After Breaking Up With the Scheming Bad Woman 112

Chapter 112: From Now On, Let’s Never See Each Other Again, Chu Wantang.

“I also think it’s better for our past relationship to end here.”

Hearing Huai Xing’s words, Chu Wantang’s expression was very calm. She could even curl the corners of her lips. “Wan Yi said that a relationship can’t start without being clear, and it can’t be tacitly agreed upon without confirmation. Her experience in relationships is richer than ours, and there’s no problem with what she said. So I thought, tonight is a very good opportunity to confess.”

“Don’t pretend you don’t understand,” Huai Xing said, entering the door and bending down to take her slippers from the shoe cabinet.

“What I mean by ‘end it here,’ you know best,” she said. Every word was difficult to say, and her throat ached.

Chu Wantang almost couldn’t stand steadily. She still couldn’t see Huai Xing’s face clearly, but she stubbornly spat out four words, “I don’t know.”

Her tears broke, and she continued to fall. She was in so much pain that she was as if she were talking to herself. “What can I know? I don’t know anything.”

Huai Xing stood in front of her, glanced at the dress in the box. It could be seen that it was a dress made of high-end fabric, and it had a very good texture even when it was lying quietly in the box.

She then looked at the “Four Seasons Letter” at the side. The tulips were the main flower, and they were matched with several other varieties of flowers, which were splendid and beautiful.

She looked up again and looked at the person in front of her.

Chu Wantang’s eyes were moist, and she was crying her eyes out. The area around her eyes was pink, and her shoulders were trembling slightly, but her back was straight. Even when she cried, she had a three-parts noble air.

Huai Xing slowly raised her wrist and used her fingertips to brush away the teardrop that was still on Chu Wantang’s face and had not yet fallen. The scorching tears burned her skin.

She said softly, “Chu Wantang, everything between us ends here.”

“Why?” Chu Wantang asked. “Is it the same old ‘I’m tired of it’ excuse?”

Huai Xing: “No.”

Her breathing was a little difficult. She paused for a few seconds before she continued, “There’s no why for many things in the world. You don’t need to think about the reason, otherwise, it’s so tiring. Don’t you think so?”

“I don’t accept it. You clearly answered me that you liked being with me.”

“I just liked it at that moment, but I don’t like it now,” Huai Xing’s tone sounded without a trace of fluctuation, as if she were just stating a fact.

“I don’t believe it…”

Chu Wantang still put the bouquet to the side. She wiped her own tears with the back of her hand, trying to see Huai Xing’s appearance at this moment, but her sad tears could not be wiped clean. She said, “How can you expect me to believe it? Last night you said you wanted to play the violin for me, last night you were in my arms… today at the show, you even subconsciously held my hand…”

“Huai Xing, I haven’t lost my perception of emotions. I can feel your feelings for me,” she said, taking Huai Xing’s hand and placing it on her own heart. “Can’t you feel mine?”

Huai Xing did not answer and still gently took her hand and walked to the living room.

She pressed her down on the sofa and took a tissue from the coffee table to wipe her tears.

The night outside was getting deeper. Chu Wantang held Huai Xing’s wrist, and the beating pulse was transmitted to her palm.

She looked up at Huai Xing, her eyes sparkling with tears, and said with great certainty, “You see, you’re still wiping my tears now… how can you expect me to believe that you don’t like me?”

“I’ve already said, I’m a good person,” Huai Xing said, not struggling, and just stared at her face. “If it were Xianyue, Sister Shiwei, Sister Suisui, or anyone else, I would do the same.”

“But you wouldn’t hold Lu Xianyue’s hand when you were nervous at the show today.”

A few seconds later, Huai Xing finally responded, “Don’t be like this, Chu Wantang.”

She said, “After tonight, let’s not see each other again.”

“If you don’t explain it to me, how can I do that?”

“You’re right. Since I’m the one who proposed it, then it’s better for me to make the change,” Huai Xing said with a faint smile. “I’ll ask for a leave of absence from Auntie Lu tonight. I won’t be in Haicheng for a long time in the future. You won’t know where I am, and I’ll also change the room password. It has nothing to do with whether you can do it or not.”

She dragged out her tone. “But I really want to welcome a new life without you. Do you know that?”

“Let’s let everything between us stop at this still-decent moment, okay? For the sake of our mothers, I really don’t want to say things that are too harsh.”

Chu Wantang let go of her hand, stunned.

Huai Xing’s tone was one of discussion, and she sounded very polite. And it was precisely because of this politeness that she was suffocating.

“You still hate me, right? You still haven’t forgiven me, right?”

