Chapter 8: Pain
The dim and unclear light shrouded his deep and three-dimensional features. He, in front of her, looked quiet and well-behaved. A little bit of a halo was on the bridge of his nose, and it inadvertently exuded a certain strange and cold temperament that had gently touched her. He Mu Qing then suddenly understood that because of these four years of change, it was not just her.
He Mu Qing lowered her head and saw Su Yu staring at a dark corner of the house, as if he were in a daze. His fingers were being pressed uneasily. His hands were still so beautiful, with slender fingers, strong joints, and fair skin, but the temperature was scorching hot.
Those hardships did not seem to have left any incurable scars on his exquisite skin. But the sadness that he had tried his best to hide but had still inadvertently revealed in his eyes made her unable to do anything. She had lived for four years with a little bit of sadness and a carefree attitude. When they had met again, it was as if there was a boundless deep sea between them.
“Why didn’t you come and find me?”
As soon as the question was out, He Mu Qing was so stupid that she had a sudden sense of guilt for revealing someone’s wound. She licked her dry and pale lips and racked her brains to find a way to change the subject. “Let’s not talk about these things. Then what about in the future? What will we do in the future?”
“Did you make this shredded pork with rice?”
Su Yu put the plate with the remaining half of the rice on the side of the table and smiled and nodded. “You’ve grown up. You didn’t even know how to turn on the gas stove before.”
“Su Yu!”, He Mu Qing took a quick breath, and her chest was slightly heaving. “You answer my question. Don’t change the subject.”
“I’ll probably go back…”
He curled his lips and smiled. When he was speaking, his upper eyelids were inadvertently and heavily hitting his lower eyelids, and his vision was suddenly in a darkness. But it was quickly pulled back by the faint and warm fragrance on the girl’s body, and he slowly opened his eyes again.
He was a little tired. Things had already gotten a little out of his control. His tense nerves had completely relaxed after he had poured out his heart, and he felt a sense of a stuffy and gloomy feeling being relieved.
He Mu Qing frowned tightly, and she was not very satisfied with this answer. She looked at a pair of dark eyes with the help of the light, and they were so gentle that they were familiar. In the shadows, the pupils were so pure that they were black. The long and neat eyelashes were like the dark wings of a butterfly, and they were trembling with some unease.
“Then… then will there be any danger?”
Her cherry-pink lips slowly parted, and a weak airflow was on his face. She slowly and slowly cleared her throat, and her face was expressionless, with a sense of a feigned calmness. But she subconsciously sniffed, and her fingers were uneasily on the bedsheet, and her face was full of a tension that was about to burst.
“Don’t overthink it. I’m fine now, aren’t I? There’s nothing to worry about…”
“Where are you fine? You tell me, Su Yu. Where are you fine?”
“It was fine if you didn’t say it. The more you say it, the angrier I get. You have nothing now. How can you say you’re fine with a clear conscience…”, the little girl was as if she had lit a barrel of explosives and had suddenly stood up. Her whole person was visibly excited. She was leaning forward and was getting close to Su Yu. She was staring at his evasive eyes behind his messy hair, and she was saying every word very seriously.
“Anyway, you’re just a liar. I don’t believe a single word you say now.”
They were very close, and their breaths were intertwined. They could hear the restless and uneasy heart pounding in their chests, and it was clearly ringing in his ear. His gaze was more and more at a loss.
He sighed with some helplessness, and his voice was softened. He said softly, “I just came to see you. I don’t have a good solution for these things for the time being. I’ll just be a burden to you. In the future… yeah… let’s just pretend we didn’t meet today.”
He Mu Qing was suddenly choked, and her voice disappeared in her throat. She carefully listened to every word the other party had said, and then her brain was in a blank state, and she couldn’t understand.
She was stunned for a few seconds before she slowly realized that everything between them had started strangely, and it had also ended so abruptly.
The feelings that had been deeply buried in her heart because they had once been rampant had suddenly loosened their floodgates. It was no longer a fresh and young bitterness. It was like a rising tide, and it was overflowing the riverbank. It was beginning to rush towards the gap in her emotions, and it had broken through her feigned strength, and the old wine that had been brewed was so hot and spicy in her mouth.
Are you going to leave like this again? Are you going to draw a line with her?
Her eyes were red without any warning, and a crystal-clear and watery light was in her eyes. She had torn off the unnecessary maturity that she had been pretending to have in front of others. She reached out and grabbed his neat collar. “Then you listen up.” Her voice was choking, but her expression was fierce, with a hint of a gritted-teeth meaning.
“I won’t!”
Su Yu looked at the girl’s aggressive appearance. She was half a head shorter than him, and she had to raise her head to look at him when she was speaking. But she did not lose a single bit of her momentum. The expression on her face was the same as at that time. Her pink nose was slightly wrinkled, and she was grinning, and a sharp canine tooth was exposed. When she was angry, every eyebrow seemed to have used up all its strength.
The girl’s words were also sonorous and powerful, as if she had to convince him. For some reason, Su Yu wanted to laugh a little. But it was probably a smile that was mixed with a bitter meaning. He thought for a moment and suppressed the corners of his lips.
He looked at the girl very seriously, without any perfunctoriness. He blinked his eyes and calmly changed the subject. He comforted her in a soft voice, “I’m not leaving now. It’s cold… you should go and take a shower after being in the rain.”
“Hmph, you know what’s good for you. You’ll never be able to get rid of me in this life…”
Halfway through her harsh words, the little girl suddenly and sensitively realized what she had said. Her fierce expression was frozen on her face, and she looked a little dazed.
How could it be… a lifetime? Was she too unreserved…
She realized her slip of the tongue, but she couldn’t help but have all kinds of fantasies. Her anger had dissipated, and a blush had spread from the side of her neck to the base of her ears. It was so red that it was about to drip with blood. Fortunately, the room was dark and there was only a table lamp on. And she had just been angry. It shouldn’t be seen, right…
He Mu Qing tilted her head and secretly looked at Su Yu for a few moments. She saw his slightly upturned lips, which were because he was not clear about it. She held the greasy plate on the table as if she had a guilty conscience and wanted to leave. “You always used to wash the dishes. This time, I’ll wash them. You can sit for a while. If you’re sleepy, you can take a shower and go to bed first.”
But before she could take a step, her face suddenly turned pale. The plate in her hand was almost about to fall to the ground. A wave of a physiological pain was coming from her lower abdomen. She gritted her teeth and was secretly annoyed. She had forgotten that her emotions had just been like a roller coaster, and she was complaining that it was so painful at this time.
“What’s wrong?”
Su Yu immediately chased after her and supported He Mu Qing. The plate he had taken was casually thrown on the ground by him. His tone was full of remorse. “It’s my fault. I forgot that you had that these few days. I should have remembered.”
“It’s okay. You still remember a lot. But it’s a pity that the mango pudding you sent was soaked in a lot of rain. I can’t eat it.”
He Mu Qing was pulling at the corners of her lips, but she couldn’t smile at all. It was really too painful. She couldn’t even stand up. She could only bend down and lean against Su Yu’s arms. She was hissing with a cold breath, and her lips were even trembling slightly. Her eyes were red again, and tears were in her eyes.
It had not been like this in these past few years. When she had seen him, she had cried twice so quickly. She was so useless.
She slightly raised her head and saw his neat and powerful jawline, and his prominent Adam’s apple was rolling up and down. She was grinning and still smiled.
“Hey, it seems that the dishes are going to be washed by you again this time.”
