Chapter 64: Low Self-Esteem. “It’s not illegal to show off our affection after we’re married.”
“Ahhhhhhh!”
A series of piercing screams came from the pendulum ride, one after another.
Cheng Yang looked up at the pendulum ride above her and wanted to go and have a try.
She took Xu Xun’s hand to queue, but Xu Xun shook her head. “I can play, but you can’t.”
Cheng Yang looked aggrieved. “Why not?”
Xu Xun rubbed the back of her head. “Your brain is not very good to begin with. What if you go up and get shaken up?”
“…”
Cheng Yang felt as if she had been insulted, but what Xu Xun had said was indeed reasonable, and she couldn’t refute it at all.
Seeing Cheng Yang’s unenthusiastic appearance, Xu Xun took her hand and prepared to leave.
“Where are you going? Are you not playing anymore?”
Xu Xun nodded. “You can’t play this. I’ll take you to the merry-go-round.”
Just now, when Cheng Yang had seen Xu Xun looking up at the pendulum ride, her eyes were clearly sparkling with an eager emotion, but now, she was willing to not play for her sake.
Cheng Yang said with a smile, “Isn’t the point of coming to an amusement park to play these exciting rides? I’ll watch you from below and help you take photos. You can just scream your lungs out up there.”
Xu Xun raised an eyebrow slightly. “So you’re trying to take an ugly photo of me?”
The corners of Cheng Yang’s lips curled up. “How could I be so perverted? And you’re so beautiful. It’s impossible for you to have an ugly photo. You can just go without any worries.”
The more Cheng Yang encouraged her, the more Xu Xun felt that something was amiss.
But she still obediently went to queue.
Xu Xun had never been to an amusement park with anyone else before.
Back in college, she was the only one in the whole dormitory who had a part-time job.
Every time there was a dormitory dinner, she would always be nowhere to be found. When asked, it was because she was tutoring and couldn’t get away.
In fact, even when Xu Xun was not tutoring, she would not go to this kind of dinner.
She had no money, and she didn’t want to spend money.
And her relationship with these few roommates was also average. Xu Xun couldn’t be bothered to go.
Over time, the other three roommates also stopped asking her to dinner.
In the eyes of her roommates, Xu Xun was an eccentric loner.
Xu Xun, on the other hand, was happy to be at peace. She didn’t have to be targeted for saying the wrong thing, nor did she have to be pulled into the N small groups of the three of them.
She knew that besides the main dormitory group, her roommates must have had other chat groups, but she was not in that group.
After graduation, Xu Xun deleted all her roommates’ contact information, and she even left the class group and the school group.
After all, people with different paths do not walk together.
Xu Xun stood behind the queue, while Cheng Yang held the camera hanging around her neck and stood outside the railing, taking photos of Xu Xun.
“Go for it! Don’t be afraid!”
Xu Xun slowly curved her lips at her.
In fact, she was still quite nervous. Looking at the tumbling pendulum ride not far away, and the screams that were rising and falling, Xu Xun’s legs were a little weak.
But the moment she turned her head, she met Cheng Yang’s expectant eyes.
At this moment, it was as if she had made up her mind, and her eyes became even more determined.
After queuing for nearly half an hour, it was finally Xu Xun’s turn.
Her phone was taken away by the staff and put in a cabinet on the side for safekeeping.
Cheng Yang held up her camera, found a good spot with a panoramic view, and took a series of photos of Xu Xun.
She took them very clearly and could even capture the nervousness on Xu Xun’s face.
Cheng Yang was a little worried. She had often seen on the news that there were problems with the facilities at a certain amusement park, and that they would automatically roll over while flying, or stop in mid-air, or not be able to stop after spinning.
But if you wanted to have fun, you had to bear the corresponding risks.
Cheng Yang silently recited in her heart, hoping that there would be no problems with Xu Xun’s trip on the pendulum ride.
But this kind of thing was not something she could predict.
With a whistle, the pendulum ride started.
Cheng Yang looked at the slowly rising pendulum ride, and her heart was in her throat.
So… so scary.
When Cheng Yang saw the pendulum ride stop vertically in mid-air, and everyone’s hair was hanging down, her heart was pounding in her chest.
Fortunately, Xu Xun hadn’t let her play this at that time, otherwise she really might have fainted on it.
After about five minutes, the pendulum ride began to slowly stop.
