Chapter 8: Fear
The white powder, without the cover of a capsule or hot milk, dissolved in his mouth with water. The taste was fatal… a deep bitterness that almost made him want to retch. His taste buds felt as if they had been hammered by a rusty hammer, the pain mixed with the bitter taste of rust. His sense of taste was almost gone.
Su Yu still forced himself to swallow the powder, gulping down a large glass of water.
He pursed his lips, the lingering bitterness on his tongue. The girl’s cold and indifferent gaze was fixed on his face. He was the one who was imprisoned, the victim. Yet, a hint of guilt for having taken advantage of the girl’s pure trust welled up in his heart, tormenting him like a persistent curse.
He didn’t dare to look at the girl’s face directly. He could only look down at the two capsules that had been thrown on the table. The dosage was very precisely controlled, twice a day. He had hidden the medicine under his tongue while drinking water, and had managed to hide a whole day’s dosage. Then he had hidden the medicine under the soft mattress, which had led to today’s escape plan.
But he had still underestimated the girl’s thoroughness. The balcony and every window within his reach were sealed shut. The doorknob was jammed. And he was trapped in this weak, fragile body, unable to break free.
The harmony that the two of them had managed to create had collapsed in an instant. Whether there had been any sincerity in the words they had said before, it was now just a show that could not be verified.
“Xiao Xi… listen to me. Don’t be so stubborn anymore. I’ve been missing for so long. They’ll find out eventually. Let me go. We can talk about anything…”
“Shut up!”
Su Xi roared and interrupted Su Yu. She suddenly became violent, stood up, and grabbed the boy in the wheelchair, who was even more fragile because of the drug. Anger made her strength particularly terrifying. Her sharp nails gripped his collar, and the fabric, unable to bear the force, let out a tearing sound.
She threw the boy onto the sofa. The other party’s powerless body could only lie limply, his limbs dangling at a strange angle on the edge of the sofa.
Su Xi was already trying her best to endure. Her teeth were clenched so tightly that blood was oozing from her gums. She licked the sweet and metallic blood on her white teeth, her fingers digging into her flesh, using the pain to relieve the violent desire that was stirring in her bones.
Why…
She really wanted to question him. She had clearly given the boy her last bit of gentleness. Enduring the urge to tear him apart and devour him was a very difficult… and painful thing.
She really was too soft-hearted. How foolish, Su Xi. The other party had only given her that little bit of insignificant gentleness, and she was so happy. She had even considered so much for him, her heart full of sweet fantasies that they might really be able to live together in the future, living a simple life of domestic bliss.
Thinking about it now, she was a complete… joke.
She hated this feeling of powerlessness… it was no different from the her of the past.
“They’ll come to save you? Don’t forget that the only thing you have to communicate with the outside world is in my hands. The messages that came asking, I just imitated your tone and said you went home for a trip and sent them away. How many people are worried about you? In the end, we’re the same kind of people.”
Su Xi gradually approached the boy, who was slumped on the sofa. Her beautiful, round eyes were filled with a crazed and obsessive, psychedelic light. She pressed the boy down, her cool fingertips tracing his delicate collarbone upwards, over the gentle lines of his face, his handsome and beautiful eyebrows…
“But I love you. Do you understand? I love you.”
“You…”
Su Yu stared at the girl’s bloodshot eyes, which were filled with a suppressed emotion. Fear once again swept over his heart. The girl’s gentleness had numbed him. The girl’s feelings for him were so twisted that they couldn’t be understood by common sense. It was as if a baseless vine had wrapped around him and tightened, but he couldn’t find the source.
“Shh! Don’t talk anymore. I’m afraid I… I’m afraid…”
Su Xi leaned down, and her soft, curled hair fell on both sides of the boy’s cheeks. She squinted her eyes, and a bright, emotional red rippled at the corners of her eyes. Her voice was low and soft, as light as a gust of wind. She whispered in the boy’s ear, her voice as gentle as the most bloody love words, “I can’t help but tear your mouth apart. Although Zhiyan wouldn’t look good then… I would still like Zhiyan. But I don’t want to do that. So don’t force me… okay?”
Su Yu gritted his teeth and really closed his mouth. He turned his head and fell into silence.
“Zhiyan, do you think… I’m too good to you? So much so that… so much so that you don’t know your place?”
Su Xi became more and more impatient. She turned the boy’s head back. She ran her hand through the boy’s thick, smooth black hair, and in his terrified eyes, she caressed his flesh. A vicious curve appeared on her lips, and her voice was cold. “You’re just my plaything.”
“My… thing.” Su Xi slowly added.
Su Xi suddenly stood up. She left Su Yu alone in the living room and went to the entryway to get the small box hidden in the shoe cabinet. She opened the box in front of the boy and tipped it over. Small bags with ambiguous text scattered across the table.
“Zhiyan, my birthday is coming soon. You said… you would prepare a gift for me. But there’s only one thing I really want…” She looked at the growing panic and helplessness in the boy’s eyes and smiled like a child, her eyes full of innocent romance. “I wasn’t going to let you have any attachments. I even thought about letting you go, to slowly cultivate our relationship like you said. But now I’ve changed my mind. You forced me to do this.”
She swept all the small bags on the table into the trash can, stared at Su Yu, and gritted her teeth, her tone fierce.
“I’m going to possess you completely.”
Su Yu guessed the girl’s plan, but he didn’t dare to think about it any further. The drug was gradually taking effect, and his head was once again in a state of powerless drowsiness. His obsession was the only thing that kept him from falling asleep. He tried to persuade the girl not to be so obsessed with such a criminal act.
“Su Xi, this isn’t love at all. This is possession… it’s selfish.”
“How is this not love? Of course it is. This is my unique love.”
Su Xi wouldn’t listen to a single word. She had loved him for over a decade. If this wasn’t love, wouldn’t that mean all her years of relentless pursuit were in vain?
She would never accept such a result… even if she was really wrong, there was no turning back on this path. She had never been stubborn, just had no other choice.
“Do you know, Zhiyan?”
Su Xi smiled, her slender, pale fingers running through the boy’s fluffy and messy hair. She simply stopped suppressing it and exposed her naked desire to the boy.
She lightly bit the boy’s soft earlobe, the hot and ambiguous temperature spreading along his neck. She raised her round eyes and met the boy’s gaze. Her clean eyes were black and white, and at first glance, they were a little innocent and romantic. Her tone was a little shy, like a young girl’s. Her index finger rested on the boy’s chest, and she drew a circle with excitement and nervousness, bringing a tickling sensation.
“It’s my first time doing this. I’m so excited. I wish my birthday were today. I can’t wait.”
“I beg you… don’t do this… please.”
Su Yu’s spirit was getting weaker and weaker, but he couldn’t control the crazy beating in his chest. He couldn’t imagine what would happen if Su Xi’s plans became a reality. The only thing he could do was to plead weakly. His tone was sincere and humble. “We can’t go that far. Think about Auntie Fang… she’ll be so sad. I’m really begging you.”
“Don’t mention her to me!”
Su Xi warned fiercely, her teeth clenched, biting the fragile earlobe. She sucked a few drops of blood, and her soft tongue smeared the bright red blood on her dry and pale lips. The corners of her lips were raised, with a bloody and stunning feeling.
“You don’t want to… then I’ll just do it.” She lifted the boy’s chin with her index finger and smiled wildly.
“Hate me. Just hate me for the rest of your life.”