“I don’t hate you. I also said at my mother’s grave that I forgave you. That’s not a lie,” Huai Xing said, sitting down on the soft blanket, looking as calm and composed as she could. “I really just don’t want to have anything to do with you anymore.”

Chu Wantang’s tears boiled again, and she lost all perception of her surroundings. Her mind was only filled with what Huai Xing had just said.

“You could have said this on your birthday. Why did you wait until now to tell me?”

Her expression was extremely pained. “After you came back from your business trip, you could have not come upstairs to find me. You could have just said that the remaining eighty minutes didn’t count. You could have not called me Jiejie, Huai Xing. Otherwise, we wouldn’t have started. You still haven’t forgiven me.”

“What do I have to do to prove that I’ve really forgiven you?”

Chu Wantang patted the box at her side. “You said you liked the dress I designed for you…” She pressed her lips together tightly. “If you’re willing to accept it, then I’ll believe that you’ve forgiven me.”

Huai Xing’s long lashes trembled, and the memories of five years ago collided in her mind.

She remembered that during her lunch break at work, Chu Wantang had invited her to a hotel.

Afterwards, Chu Wantang had taken out a sketch and had told her that she wanted to give her this dress on her 22nd birthday. She had told her in advance so that she could keep the feeling of surprise until July 17th, and had also asked her if she liked this dress.

-“I like it, I super like it, I like it the most in the whole world.”

It was only because it was carefully designed for her by Chu Wantang that she liked it. If it had been someone else, her answer would not have been so deep.

But in the end, the years they had spent together were also Chu Wantang’s “careful design.”

Chu Wantang had watched her struggle and float in this relationship, and the rhetoric of not planning to abandon her according to the original plan was also just a paper lifebuoy—

She had not been saved. She had sunk deeper and deeper, and could no longer breathe.

Seeing that she was silent, Chu Wantang took out a bank card from her pocket and said, “And this bank card. I’ve never regretted spending that money on you. There’s not a single cent less of the eight hundred thousand in here. In these five years, I would still transfer a sum of money to it every month, and also on holidays… just like before. Of course, I know you don’t need this money now.”

“But if you can accept both of these things, then I will believe that you’ve forgiven me.”

-“I’ve also spent hundreds of thousands on her these past few years and provided so much emotional value. All in all, I’m very kind, and she’s not losing out.”

This sentence popped into Huai Xing’s mind again, making her tremble unconsciously. She took a deep breath and said to Chu Wantang as if she were begging, “Don’t force me.”

“I’m not forcing you,” Chu Wantang said, lowering herself, her forehead pressed against hers. “How could I bear to?”

“You are forcing me,” Huai Xing said, retreating in resistance, her arms propped on the soft blanket.

“So, you’re not accepting it, right? Or are you afraid to accept it?” Chu Wantang continued to press. “You lied in front of Auntie Huai again. In fact, you haven’t forgiven me.”

Huai Xing: “I haven’t!”

Her body was trembling violently, like a small, teetering sapling in a storm. Large teardrops still gushed out from her eyes, staining her clothes with dark tear stains. She said, “You really don’t have to force me anymore…”

Chu Wantang knelt down and held her tightly. “I’m sorry… I’m really sorry…”

Huai Xing’s body did not stop trembling, and she did not raise her arms to hug her back.

Her tears were flowing endlessly, and her nasal voice was thick. “I won’t fall into your trap again, because I don’t need to prove to you whether I’ve forgiven you or not. Anyway, we won’t see each other again in the future.”

“Huai Xing, don’t run away anymore,” Chu Wantang said, her heart aching as she saw her still restraining herself.

Her words also became more and more impolite. “Do you know? Every time I hurt you, you would never come to me and make a scene. You’re used to digesting it on your own. Even on the night you heard me say those words five years ago, you could have questioned me in person, but you didn’t. You created evidence that you weren’t there, deliberately drank cold drinks and took a cold shower to hurt your body, and even your tears had to be shed under this pretext, for fear of being noticed by me.”

“You’re afraid of having a conflict with me, and you’re afraid of dealing with such a conflict. You’re even careful to find an opportunity to run away. Do you think that this can protect yourself? Is it useful? If it were useful, what are you crying about now?”

Huai Xing couldn’t say a single word. Chu Wantang moved back to look at her face, but she still couldn’t see anything clearly, and she stroked her tears with her fingertips.

There was no turning back. Chu Wantang had no choice but to continue. “You want to leave our relationship with a sense of decency, but with the harm I’ve done to you, how do I deserve this decency? I don’t deserve anything. I don’t deserve your love, and I don’t deserve to be treated so gently by you.”