Cheng Yang’s heart also slowly fell back into her stomach along with the slowly descending pendulum ride.
“Phew—”
She let out a light sigh of relief, quickly ran up from the other side, and quickly and skillfully supported the weak-legged Xu Xun.
“Wifey, how do you feel?”
Xu Xun’s face was slightly pale, and the color of her lips had also faded.
“I’m fine.”
But the moment she opened her mouth, she exposed her state.
Her voice was hoarse and had a slight tremor.
Cheng Yang couldn’t help but laugh, but for the sake of Xu Xun’s strong face, she could only try her best to suppress the upward curve of her lips.
“That’s good. When I saw you spinning in the sky just now, I was so scared my heart was about to jump out. It’s a good thing you’re fine.”
Xu Xun smiled and was helped to the side by Cheng Yang to sit down.
“What are you thinking about all day? I’m fine.”
Cheng Yang said, “I’ve often seen some horror movies related to amusement parks before, for example, that ‘Final Destination.’ I thought of it the moment you got on.”
Xu Xun said with a smile, “That’s a roller coaster, and it’s all fictional. You can rest assured.”
It would have been better if she hadn’t mentioned ‘Final Destination.’ The moment she did, Cheng Yang’s heart pounded.
“Wifey, roller coasters are too scary.”
She subconsciously gripped the camera, recalling the protagonist of that movie, who had died because she had secretly taken a photo, and all the people in the photo had died in the end.
“…”
She quickly put the camera back in her bag and carefully discussed with Xu Xun.
“Wifey, why don’t we not ride the roller coaster? Let’s go and play something else. How about the drop tower?”
Xu Xun saw through Cheng Yang’s concerns and nodded. “Okay, but you can’t play this either.”
Cheng Yang quickly nodded vigorously. “Mmm, mmm! I’m definitely not playing!”
She had just witnessed the terror of the pendulum ride up close. Even if she were given a hundred million, she wouldn’t dare to go up and play.
But Xu Xun had had a lot of fun. When she was taking photos just now, Cheng Yang had aimed the camera at Xu Xun’s face and had found that she was still smiling.
Cheng Yang couldn’t help but shiver.
At first, she had indeed been quite curious. After all, she had never played this kind of entertainment project before.
But after seeing these people’s reactions, Cheng Yang swore that she would only be a companion for the rest of her life. As for getting on, she would just forget it.
Xu Xun took a sip of water and couldn’t help but reach out and pinch Cheng Yang’s cheek.
“Why do you look more nervous than me?”
Cheng Yang said honestly, it was not embarrassing at all in front of her wife.
“I’m just scared. When you went up just now, I was so scared my legs went weak.”
Xu Xun rubbed her head. “Be good. If you’re scared, then don’t play. Don’t force yourself.”
Cheng Yang quickly nodded. “Not at all!”
It was only past eleven in the morning now, but many restaurants were overcrowded.
Cheng Yang rubbed her small belly and looked at the dense crowd queuing, and couldn’t help but complain.
“Why are there so many people today? And they’re all children.”
The moment she finished speaking, she was bumped forward by a few running children.
“…”
Cheng Yang was helpless. “So rude. Where are their parents?”
The moment Xu Xun heard Cheng Yang complain, she directly let go of her hand and chased after the few little boys.
“Apologize.”
The little boy made a face at Xu Xun, and then sat on the floor with a plop, covering his face and starting to wail.
“Boo hoo hoo! Dad, Mom! Someone is bullying me here!”
He just started!
Cheng Yang was shocked. She quickly stood beside Xu Xun and whispered in her ear, “See, this is what you call professional. His acting skills are better than many professional actors.”
At first, Xu Xun was still angry. After hearing Cheng Yang’s words, she couldn’t help but curve her lips.
The two of them were wearing masks and sunglasses, and they were tightly covered. Almost no one could recognize that they were public figures.
The little boy’s father came over, hearing the sound, and pointed at Xu Xun’s nose and cursed without distinguishing right from wrong.
He had only cursed for half a sentence when Cheng Yang stood in front of Xu Xun and gave this person a slap.
“Slap!”
Xu Xun was startled by Cheng Yang’s sudden action.
She lowered her voice. “Why did you hit him? What if someone takes a photo and uploads it to the internet…”
Cheng Yang didn’t care about any identity.
