Chapter 451: A Person I Can’t Understand
She was tired and wanted to find something else to amuse herself. When she heard that Yu Xiayue was here, she wanted to come and find her. There was no other special reason, just that she felt lonely, tired, and wanted some comfort.
Although doing so was not very good for Zhiyun, she had a thought deep in her heart. Since Ye Zhiyun could be ambiguous with other women outside, why couldn’t she? And she was also a woman. What was wrong with her going out to play with a girl? She was not a bad woman who was looking for a man outside.
Perhaps she needed a period of time to properly calm down, and at the same time, to find the long-lost happiness for herself.
Dating is a very hard thing, especially when you argue. That is the most frustrating time. People who have been in a relationship have more or less had this feeling. They don’t know why they argued, nor do they know why they just can’t understand each other. In the end, because of their own stubbornness and hard temper, they can no longer salvage the past.
…
Yu Linna saw An Xiayue again. She waved at her from a long distance away. She still had the same style as before, sunglasses and a mask. Being a star was not an easy thing to do. This point, Yu Linna was also very clear about.
“Hello, long time no see, Nana. Happy New Year~”
“Happy New Year, Sister Yue.”
When she saw Yu Xiayue, her expression softened a lot, and she gently gave her a hug. The bad mood of these few days also dissipated. She felt that at this moment, it was still quite good.
Yu Xiayue herself was also quite happy. To be able to see Yu Linna again, she was very happy. Originally, she had also wanted to pull her to her home in Beijing for the New Year, but who would have thought that Yu Linna was going to her girlfriend’s house and couldn’t go to her house? This was also a regret.
“During the New Year, I went to visit relatives with my parents. Although our family lives in California, we still have relatives in the country. My grandparents are also used to living in the country. They are all very good people. If you can go and see them once, they will definitely like you.”
“Mmm, I think there will be a chance.”
“Also, my mother is very satisfied with me. I am the box office champion of this year’s Spring Festival. Maybe I will become this year’s annual box office champion female lead!”
“Congratulations in advance.”
Yu Linna said with a smile.
Indeed, the name An Xiayue was very popular recently. Because of the explosive box office of the movie, An Xiayue’s cumulative box office in the Spring Festival had already exceeded thirty-nine billion. She had officially become the domestic box office champion, and the record was still constantly being refreshed. And looking at this year’s Spring Festival’s number one seed, Soaring, its current cumulative box office was only twenty-four billion, and its daily box office was gradually decreasing. In the end, it was very difficult to reach thirty billion.
An Xiayue was the biggest winner of this Spring Festival, and was also the only mixed-race female star to become the Spring Festival box office champion female lead in recent years.
Although she was a Chinese-American, and her appearance was also more inclined towards an American, she still had Chinese characteristics on her body. This point made her fans quite gratified. And she was still young, with plenty of opportunities in the future. Many people predicted that she would return to Hollywood in the future.
“What’s wrong, Nana? You don’t look very happy?”
“No. How could that be? Sister Yue, let’s go somewhere to play. I’ve specially taken a week’s leave. I want to play with you.”
“It’s fine, it’s fine. But is school okay? It’s not good to keep asking for leave.”
“It’s fine. Anyway, I know everything the school teaches. It’s fine as long as I get first place in the exams.”
“Hahaha, your courage as a top student is really amazing.”
Yu Xiayue laughed very happily. Actually, when she was a student, her studies were also quite good. When she was in the drama academy, her professional grades were the first, and when she graduated, she had also walked out as the top scorer. It was just that she had not done well in Hollywood and had not gotten a good role. In Hollywood, no matter how good her background was, in the end, she still had to speak with her strength. If she didn’t have a noteworthy work, she would be abandoned by the film company. She had already learned this point.
When she saw a sense of composure belonging to a top student on Yu Linna’s body, she felt very nostalgic, as if she had seen her own student days.
“Nana, you’re actually quite suitable to be an actress.”
