girlfriend and was asked where she was sad, her emotions had clearly already developed upwards.

She raised her hand, her fingertips on her warm cheek. “Does not being willing to expose your vulnerability count?”

Ever since she had known about Shen Yiyi’s mother’s case, Qin Luo had never dared to ask much. But the more she didn’t ask, the more Shen Yiyi would not take the initiative to mention it, and would even deliberately avoid it. Even that shadow, Shen Yiyi would always be vague about.

Qin Luo rarely heard Shen Yiyi complain about being tired from work, even if she had worked overtime until the early morning and had come home, even if she had to go back to her post with just one phone call, even if she had a cold and unhappy face, Shen Yiyi had rarely told her the reason for her bad mood.

Qin Luo said softly, “I also want to bear some of your negative energy.”

“How can negative energy be so easy to bear?” Shen Yiyi thought of her father’s words tonight. Didn’t he say that people in a passionate love all long for positive energy? She didn’t understand why Qin Luo had this strange preference…

At this thought, Shen Yiyi said with annoyance, “Besides, my personality is like this. It’s not like you don’t know. You want the horse to run, but you don’t want the horse to eat grass.”

Qin Luo corrected her again. “This example is a little off.”

“Where is it off?” Shen Yiyi pushed her away. “If you’re satisfied with me venting my emotions to you every day, what if you get tired of it after a long time?”

…

Qin Luo still didn’t know what the future would be like, but she was still willing to guarantee, “I won’t get tired of it.”

Shen Yiyi said, “Anyway, a person in a passionate period can say anything.”

“Look.” Qin Luo was anxious. She squeezed her waist hard. “You clearly don’t believe that I can be patient with you for a long time. What? Do you think I’m the kind of person who is fickle?”

Shen Yiyi was in pain from the pinch and pushed her away. “How do I know if you are or not? Didn’t you just have a falling out with me and then… mmmph…”

Qin Luo lowered her head in shame and kissed her lips. “Can you stop talking about her?”

The kiss was anxious. Qin Luo found that she had been led into a trap by the other. If she didn’t stop now, there might be a normal situation. She didn’t want this little bit of disappointment to turn into a big fire. She hated having a disagreement with Shen Yiyi. Qin Luo held her face with one hand and held her waist tightly with the other, her strength almost pushing Shen Yiyi onto the dining table.

But just as they had kissed, Shen Yiyi had turned her head to avoid it.

She had even wiped the traces from the corner of her lips with her hand. “Didn’t you do it yourself? Why are you so domineering? You can only talk about your own sad things, and you won’t let others talk?”

Qin Luo saw that the corners of Shen Yiyi’s eyes were also red. She couldn’t refute and so she apologized.

“It was indeed my fault.”

To the her who had lost Shen Yiyi at that time, her heart was empty. She just felt that she had been broken in two, half for her future, and half left in the past. But she could never piece together the self she wanted. Whether it was a writer, a screenwriter, an entrepreneur, or a philanthropist, none of these identities could give her a sense of security. She was always worried that she would be deformed, that she would deteriorate.

Only Shen Yiyi.

Shen Yiyi would always make her think of the Mid-Autumn Festival, of the mooncake that had been broken into three pieces.

Even though she knew that she was doing it to satisfy the vanity left by her regret, she could still feel a sense of warmth and security on her after peeling off countless layers of outer clothing.

Qin Luo touched Shen Yiyi’s hair and looked into her eyes.

“At that time, I felt that if life was not spent with you, then anyone would be the same.”

When you love someone, the order of the world will automatically be reorganized.

Without Shen Yiyi, life would be like a pool of muddy water that could not be dissolved. It would still be turbid. She could still wade through it, independently moving forward, but she could see a terrifying loneliness. In the orbit of fate, Shen Yiyi’s existence had become the “inevitable in the accidental” that gave meaning. Instead of saying that she had chosen love, it was better to say that in the decision of love, she had chosen to bear that specific life path.

She did not want it to be someone else.

“I’m sorry.”

Qin Luo held Shen Yiyi tightly, pressing her face against her heart, wanting her to hear her sincere heartbeat.

The shadows of the buildings on the other side of the river had mostly been extinguished, but the planes overhead had not stopped flying because of the Spring Festival. Ever since she had gone to college, the two of them had seemed to have a resistance to the Spring Festival. Qin Luo was unwilling to go home to face the many family matters, while Shen Yiyi was tired of the happy reunion of the whole family.

“We can be together this year.” Qin Luo paused. “We’ve spent Christmas, New Year’s Day, and even the Spring Festival together. It’s like…”

Qin Luo just felt that the festivals of the past were empty, flowing aimlessly, like a door that was repeatedly opened and closed. People would come and go, and would flash by with the wind, leaving no trace.

She slowly lowered her head and rested it on Shen Yiyi’s shoulder. “A small knot has been tied in my life, a reminder that a new life is about to begin, full of fun and motivation.”

A thread, a knot was tied between the two names. She had the weight to resist the wind and waves, and also the wrinkles that she could recognize when she looked back. This knot had firmly caught her.

Shen Yiyi also softened her body and looked at the sparkling river outside the window. She suddenly remembered that when she was a child, Shen’s father had taught her how to tie a knot and had said, “A good knot is not how complicated it is, but that it gets tighter the more you pull it, but it gets more and more stable.”

Shen Yiyi leaned back and said softly, “After the New Year, can I take you to see my mom?”

“Are you going back to Fengjiang on the third day of the New Year?”

“Let’s go and see your mom first, and then my mom. I heard from my dad that your mom has a lot of complaints about you not coming home. You should remember to call her and ask her loudly.” Shen Yiyi said with concern, “The last time the news was a big deal, your mom called me one after another. Every time, I had to be perfunctory for you.”

The two were whispering. She didn’t know when Shen’s father had come back.

Shen’s father was watching the two of them hugging by the island counter from a distance. His own daughter was holding Qin Luo’s waist tightly with both hands, just like when she was a child and was afraid of a dog pouncing on her and had hidden in his arms.

…

He shouldn’t have let Qin Luo tell him the password.
…
Why couldn’t he have just looked at the Bund for a little longer?
…
What was this unhappy feeling?

“Cough cough cough cough cough cough cough.”

Shen’s father’s cough was even louder than Qin Luo’s. The sudden sound had scared the little couple. Shen Yiyi had pushed Qin Luo away with a start and had almost broken her waist.

Shen Yiyi was not embarrassed at all and instead questioned her father, “How did you get in?”

With that, she also looked at Qin Luo. “Did you tell him the password?”

“Ah.” Qin Luo looked at her uncle innocently. “Isn’t that what I should do?”

After she had said it openly, she had also secretly explained to Shen Yiyi, “I had a meeting in the afternoon, and Uncle had to go out to buy groceries. I was afraid he wouldn’t be able to get in, so I told him.”

Uncle Shen had his hands behind his back and glared at Shen Yiyi, then he waved at Qin Luo.

“You come with me. I have something to say to you.”