She was now almost in a state of retirement. Even if there were scandals, it wouldn’t affect her.
Cheng Yang comforted her, “Don’t be afraid. We’re all adults. This kind of thing needs to be solved with adult methods.”
“And he cursed you.”
Cheng Yang stared straight at this male Alpha whom she had just slapped and gritted her teeth. “What is he? How dare he curse you?”
Xu Xun looked at Cheng Yang’s profile, her nose slightly tingling.
In fact, she had suffered a lot of grievances over the years. Because she had no parents and no friends, she could only digest them by herself. No one would comfort her, let alone stand up for her for such a small matter.
Cheng Yang took a few steps back and protected Xu Xun behind her.
The male Alpha held his son and was aggressive. “Let everyone see how you two adults are bullying my son!”
Cheng Yang’s brow furrowed tightly. “Bullying your son? Which eye did you see it with? Is there a witness around? Did any of you see it?”
More and more onlookers were gathering.
“How can these two bully a child?”
“Who’s bullying who? Don’t talk nonsense if you didn’t see it. Spreading rumors is illegal.”
At this moment, the male Alpha pushed another child over.
“He saw it. Let him say it!”
This little boy was obviously a little timid. He pointed at Cheng Yang and said, “I saw it just now. It was her who pushed.”
There were not many people on this road just now. It was clearly a wide road, but the little boy had insisted on squeezing through them and had even bumped into Cheng Yang.
This was obviously on purpose, without a doubt.
Cheng Yang said with a smile, “Little friend, if you lie, your nose will grow.”
The male Alpha quickly said, “He’s still a half-grown child! Can he lie?”
“A child?”
Cheng Yang sneered. “This is probably your son too, right? You can take out his ID card and see if his surname is the same as yours.”
The man was suddenly speechless. “You… you’re just twisting logic!”
At this moment, Cheng Yang suddenly noticed that the camera on her chest was still reflecting light, so she smiled and turned on the camera.
“I have evidence of your family’s scam here. If we go to court, you’ll have to compensate me and my lover for lost work and mental distress.”
The moment the male Alpha heard that he had to pay, he didn’t care whether he had been filmed or not.
He knew he was in the wrong. He held the child who was sitting on the floor and ran, disappearing in a flash.
However, he seemed to have forgotten that there was still one standing beside him.
Cheng Yang bent down and said to this lying little boy with a grin, “Little friend, your dad doesn’t want you anymore.”
The moment she finished speaking, this little boy quickly chased after him, covering his eyes and crying.
After the surrounding crowd had dispersed, Xu Xun finally spoke.
“Did you really record it?”
Cheng Yang shook her head and smiled slyly. “No, I was lying to him.”
Xu Xun stood behind her, at a loss for words.
Finally, she sighed. “Yangyang, actually, you don’t have to do it yourself for me.”
Xu Xun held Cheng Yang’s wrist. “That slap just now was very loud. Did your hand hurt?”
Cheng Yang shook her head, then nodded, and said coquettishly, “A little. I need you to coax me for it to get better.”
Xu Xun smiled but still felt that it was indeed very rash for Cheng Yang to have acted for her.
“Yangyang, I know you’re doing it for my own good, but you’re a public figure. This is like being caught by someone. I’m afraid it will affect you.”
Cheng Yang held Xu Xun’s hand and explained, “How can I bear to see you being bullied? You’re my only relative in this world. Even if the consequences are very serious, I can’t let others bully you.”
In fact, that slap just now was not under her control at all.
Only after Cheng Yang had hit him did she realize that she had done something bad.
She pushed Xu Xun forward.
“Alright, don’t think too much about it. It will be fine. Let’s go and ride the roller coaster.”
There were not a few people queuing for the roller coaster. Cheng Yang was daunted and stood in the outfield to cheer for Xu Xun.
But soon, the video of her hitting someone at the amusement park went viral.
Although Cheng Yang was tightly covered, she was still recognized by the anti-fans at a glance.
Cheng Yang was waiting in the outfield. She looked at the video that was spreading like crazy on her phone and wanted to call Yu Mei.
Just at this moment, a call from Yu Mei came in.
She cursed from the start.
“What are you trying to do? You actually hit someone in public at an amusement park. Do you know how big of an impact this has?”
Cheng Yang said carelessly, “I hit him, so I hit him. I can’t go back in time. Besides, I didn’t hit a person. If in that situation, I had let others bully Xu Xun, would I still be a person? I might as well just get a divorce.”