“Thanks. But my acting is not good, very bad. I was one for a period of time before and found that it was not suitable for me, so I gave up.”
“That’s because you didn’t find the right way. Acting still requires skills. You just watched others act on TV and copied them. How could you possibly act it out?”
“So I became a novelist.”
Yu Linna thought of the days when she had been an actress two years ago. Although that was a very hard and also a very bitter past, looking back now, she was quite nostalgic. At that time, she was very naive and did not have so many thoughts. Every day, she was just thinking, “Can I improve my acting skills? Can I eat my fill? Can I get through tonight?” At that time, she was very naive. And now, the things she thought about were much more complicated.
As the saying goes, when you are well-fed and clothed, you think of lewd desires. Without the worries of food and clothing, she was now more troubled by love, and also by desire.
“Nana?”
“Mmm?”
“If you have something on your mind, you can tell your big sister. Your big sister will help you~”
Yu Xiayue showed a brilliant smile and said to her with a smile.
Those bright blue big eyes were very beautiful, as if they were sucking people in. Yu Linna felt that they were very beautiful, and also a little familiar. She didn’t know why, but she couldn’t reject the other party. She also didn’t know where this feeling came from, but she subconsciously wanted to be a little closer to her.
Yu Linna knew that this was definitely not the simple feeling of love like with Ye Zhiyun, but a kind of, a more wonderful thing.
“Sister Yue.”
“I’m here.”
“Hold my hand.”
“Okay.”
Yu Xiayue smiled. She had not expected this person to actually take the initiative to act spoiled with her, and she was also quite cute. But no matter what the other party requested, she did not feel it was excessive. If it were her, Yu Xiayue felt that she could help her realize anything.
After that, the two of them spent a wonderful time in this city. At that time, Yu Linna had also suggested going to Hong Kong by the way. Anyway, it was close, and Yu Xiayue had readily agreed. The two of them were in Shenzhen, so it was very fast to go to Hong Kong. It didn’t take too long, and Yu Xiayue also wanted to go for a walk in this place.
The two of them were playing outside and were unintentionally photographed by a reporter and posted in the entertainment news. Originally, Yu Xiayue had been very popular recently, and it was easy for her to be photographed outside. And Yu Linna was also the same. She herself was a big celebrity. It was impossible for her not to be discovered when she was with Yu Xiayue. The two of them were honored to be on the hot search.
When Ye Zhiyun went online, she immediately saw the news of the two of them. Although the reporters just said that the two of them had a very good relationship and were shopping together outside, and the way they were holding hands was very picturesque, when Ye Zhiyun saw the photo on the headline, she still felt a surge of anger.
What does this Yu Linna mean! Why is she holding hands with this An Xiayue, and even smiling so happily with her? What does she mean!
She was very angry. The powder keg exploded directly.
She made a phone call to question the other party.
“Yu Linna, what do you mean? You’d better give me a reasonable explanation today!!!”
Ye Zhiyun’s angry voice could be clearly heard on the other end of the phone. At that time, Yu Linna was in the hotel, and she was alone in the room. When she heard the other party’s voice, she also knew what had happened, but at this moment, she did not want to make any excuses.
“I’m out playing with my best friend. Is there a problem? We’re not in that kind of relationship.”
Her answer was very cold.
But it was precisely this attitude that made Ye Zhiyun even angrier.
“What do you mean, no relationship! You’re so intimate with her, and you still say there’s no relationship! You tell me, you go out, but why don’t you tell me? And you even ran to such a distant place! Do you treat me as if I don’t exist in your eyes!”
Her voice was so angry, so loud that even the staff outside the office were scared when they heard it. They were wondering what their Director Ye had done to be so angry.
“Zhiyun, do you even have me in your eyes?”
“What are you trying to say?”
“Aren’t you also talking about work with many women outside, socializing, being in the news, and even being photographed drinking together? I ask you, for these things, have I ever settled accounts with you?”
