Chapter 11: Fire
He was thrown hard onto the bed. The mattress on the bed cushioned the great impact. The soft bedding was dented into a slender and thin human shape, and the wet and undried body soaked a large patch of the fabric.
He was as if he had fallen into a muddy swamp. The soft touch enveloped his entire body’s senses. He couldn’t break free and fell into a dim yellow desire.
The fire in his heart was burning hot. The few sparks instantly turned into a raging fire. He stumbled and fell into a sea of fire, and in an instant, he was turned into ashes. But his consciousness still remained, and he could only suffer the torment of his desire that could not be vented.
He was as if he had returned to that scorching summer. The steaming summer heat was like a flame, and the air was burned and distorted. He couldn’t see clearly, and it was blurry, as if it were separated by a thick fog.
The trees next to the teaching building grew wildly after summer began. The cicadas on the branches were chirping arrogantly, and his mind was distracted.
His mind was full of crazy and absurd scenes. The cold and hazy moonlight was divided into small pieces through the thin gauze window. The dim yellow light in the bathroom was mixed with the steaming and ambiguous water vapor. The blue and white dotted skirt of the girl in the noisy crowd at the school gate was lifted by the dry wind…
Zhiyan, this name… he suddenly felt inexplicably familiar, as if he had heard it somewhere.
The hot summer wind lifted the crisp and soft will ows by the river, brushing against his sensitive skin, bringing countless faint temptations.
The girl was caressing his body, her hot and soft fingertips rubbing against his moist skin, searching for an exit along the indentation of his spine, but she accidentally bumped into the weakness he had been trying so hard to hide.
Su Yu couldn’t help but let out a gasp. He looked up and glared at the girl with his bloodshot eyes, his voice hoarse and low, filled with a deep restraint. His limbs were weak, but his desire was soaring. He roared, “Get lost. Don’t touch me.”
“S-Sorry. Did I hurt you?”
Su Xi’s entire attention was almost drawn to this body. She was startled by the boy’s sudden low roar, her fingertips trembling slightly, but she accidentally provoked a more intense reaction from the boy.
She didn’t know anything about these things. She had probably only learned the basics online. It was just a matter of forcing a duck onto a perch. She vaguely knew that she should first tease the other party’s desire, but her technique was clumsy and rough. But she had successfully achieved her expected goal. She was already at the point of no return.
Her knowledge was scarce, but the unprecedented craving in her heart was terrifyingly real.
She was in so much discomfort.
This was a feeling she had never had before. She suddenly realized that she was so unfamiliar with this body, so confused that she couldn’t find a way to use it.
The sourness that had only lasted for a while before was now like a surging tide, wave after wave, pushing her onto the dry beach, and then being vaporized by the scorching sun, turning into a rain cloud in the sky and falling into the deep sea again.
She was so small, yet she could deeply experience this pleasure of being lost in the world.
Her body was even more like a bottle of carbonated drink with its lid blocked. After being shaken hard, countless gases were scrambling to rush out of the bottle. The bottle was bulging to its limit, but it could only weakly ooze a little bit of water mixed with white bubbles.
The trembling in the depths of her soul appeared on her body. She trembled as if she had been electrocuted. She gently wiped the sticky white foam from the rim of the bottle and slowly lowered her gaze. The desire in her eyes swirled into a fatal vortex. In a daze, she felt as if she had found a lighthouse in her lost way, a key to escape from desire.
“Zhiyan, save me one more time.”
Su Xi leaned down and kissed him deeply. This time, the other party did not resist at all… he even responded. Their soft and moist lips were bitten together hard, and the sound of water was trickling. The two writhing creatures in their mouths seemed to be two pink little snakes. Their desire, which had been dormant for the entire winter, was strongly attracting each other. They got closer… their soft bodies wrapped around each other, exercising the instinct that animals could not escape in the spring.
They were entangled for a long time. If it wasn’t for the loss of strength, this spring-like kiss would have lasted longer.
A raging fire was burning in their skulls, almost burning up all the oxygen in their bodies. The psychedelic feeling brought by the suffocation made them unable to find their own existence.
The closed bedroom was as warm as spring. Without the restraint of reason, the primal desire was hooked up. They tragically fell to the same state as the organs in their mouths.
“Don’t continue. Don’t touch me. We can’t do these things… it’s not good for you. You’ll regret it.”
Su Yu grabbed the last bit of reason. The red and yellow intertwined in his once-clear eyes. He hated himself so much. If he hadn’t had so many scruples, he wouldn’t have been in such a painful state, hovering between pleasure and pain.
But the girl just looked at him and smiled. Her pale lips were not as delicate as before, but they had a hint of fragility, which was not a reason for her to regret.
“I’ve always regretted it. I’ve regretted it for more than a decade. I regret not confessing to you back then… I’ve wasted so much time.”
Su Xi still kissed him non-stop. The moist water marks spread from his eyebrows and eyes to his waist and back, which were arched in discomfort. Her teasing of the boy became more and more skillful. The sizzling sound of water was filled with an endless ambiguity in her heart. Her instinct became a conscious and deliberate manipulation. The trembling sensation from her fingertips made her excited… and expectant.
“Just as you said, we don’t have much time left. We’ll be found out sooner or later. So I don’t want to waste a single second.”