“When I was seven, Chu Lingyi took me from Jingcheng to Yuncheng. That year, she knew your birthday. She transferred all her guilt towards Auntie Huai to you, even though she never had the courage to say hello to you.”

“You’ve asked me before why I don’t celebrate my birthday. Why? Because she would never say a single ‘happy birthday’ to me. She didn’t like my arrival. She would ignore my birthday, but she remembered your birthday. She was surprised by your birth… do you know? She would even have me sing ‘happy birthday’ to you with her. She looked forward to your growth.”

“So I wanted to break up with you on your birthday. That way, for you in the future, the memory of your birthday would not be so beautiful. After all, you trusted me and relied on me so much. Your world only had me.”

“I’m just such a terrible person. I’m rotten to the core.”

Chu Wantang’s tears were streaming down her face, and she choked as she said, “I’m really… sorry.”

She then pressed her forehead against Huai Xing’s, and the airflow as she spoke was like lava. “I don’t know how to repent for it to be useful. What do I have to do for you to open your heart to me? Can you tell me? It’s completely fine if you don’t forgive me…”

The word “problem” was intercepted by Huai Xing. Her emotions collapsed, and she said in a broken voice, “Yes, I am running away. You looked so good to me. I was even unwilling to accept that all of this was a false reality. I wanted to pause the memories in a relatively beautiful scene…”

She no longer had the strength to push Chu Wantang away. She still closed her eyes and let her own tears fall. “I really have forgiven you. I just can’t betray the self who was so devoted to you but was played with by you. I even really want to hate you, but I can’t even hate you properly.”

“I also really want to know how I can open my heart to you, but I have no energy left.”

“I have no energy left to distinguish whether what you say is true or false. I asked you if you were working overtime in the study, and you were in the bedroom but lied to me and said you were. You transferred two thousand to the doll shop but told me it was two hundred… your lies come so easily. How can I believe you?”

“I won’t be like this again in the future…” Hearing her say this, Chu Wantang’s expression was flustered. “Really, I’ll tell you everything truthfully in the future.”

Huai Xing twitched her lips. “There’s no need.”

“But you still love me, and I also love you,” the feeling of Huai Xing about to fly away with the wind lingered in Chu Wantang’s heart. “Why can’t we…”

“I still love you?” Huai Xing repeated, and then denied, “I don’t.”

“You don’t?”

“No.”

“You’re a coward,” Chu Wantang said, sitting back on the soft blanket, her voice very low.

“On what grounds?”

This time it was Huai Xing’s turn to lean closer to her, and she blurted out a distant form of address. “Miss Chu, I just don’t love you. What’s wrong with that?” I just don’t want to love you. What’s wrong with that?

“On what grounds are you calling me a coward?”

“If you don’t love me, why did you hook me to Haicheng because of the many thunderstorms in Jingcheng? If you don’t love me, why did you rush back from Yunqi Yuan on the rainy night you just mentioned? If you don’t love me, why did you rush back to the doll shop I just mentioned? If you don’t love me, why did you record our time together in a work vlog…” Chu Wantang looked at her with difficulty, her voice still very low, recounting the details of their time together these days.

Huai Xing turned her face away. “Just think of it as me getting revenge on you.”

She took a tissue and wiped the tears from her face randomly. “I’m giving back to you what you did to me. We’re even.”

“We’re not even. This is far from enough, because I’m enjoying it. You’re rewarding me. You should be like me back then.”

“Then I don’t want you to continue to enjoy it,” Huai Xing said, propping herself up and standing up, her chest heavy. “I’m really too tired, Chu Wantang.”

“The internet says that a person can’t always make the right choice. Sometimes, they have to make the choice they like. Then for me, giving up the past eleven years with you is both the right and the choice I like.”

“Let me go, and let yourself go too, okay?”

Chu Wantang hugged her knees, her whole body cold. “Let’s not repeat our mothers’ path, okay? Let’s not have any regrets…”

“It’s impossible for life to have no regrets. I used to like you very much, but I’m not going to continue to like you. I’m at peace with the fact that our feelings were not connected at the same time, and I’m at peace with the fact that our relationship has regrets.”

“But it’s okay. The rest of our lives is still very long, enough for us to forget each other.”

Huai Xing looked at her like this and turned her face away in pain again. “Let’s each tidy up. We’ve never finished watching ‘Robot Dreams’ together before.”

“Tonight, we’ll watch it from beginning to end.”

“From now on, let’s never see each other again, Chu Wantang.”