Yu Mei’s anger was immediately retracted.
She knew Cheng Yang’s temper very well. This person looked gentle and easygoing on the surface, but in reality, she was vengeful and protective.
Not to mention Xu Xun being cursed, even if she had just complained about the other a little, she would have been attacked by Cheng Yang.
Yu Mei sighed. “Alright then. I know you had no choice. I’ll handle this matter. You’re already a semi-retired person. I didn’t expect you to still be on the trending topics.”
Looking at the Xu Xun’s roller coaster slowly starting, Cheng Yang said, “Who made me so popular?”
“…”
Yu Mei gritted her teeth. “I still don’t understand. You’re only twenty-five. It’s a good time to work on your career. It’s one thing not to film movies, but you even announced your marriage at this critical moment. It’s one thing to announce it, but you’re even clamoring to retire from the circle. How on earth is your brain wired? What on earth are you trying to do!”
She vented all her resentment in one go, but Cheng Yang didn’t feel anything.
“Yu Mei, you know me. I’m not interested in fame and fortune.”
“…”
Now you’re not interested in fame and fortune again.
Yu Mei sighed. “I know, but I feel that it’s not worth it for you.”
Of course, Yu Mei knew that Cheng Yang was not very interested in filming.
She had never studied acting, but her acting skills were natural and so exquisite that they made old actors clap their hands in praise.
Especially Cheng Yang’s melancholic eyes, which made the audience’s hearts ache and they couldn’t help but be attracted by her.
But Yu Mei also knew that this look was not acted out, but a real expression of emotion.
At first, Yu Mei had been indifferent to Xu Xun, but now she had inexplicably started to hate her.
If it weren’t for her, Cheng Yang would not have suddenly retired from the circle.
But then Yu Mei thought again, if it weren’t for her, Cheng Yang probably would not have stayed in the entertainment industry for so long.
There was a cause and effect for everything. Yu Mei had a sudden realization.
But Cheng Yang was her best friend. Yu Mei felt that Cheng Yang’s final destination should be a more outstanding Omega.
Yu Mei couldn’t speak rationally.
She hated Xu Xun.
Hated her to the extreme.
But Cheng Yang was head over heels in love, and she was even willing to be deceived by the other and to indulge in a lie that would break with a touch.
Hearing that the other side had not spoken for a long time, Cheng Yang looked at the Xu Xun who had come back after a round. “I’m hanging up now. A-Xun is back.”
Just as Yu Mei was about to say not to be a love-struck fool, the phone was hung up.
“…”
She pinched the bridge of her nose and pushed her wheelchair to the office.
Her leg was not yet healed, and she had to do PR for this troublesome love-struck fool.
Yu Mei felt that she was going to get a small nodule from anger.
After Xu Xun got off the roller coaster, her two legs were slightly weak, and her head was also dizzy.
Cheng Yang quickly ran over to support her. “How is it? Do you feel anything? Do you want to throw up?”
Xu Xun shook her head and sat on a chair, dizzy.
“It’s very exciting, but it’s still quite scary.”
This was her first time, and she was still not done when she got off.
No wonder when she was in college, her roommates would always go to the amusement park on weekends. She hadn’t expected this feeling to be so addictive.
After calming down for a while, Xu Xun said with a smile, “Yangyang, I want to go again.”
“…”
Cheng Yang was stunned. “Alright then. But your face is not very good right now. Sit for a while first. We’ll go for lunch after the next round is over.”
“Okay.”
During the break, Cheng Yang couldn’t help but open her own Weibo.
She had indeed seen her own name on the trending topics again, and it was almost all topics about her.
#Cheng Yang hits someone#
#Cheng Yang’s bad private conduct#
…
#Cheng Yang’s domestic violence#
The previous ones were all fine. Cheng Yang had long expected this.
But what was this “domestic violence”?
Cheng Yang’s brow furrowed tightly, which made Xu Xun’s heart tighten.
“What’s wrong? Is your social media being flooded?”
Cheng Yang said with a smile, “It’s fine. It’s just that they’ve come up with some inexplicable things.”
She showed the “domestic violence” topic to Xu Xun, a look of frustration on her face. “It’s fine to say I’m a pervert or a retard, but this domestic violence…”
Cheng Yang was so angry she laughed.