Su Yu had no strength to speak. The two contradictory emotions of powerlessness and excitement were clashing in his body like fire and water, like a cosmic explosion, and a new life was born from the desolation. This was a primal and irresistible desire.
The spring tide on the side of his neck spread all the way to the corners of his eyes. It was a thick and unresolvable emotional red. The sinful craving was also soaring. He actually craved this kind of continuous sinking desire in his heart.
Desire twisted his handsome and delicate face, making it a little ugly. His body was curled up, his heart resisting… but his body was responding.
“It’s okay. I’m willing… I hope you are too, Zhiyan.”
How could she dislike the boy’s ugliness at this moment? Just as the boy had not disliked her before. She hated every living creature in this world. Their ugliness made her want to vomit, including herself. But among all the living creatures, Zhiyan was different.
This was a joy that was not related to lust and skin. It was like looking up at the scattered stars in the sky, feeling the last wisp of fresh breeze in the midsummer, and pursuing the grace of the gods…
He was beautiful. He was her light in the darkness. Even if she was covered in scars from the scorching light, she would not hesitate for a moment. She even craved this process of baptism.
A battered body… must also hold on to this ray of light.
Su Xi’s fingertips gently brushed over the boy’s red eyelids. She smiled foolishly. When she smiled, the corners of her lips would slightly curve up, and her eyes would be curved. She was as sweet as a strawberry-flavored candy. The shoulder straps of her dress were blown off by the wind, and her neck was slender and delicate, her collarbones exquisite and small, like a colorful butterfly dancing gracefully.
She knelt on the bed, looking down at the handsome young man who was about to be imprisoned by desire into a ferocious beast. She chuckled, very satisfied with this result.
She leaned down, her slender and small ankles curled up, like a white and smooth ice cream in summer. Her knees, which were kneeling on the bed, were a faint pink. Her skirt was lifted, and the skin on the inside of her thighs, which had not been exposed to the sun, was as white as milk, and one could vaguely see the fine blue veins.
The warm, viscous light dripped down, as if a few drops of wax had fallen on her skin. The greasy touch made them unable to grasp each other, and they could only press tightly together.
Su Xi whispered in the boy’s hot ear, her tone as if she were asking for his consent. She asked slowly, “Can I? Zhiyan.”
“Wuwu…”
Su Yu’s lips were tightly pursed, like a withered rose petal. The hot breath rushed into his ear canal and into his cranial cavity. He was in a daze for a moment, and a few low and unintelligible gasps escaped his lips. “Yeah… no…”
“You agreed? So good… so good.”
Su Xi actually didn’t hear anything clearly, but her evil desire gave her the answer. She bit his earlobe, her mouth mumbling excitedly, “So good…”
She gently held Su Yu’s wrist, her thumb rubbing the small bump of his wrist bone. Her round buttocks were raised in a subtle arc, her waist soft, and she uncontrollably collapsed…
The lost traveler, with the help of the lighthouse that pierced the clouds and mist in the dead of night, finally reached the end of the labyrinth. She held the key and looked at the keyhole with excitement, but she couldn’t find the depth of the keyhole. She fumbled with the dilapidated door in frustration. But her barren knowledge couldn’t figure out this situation, and she could only try again and again in vain.
After trying for who knows how long, in a moment she didn’t even notice, a crisp click sounded in her mind. The key was inserted into the lock, and the old door hinge creaked, slowly revealing a few bright lights that shone into the dim labyrinth.
Su Xi squinted her eyes. In a daze, a huge force suddenly came from behind her. She was pushed into the world behind the door without any warning. The dazzling and scorching sunlight made her unable to open her eyes. She blocked the sunlight with her forehead, and her vision returned to clarity. She was shocked by the magnificent and grand scene in front of her.
A gentle breeze blew through the hair at her temples. She was in a vast and boundless sea of roses. The delicate roots and branches swayed with the breeze, and the bright red sea of flowers flowed with the waves, creating ripples. The falling rose petals flew up into the sky and slowly drifted down, and all that could be seen was a dazzling bright red.
She was stunned and picked a rose from her side. She held the thin green stem and suddenly used force. The sharp thorns pierced her skin and into her flesh.
A deep pain pierced every gap in her soul. Her face was pale, and her body trembled uncontrollably. But she still refused to let go, staring at the strands of fresh blood dripping down the stem and falling on the rose petals at her feet, the bright red becoming more and more dazzling.
She suddenly smiled, a sad and happy smile.
She stood up and saw the handsome young man in the center of the sea of flowers. His tall and straight back was clearly reflected in her eyes. A blue and white school uniform covered his slender body. The wind filled the loose sleeves of his school uniform. The boy turned his head and smiled at her, his handsome and elegant eyebrows and eyes as clear as an orchid under a pavilion.
Su Xi ran forward a few steps, forgetting the burning pain in her palm. A shy blush covered her cheeks. She looked around in a daze, but she still suppressed the pounding of her heart, which was like a little rabbit, and raised her head to meet the boy’s gaze.
She bit her lip, and her shy voice was as light as a traceless wind. But she still said the confession that had been hidden for more than a decade.
“Your name is Zhiyan, right? I… I like you.”