“…”
“Why is it that you’re the only one who’s always angry with me? And what about me? Besides that time at the beginning, when have I ever called you to lose my temper? I actually know all about it. You and Han Ying were drinking in a bar in the middle of the night. You and Zhu Yiqian were serving each other food at the dinner table, I also know. You and Zhou Shilan were hugging on stage, I also know, so intimately…”
As she spoke, Yu Linna smiled, but it was definitely not a happy smile.
It was more like a kind of bone-chillingly cold smile.
“I ask you, did I question you? Did I get angry with you?”
Ye Zhiyun’s face was pale. She leaned against the wall, so angry that she had no strength left in her body.
She had never expected the other party to say this.
“So you’re saying, you don’t care about me at all, right?”
“You’re a bit strange. You were the one who told me not to talk so much about these things, and you were also the one who told me not to harass you with these trivial matters. You’re very busy, you have no time, you don’t even have time to be with me. You told me not to disturb you. I’ve done it all. After dating for so long, haven’t I always been listening to you? I’ve been accommodating you all along, Zhiyun. When have you ever considered my feelings? You keep saying you love me, that you want to give me a better life. So, do you have me in your heart?”
“Hehehe…”
Ye Zhiyun leaned against the wall, laughing wildly.
“Then what about you? When have you ever said you liked me? Whether it was when you confessed, or when we were dating, I’ve never heard you say you liked me, that you loved me. Such simple three words, you’ve never been willing to say them to me. I’m even starting to suspect that it was me who forced you, who doesn’t like me, to date me. It was me who was forcing you…”
The two people were in different cities, in different places, with different feelings on the phone. But the only thing they had in common was that at this moment, they both felt the sound of their hearts breaking.
The mistrust and misunderstanding of a lover, in the end, created a huge rift.
Ye Zhiyun cried, and Yu Linna also cried.
“You say I don’t like you? If I really didn’t like you, why would I agree to date you? If I didn’t like you, would I have to go to your house for the New Year with you? If I didn’t like you, why would I be with you? Do you know? The words you’re saying now don’t sound like what a person should say at all…”
Yu Linna was crying, her tears falling one by one, and she couldn’t wipe them clean. No matter how much she cried, it couldn’t compare to the pain in her heart.
“Then why didn’t you say it? Why did you have to hurt me like this? I want to be with you so much, and you’re never willing to understand me. You never put me in your heart. Do you know? I’m so tired. I want to rest, but thinking of you, I have to grit my teeth and finish my work. Can’t you just understand me a little? My company is on the verge of bankruptcy now. I’m short of money. I’m under a lot of pressure. I’m so afraid that I’ll have nothing left, so I’m working so hard. I’m doing all this for you. And you? Why won’t you understand me? I’m also very tired. I want to hear you say, ‘You’ve worked hard’…”
Ye Zhiyun was crying against the wall, crying and talking at the same time. She was a very competitive person, with strong self-esteem, but at this moment, she was crying like a child. No matter how strong she was, no matter how amazing she was, she was still a twenty-one-year-old girl. It was impossible for her to be calm.
“And you’re still talking about me. You’re just talking about me. When we were together, you said you would give me the best things, that you would take me to every corner of the world, and you also said you would dote on me. But you didn’t. You scolded me, you didn’t understand me, you even blamed me. You weren’t even willing to comfort me. You say I don’t understand you, then you tell me, when have you ever understood me? I also want you to be by my side, to hug me. I don’t need you to give me anything. I just want to hear your voice, even if it’s just a simple ‘I love you.’ Have you done it…”
Between lovers, what is left?
What else can love give to the other party? What else can love do?
“You say…”
“You say…”
Love has never been a one-person affair.
Love is not a selfish thing.
What can love do for them? What can it let them see? Perhaps, no one knows.
“On what grounds should I understand you…”
“On what grounds should I accommodate you…”
Winter has already passed, and spring will be coming soon. But when will it arrive?