Xu Xun had just finished a mouthful of water and almost spat it all out.
“Cough cough cough—”
She was choked. “What is this?”
Cheng Yang took the phone, uploaded an intimate photo of her and Xu Xun kissing, and then set this kissing photo as her avatar and background image, and the background was also on a loop.
She sat in the pavilion, typed with a smile, and sent out her opinion.
Seeing that Cheng Yang was smiling with a hint of “ill intent,” Xu Xun had a feeling that she was going to do something bad, so she quickly took out her phone and opened Weibo.
As a result, Xu Xun saw that Cheng Yang had found a blurry picture of a hand touching a crocodile and had added a sentence.
“Everyone, please don’t imitate. It will bite if you push it too far.”
Then, she also found that Cheng Yang had changed her avatar, which she had used for more than ten years, to an intimate photo of her and her face to face.
“…”
Xu Xun pressed her lips together, her finger on the phone trembling slightly.
“Yangyang, you’re being too high-profile.”
Cheng Yang held Xu Xun’s hand and poked the ring on her right ring finger.
“But we’re already married. It’s not illegal to show off our affection after we’re married.”
Xu Xun had rarely been treated with sincerity. Ever since her mother had passed away, there was nothing in this world that she was attached to.
In fact, on the day she had first met Cheng Yang, she had already thought of a way to commit suicide.
That was to go back home, turn on the gas, and lie quietly on her small bed, ending her life in this way.
Xu Xun had wanted to jump off a building, but she couldn’t die at school.
Her aunt’s family was already stingy and greedy. If she died at school, her aunt and uncle would definitely come to the school to make a scene.
Perhaps the school, in order to quell the matter, would give her a sum of hush money.
Thinking of this, Xu Xun had given up on this idea.
But that day, she had run into Cheng Yang.
Xu Xun had never seen such a beautiful Alpha, and such a beautiful person was not disgusted with her being all dirty and was even willing to give her her clothes to wear.
She didn’t look at her, nor did she laugh at her. Even if it delayed her time, she would still take her home.
After Xu Xun had gone home, she suddenly felt that life had hope again.
She couldn’t die. If she died, she wouldn’t be able to get back the old house that her mother had left behind. Who would sweep their graves in the future?
In this relationship, Xu Xun was the one with low self-esteem.
Even now that she had made money and had become a star, she was still the same as before. When she stood in front of Cheng Yang, she was ashamed of her own appearance, to the extreme.
The better Cheng Yang was to her, the more Xu Xun felt that she was not worthy.
With this kind of mood, Xu Xun felt more and more that her and Cheng Yang’s statuses were not equal, which was why she had had the mentality of not daring to get the certificate with Cheng Yang later on.
Seeing that Cheng Yang was drinking water, Xu Xun lowered her eyes, her eyes flowing, as if she were thinking about something.
Cheng Yang asked, “It’s almost the next wave. Are you going to play?”
Xu Xun looked up and smiled brightly. “I’m going, but I want you to go with me.”
Although Cheng Yang was still shaken, she still mustered her courage.
She was going all out!
“Okay.”
After saying this, Xu Xun let out a soft chuckle. “I was just teasing you. You can go with me after you’ve recovered. You’re not allowed to go back on your word.”
After the second round of the roller coaster, Xu Xun was helped down by Cheng Yang.
She hadn’t expected the roller coaster to be so exciting and fun. It was also her first experience in life.
The two of them were waiting for lunch in the restaurant. Cheng Yang took out her phone to play a small game, and Xu Xun sat beside her, watching.
After a while, Xu Xun’s phone suddenly rang twice.
She opened it and, her heart almost turned to stone, and her face also became unnatural.
Cheng Yang was fighting zombies and didn’t notice that Xu Xun’s face had changed.
“Ahhhhhhh! This flying zombie ate my sunflower!”
She was immersed in the grief of having her brain eaten by a zombie and didn’t notice that something was wrong with Xu Xun’s face.
The corners of Xu Xun’s lips curled up. “Oh, it’s fine. Let’s have another round. You’ll definitely win.”
She silently turned off her phone and placed the screen facing the table.
Xu Xun thought that by covering her phone screen, she could avoid this disaster.
On her WeChat interface, someone had sent a friend request.
“Hello, this is Yu Mei. I have something to talk to you about. Please accept.”